You're right... Crying doesn't make you weak.
They say it's a brave thing to cry in front of others.
Me? Do I cry in front of others? I don't cry in private, friend.
That doesn't mean I think crying is a weak thing to do. There's just no place for it with me.
Sure, I've felt bad. I've been damn low before. And sure, I've felt the anger that burns inside of you and tries to leave through your eyes.
But I don't bother with the tears.
Throughout my life... When I was a child... Every time I cried, I would get angry with myself.
Strange thought, yea? Allow me to explain.
Every time a tear would well up, whether it was from feeling sorrow, empathy, pain, anger, apoplectic rage, or frustration. I would get upset with myself.
I'd get upset because I let my emotions get the better of me. I'd let my focus and control over myself slip.
That's not the man I wanted to be. I wanted to control my emotions for others, I didn't want to be apathetic. I just wanted to choose how I felt.
So that others could have the strong shoulder to cry on, and the warmth of a comrade to help calm them.
If I were to break I feel that I would lose that purpose and task. I'd just be another person looking for a shoulder to cry on.
Again. There's nothing wrong with crying. I am just here to make sure that everyone has someone to turn to.
I know it might be a burden. But it's MY burden.