I know no body cares, but I still feel the need to say something, even if it's just the void of this place. I am going to begin the process of purchasing a gun. When it's all said and done, I should be able to have it within 18 days. When I finally own it, I'm going to end my life. I have been pushing myself for 10 years in an attempt to change my station in life for the better but, mainly due to just poor luck, I haven't been successful. I leave no relatives. I leave 3 friends. They will not miss me, and I will do it in a way to minimize mess. I will not be remembered. It's probably more positive this way.