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#788 - Also, be careful. It may not seem it AT ALL when you are in th…  [+] (1 reply) 11/28/2016 on zergiel's profile 0
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#789 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
I understand where you're coming from and I do agree with you, but I really think A is an honest girl and that episode was definitely not fake. If she was calculating qnd wanted to get me for whatever reason she could have done so when I was single and HINTING that I was interested in her. I think she's just... clumsy.

And of course I did agree with you leaving her, from what you were telling me it was no good, it has to be double sided. it's different with Y, we're well balanced I think. so no great change happening for now. Thank you love senpai for your consulting - Or should I say Doctor of Love !
#785 - Ok... so this happened to me with my ex but not on the same sc…  [+] (4 replies) 11/28/2016 on zergiel's profile 0
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#786 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
Don't worry don't worry, I'm not an idiot - I mean yeah obviously I am but I can still think logically and I will think long and hard. I did ask myself these questions and the answers were
1. I don't know and I don't think I'll be able to sort it out. A was love at first sight, Y is love that comes from being comfortable tohether, it's different right.
2. Probably not. It's pretty good with Y so it would take a really good reason and being 140% sure about shit to wreck that. Plus I don't want to hurt her obviously
3. I've been trying to figure that shit for one fucking year. So I dunno.

Thank you ! worry not amigo, I wrote the rant in a moment of doubt but yesterday night I met with A abd it was... normal so I'm reassured~
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#788 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Also, be careful. It may not seem it AT ALL when you are in that kind of situation, but humans use your good intentions to manipulate you. So I'm not saying be skeptical about what A says, just take it with a grain of salt. I know Japanese are usually not that scummy as latinos are, but humans are humans.
As I told you, Disagree with me all you want, just don't close your mind to those possibilites. As a Doctor, you get to see the very nasty side of humans, so I give you my advice with the highest of regards.
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#789 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
I understand where you're coming from and I do agree with you, but I really think A is an honest girl and that episode was definitely not fake. If she was calculating qnd wanted to get me for whatever reason she could have done so when I was single and HINTING that I was interested in her. I think she's just... clumsy.

And of course I did agree with you leaving her, from what you were telling me it was no good, it has to be double sided. it's different with Y, we're well balanced I think. so no great change happening for now. Thank you love senpai for your consulting - Or should I say Doctor of Love !
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#787 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Alright, so there you have it. It's VERY different from my situation back there. My relatioship was going to shit and in the end she didn't fucking fought for us so you know... I knew she didn't love me, and she probably never was going to. So there was no other choice unfortunately.
I can't say I don't miss her from time to time, but I can definitely tell you that I HAD to do that. To remind myself that I was worth my effort, and my love. And if she wasn't gonna appreciate all the shit I did for her... Not even being able to tell me confortably she loved me after 2 years, then it was probably not worth it. I loved her, with all my heart, and I probably will love her as long as I am human, but I love myself more now.
#783 - OK OK OK OK 11/28/2016 on zergiel's profile 0
#780 - We talked about it, we are both not into each other romantical…  [+] (9 replies) 11/26/2016 on zergiel's profile 0
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#782 - feupy (11/27/2016) [-]
Ah, come on, had a nightmare about it now, great.
Sorry for the rant to come, I hope you like storytime, but a bit of background summed up from the start, this shit is a fucking telenovela I swear.
You might (or not) remember that at the end of november last year I had a first date with a girl (let's call her A) and came back from it saying that I was madly in love and stuff. And ever since we've have some dates, she was tellling me the situation with her boyfriend wasn't great but I couldn't say anything right ? boyfriend = shut up, I'm not a homewrecker even though the home's already on the verge of shrecking itself.
After months of a certain pattern with her (one date thate makes me think "yup, I'm in love", some other dates a bit less intense, then 2-3 months without seeing each other, repeat cycle), I saw a post on facebook where she was saying roughly "despite everything I might be saying, I guess after all I like my bf". So I got frustrating and was kind of telling about it to the girl who would later become my girlfriend, Y.. At this point, she had hinted that the liked me, but well I wasn't sure I could handle the distance and I still liked A. During the conversation about the whole thing with Y., she asked something like "I hope for you it will work out with A, but if it didn't, would you consider going out with, for instance, someone like me ?". And that made me snap. I thought "Shit, poor girl, she probably likes me and I"m complaining about another girl, and she's so fucking adorable and nice, I'm a fucking idiot." So after a bit of thinking, and since she said she was going to Tokyo but her friend wasn't there to put her up, I invited her at my place for the week-end, and that's the story of how we ended up together.

BUT

There was kind of a new development. A bit more than one week ago, A. asked me if Iwas up for going to eat somewhere at night with her and one of her friend who talked a bit of french. I said yes even though I didn't give a damn about the friend, plus I am terrifiend of strangers, but I wanted to see A. so... A bit later she texted me saying that her friend couldn't come, "sorry, is it okay with only me ?" -Fuck yeah it was. So we met at the restaurant, ate a lot of weird stuff (fucking Okinawa cuisine), drank a lot too as she was saying "Tonight I want to drink". For more background about her, she's a block of ice. By that I mean, a real japanese woman who doesn't show her emotions or feelings or talk crude truth - reason why it's complicated here, it's the norm. But that night (thx to the fukcing pure methanol they drink in Okinawa? That shit hits hard man) she told me everything, how she was sure her bf wasn't the right guy, he didn't care about her, the met like once a month only to have a meal and basta, and she stayed with him only because she has very little friends and is terrified of being alone. So I was already like wow, let me digest the info holy fuck. Then we left the restaurant for a bar as it was closing and she still wanted to drink. Then when we sat in the bar we ordered a coke to make a little pause, she told me it was a real relief to be able to told me those things, and it was funny that even with the language barrier she felt like I could understand her better than the others... and that's when she started CRYING. Ho-ly-shit, you can't imagine the fucking shock that was, I told you, usually she doesn't show a damn thing. So that's what a real Japanese kuudere/dandere looks like in real life, even the most ridiculous anime can't prepare you for the feels. She was saying things like "people who like me should say it clearly and people who don't should make it clear as well".

So this is where my second thoughts have been coming from. That last sentence, man, what if I had told her I liked her some months ago? It's bugging me so much I had my annual nightmare about it - to make it short 'cause no chara left, I simply cheated on my gf with her in the nightmare. Fucking hell.
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#785 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Ok... so this happened to me with my ex but not on the same scale.
I have to tell you this rn before I continue tho, I will tell you some stuff that may sound weird or not at all what you think, and disagree with me ALL you want, but never close your mind to the possibility of what I'm telling you.

Now that you read that, you have to ask yourself 3 questions:
1) Do you like A more than you like Y?
2) Is your likeness of A worth it, so you would break up with Y and end up with A?
3) Can you be sure that, if you were single, A would date you instead of other person?

Those three are VERY important. so you understand how this works.
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#786 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
Don't worry don't worry, I'm not an idiot - I mean yeah obviously I am but I can still think logically and I will think long and hard. I did ask myself these questions and the answers were
1. I don't know and I don't think I'll be able to sort it out. A was love at first sight, Y is love that comes from being comfortable tohether, it's different right.
2. Probably not. It's pretty good with Y so it would take a really good reason and being 140% sure about shit to wreck that. Plus I don't want to hurt her obviously
3. I've been trying to figure that shit for one fucking year. So I dunno.

Thank you ! worry not amigo, I wrote the rant in a moment of doubt but yesterday night I met with A abd it was... normal so I'm reassured~
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#788 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Also, be careful. It may not seem it AT ALL when you are in that kind of situation, but humans use your good intentions to manipulate you. So I'm not saying be skeptical about what A says, just take it with a grain of salt. I know Japanese are usually not that scummy as latinos are, but humans are humans.
As I told you, Disagree with me all you want, just don't close your mind to those possibilites. As a Doctor, you get to see the very nasty side of humans, so I give you my advice with the highest of regards.
User avatar
#789 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
I understand where you're coming from and I do agree with you, but I really think A is an honest girl and that episode was definitely not fake. If she was calculating qnd wanted to get me for whatever reason she could have done so when I was single and HINTING that I was interested in her. I think she's just... clumsy.

And of course I did agree with you leaving her, from what you were telling me it was no good, it has to be double sided. it's different with Y, we're well balanced I think. so no great change happening for now. Thank you love senpai for your consulting - Or should I say Doctor of Love !
User avatar
#787 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Alright, so there you have it. It's VERY different from my situation back there. My relatioship was going to shit and in the end she didn't fucking fought for us so you know... I knew she didn't love me, and she probably never was going to. So there was no other choice unfortunately.
I can't say I don't miss her from time to time, but I can definitely tell you that I HAD to do that. To remind myself that I was worth my effort, and my love. And if she wasn't gonna appreciate all the shit I did for her... Not even being able to tell me confortably she loved me after 2 years, then it was probably not worth it. I loved her, with all my heart, and I probably will love her as long as I am human, but I love myself more now.
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#784 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
I JUST HOPE IM NOT TOO LATE FUCKING HELL
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#783 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
OK OK OK OK
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#781 - feupy (11/26/2016) [-]
I see, maybe another time !

It's okay, work is frantic but I just took a small weekk off. Are you surviving yours ?
#778 - You said it. Although we indeed sometimes ask for too much, th…  [+] (11 replies) 11/24/2016 on zergiel's profile 0
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#779 - feupy (11/25/2016) [-]
Well if not overthinking things is the solution I think I'm fucked~

How is it going for you ? can it be serious with that girl you told me about ?
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#780 - zergiel (11/26/2016) [-]
We talked about it, we are both not into each other romantically, it was the first time we both drunkily made out with someone else, so we kinda laughed it off and that was it. So no mon ami.
And you? how's work and stuff?
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#782 - feupy (11/27/2016) [-]
Ah, come on, had a nightmare about it now, great.
Sorry for the rant to come, I hope you like storytime, but a bit of background summed up from the start, this shit is a fucking telenovela I swear.
You might (or not) remember that at the end of november last year I had a first date with a girl (let's call her A) and came back from it saying that I was madly in love and stuff. And ever since we've have some dates, she was tellling me the situation with her boyfriend wasn't great but I couldn't say anything right ? boyfriend = shut up, I'm not a homewrecker even though the home's already on the verge of shrecking itself.
After months of a certain pattern with her (one date thate makes me think "yup, I'm in love", some other dates a bit less intense, then 2-3 months without seeing each other, repeat cycle), I saw a post on facebook where she was saying roughly "despite everything I might be saying, I guess after all I like my bf". So I got frustrating and was kind of telling about it to the girl who would later become my girlfriend, Y.. At this point, she had hinted that the liked me, but well I wasn't sure I could handle the distance and I still liked A. During the conversation about the whole thing with Y., she asked something like "I hope for you it will work out with A, but if it didn't, would you consider going out with, for instance, someone like me ?". And that made me snap. I thought "Shit, poor girl, she probably likes me and I"m complaining about another girl, and she's so fucking adorable and nice, I'm a fucking idiot." So after a bit of thinking, and since she said she was going to Tokyo but her friend wasn't there to put her up, I invited her at my place for the week-end, and that's the story of how we ended up together.

BUT

There was kind of a new development. A bit more than one week ago, A. asked me if Iwas up for going to eat somewhere at night with her and one of her friend who talked a bit of french. I said yes even though I didn't give a damn about the friend, plus I am terrifiend of strangers, but I wanted to see A. so... A bit later she texted me saying that her friend couldn't come, "sorry, is it okay with only me ?" -Fuck yeah it was. So we met at the restaurant, ate a lot of weird stuff (fucking Okinawa cuisine), drank a lot too as she was saying "Tonight I want to drink". For more background about her, she's a block of ice. By that I mean, a real japanese woman who doesn't show her emotions or feelings or talk crude truth - reason why it's complicated here, it's the norm. But that night (thx to the fukcing pure methanol they drink in Okinawa? That shit hits hard man) she told me everything, how she was sure her bf wasn't the right guy, he didn't care about her, the met like once a month only to have a meal and basta, and she stayed with him only because she has very little friends and is terrified of being alone. So I was already like wow, let me digest the info holy fuck. Then we left the restaurant for a bar as it was closing and she still wanted to drink. Then when we sat in the bar we ordered a coke to make a little pause, she told me it was a real relief to be able to told me those things, and it was funny that even with the language barrier she felt like I could understand her better than the others... and that's when she started CRYING. Ho-ly-shit, you can't imagine the fucking shock that was, I told you, usually she doesn't show a damn thing. So that's what a real Japanese kuudere/dandere looks like in real life, even the most ridiculous anime can't prepare you for the feels. She was saying things like "people who like me should say it clearly and people who don't should make it clear as well".

So this is where my second thoughts have been coming from. That last sentence, man, what if I had told her I liked her some months ago? It's bugging me so much I had my annual nightmare about it - to make it short 'cause no chara left, I simply cheated on my gf with her in the nightmare. Fucking hell.
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#785 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Ok... so this happened to me with my ex but not on the same scale.
I have to tell you this rn before I continue tho, I will tell you some stuff that may sound weird or not at all what you think, and disagree with me ALL you want, but never close your mind to the possibility of what I'm telling you.

Now that you read that, you have to ask yourself 3 questions:
1) Do you like A more than you like Y?
2) Is your likeness of A worth it, so you would break up with Y and end up with A?
3) Can you be sure that, if you were single, A would date you instead of other person?

Those three are VERY important. so you understand how this works.
User avatar
#786 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
Don't worry don't worry, I'm not an idiot - I mean yeah obviously I am but I can still think logically and I will think long and hard. I did ask myself these questions and the answers were
1. I don't know and I don't think I'll be able to sort it out. A was love at first sight, Y is love that comes from being comfortable tohether, it's different right.
2. Probably not. It's pretty good with Y so it would take a really good reason and being 140% sure about shit to wreck that. Plus I don't want to hurt her obviously
3. I've been trying to figure that shit for one fucking year. So I dunno.

Thank you ! worry not amigo, I wrote the rant in a moment of doubt but yesterday night I met with A abd it was... normal so I'm reassured~
User avatar
#788 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Also, be careful. It may not seem it AT ALL when you are in that kind of situation, but humans use your good intentions to manipulate you. So I'm not saying be skeptical about what A says, just take it with a grain of salt. I know Japanese are usually not that scummy as latinos are, but humans are humans.
As I told you, Disagree with me all you want, just don't close your mind to those possibilites. As a Doctor, you get to see the very nasty side of humans, so I give you my advice with the highest of regards.
User avatar
#789 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
I understand where you're coming from and I do agree with you, but I really think A is an honest girl and that episode was definitely not fake. If she was calculating qnd wanted to get me for whatever reason she could have done so when I was single and HINTING that I was interested in her. I think she's just... clumsy.

And of course I did agree with you leaving her, from what you were telling me it was no good, it has to be double sided. it's different with Y, we're well balanced I think. so no great change happening for now. Thank you love senpai for your consulting - Or should I say Doctor of Love !
User avatar
#787 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Alright, so there you have it. It's VERY different from my situation back there. My relatioship was going to shit and in the end she didn't fucking fought for us so you know... I knew she didn't love me, and she probably never was going to. So there was no other choice unfortunately.
I can't say I don't miss her from time to time, but I can definitely tell you that I HAD to do that. To remind myself that I was worth my effort, and my love. And if she wasn't gonna appreciate all the shit I did for her... Not even being able to tell me confortably she loved me after 2 years, then it was probably not worth it. I loved her, with all my heart, and I probably will love her as long as I am human, but I love myself more now.
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#784 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
I JUST HOPE IM NOT TOO LATE FUCKING HELL
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#783 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
OK OK OK OK
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#781 - feupy (11/26/2016) [-]
I see, maybe another time !

It's okay, work is frantic but I just took a small weekk off. Are you surviving yours ?
#776 - Those thoughts are always gonna appear, especially if you have…  [+] (13 replies) 11/23/2016 on zergiel's profile 0
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#777 - feupy (11/23/2016) [-]
I guess, thank you... Humans are never satisfied with what they have, aren'tthey ? Fucking srupid animals we are
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#778 - zergiel (11/24/2016) [-]
You said it. Although we indeed sometimes ask for too much, there are times were we know we are getting the short end of the stick.

Don't overthink shit like me, and you will probably be ok.
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#779 - feupy (11/25/2016) [-]
Well if not overthinking things is the solution I think I'm fucked~

How is it going for you ? can it be serious with that girl you told me about ?
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#780 - zergiel (11/26/2016) [-]
We talked about it, we are both not into each other romantically, it was the first time we both drunkily made out with someone else, so we kinda laughed it off and that was it. So no mon ami.
And you? how's work and stuff?
User avatar
#782 - feupy (11/27/2016) [-]
Ah, come on, had a nightmare about it now, great.
Sorry for the rant to come, I hope you like storytime, but a bit of background summed up from the start, this shit is a fucking telenovela I swear.
You might (or not) remember that at the end of november last year I had a first date with a girl (let's call her A) and came back from it saying that I was madly in love and stuff. And ever since we've have some dates, she was tellling me the situation with her boyfriend wasn't great but I couldn't say anything right ? boyfriend = shut up, I'm not a homewrecker even though the home's already on the verge of shrecking itself.
After months of a certain pattern with her (one date thate makes me think "yup, I'm in love", some other dates a bit less intense, then 2-3 months without seeing each other, repeat cycle), I saw a post on facebook where she was saying roughly "despite everything I might be saying, I guess after all I like my bf". So I got frustrating and was kind of telling about it to the girl who would later become my girlfriend, Y.. At this point, she had hinted that the liked me, but well I wasn't sure I could handle the distance and I still liked A. During the conversation about the whole thing with Y., she asked something like "I hope for you it will work out with A, but if it didn't, would you consider going out with, for instance, someone like me ?". And that made me snap. I thought "Shit, poor girl, she probably likes me and I"m complaining about another girl, and she's so fucking adorable and nice, I'm a fucking idiot." So after a bit of thinking, and since she said she was going to Tokyo but her friend wasn't there to put her up, I invited her at my place for the week-end, and that's the story of how we ended up together.

BUT

There was kind of a new development. A bit more than one week ago, A. asked me if Iwas up for going to eat somewhere at night with her and one of her friend who talked a bit of french. I said yes even though I didn't give a damn about the friend, plus I am terrifiend of strangers, but I wanted to see A. so... A bit later she texted me saying that her friend couldn't come, "sorry, is it okay with only me ?" -Fuck yeah it was. So we met at the restaurant, ate a lot of weird stuff (fucking Okinawa cuisine), drank a lot too as she was saying "Tonight I want to drink". For more background about her, she's a block of ice. By that I mean, a real japanese woman who doesn't show her emotions or feelings or talk crude truth - reason why it's complicated here, it's the norm. But that night (thx to the fukcing pure methanol they drink in Okinawa? That shit hits hard man) she told me everything, how she was sure her bf wasn't the right guy, he didn't care about her, the met like once a month only to have a meal and basta, and she stayed with him only because she has very little friends and is terrified of being alone. So I was already like wow, let me digest the info holy fuck. Then we left the restaurant for a bar as it was closing and she still wanted to drink. Then when we sat in the bar we ordered a coke to make a little pause, she told me it was a real relief to be able to told me those things, and it was funny that even with the language barrier she felt like I could understand her better than the others... and that's when she started CRYING. Ho-ly-shit, you can't imagine the fucking shock that was, I told you, usually she doesn't show a damn thing. So that's what a real Japanese kuudere/dandere looks like in real life, even the most ridiculous anime can't prepare you for the feels. She was saying things like "people who like me should say it clearly and people who don't should make it clear as well".

So this is where my second thoughts have been coming from. That last sentence, man, what if I had told her I liked her some months ago? It's bugging me so much I had my annual nightmare about it - to make it short 'cause no chara left, I simply cheated on my gf with her in the nightmare. Fucking hell.
User avatar
#785 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Ok... so this happened to me with my ex but not on the same scale.
I have to tell you this rn before I continue tho, I will tell you some stuff that may sound weird or not at all what you think, and disagree with me ALL you want, but never close your mind to the possibility of what I'm telling you.

Now that you read that, you have to ask yourself 3 questions:
1) Do you like A more than you like Y?
2) Is your likeness of A worth it, so you would break up with Y and end up with A?
3) Can you be sure that, if you were single, A would date you instead of other person?

Those three are VERY important. so you understand how this works.
User avatar
#786 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
Don't worry don't worry, I'm not an idiot - I mean yeah obviously I am but I can still think logically and I will think long and hard. I did ask myself these questions and the answers were
1. I don't know and I don't think I'll be able to sort it out. A was love at first sight, Y is love that comes from being comfortable tohether, it's different right.
2. Probably not. It's pretty good with Y so it would take a really good reason and being 140% sure about shit to wreck that. Plus I don't want to hurt her obviously
3. I've been trying to figure that shit for one fucking year. So I dunno.

Thank you ! worry not amigo, I wrote the rant in a moment of doubt but yesterday night I met with A abd it was... normal so I'm reassured~
User avatar
#788 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Also, be careful. It may not seem it AT ALL when you are in that kind of situation, but humans use your good intentions to manipulate you. So I'm not saying be skeptical about what A says, just take it with a grain of salt. I know Japanese are usually not that scummy as latinos are, but humans are humans.
As I told you, Disagree with me all you want, just don't close your mind to those possibilites. As a Doctor, you get to see the very nasty side of humans, so I give you my advice with the highest of regards.
User avatar
#789 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
I understand where you're coming from and I do agree with you, but I really think A is an honest girl and that episode was definitely not fake. If she was calculating qnd wanted to get me for whatever reason she could have done so when I was single and HINTING that I was interested in her. I think she's just... clumsy.

And of course I did agree with you leaving her, from what you were telling me it was no good, it has to be double sided. it's different with Y, we're well balanced I think. so no great change happening for now. Thank you love senpai for your consulting - Or should I say Doctor of Love !
User avatar
#787 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Alright, so there you have it. It's VERY different from my situation back there. My relatioship was going to shit and in the end she didn't fucking fought for us so you know... I knew she didn't love me, and she probably never was going to. So there was no other choice unfortunately.
I can't say I don't miss her from time to time, but I can definitely tell you that I HAD to do that. To remind myself that I was worth my effort, and my love. And if she wasn't gonna appreciate all the shit I did for her... Not even being able to tell me confortably she loved me after 2 years, then it was probably not worth it. I loved her, with all my heart, and I probably will love her as long as I am human, but I love myself more now.
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#784 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
I JUST HOPE IM NOT TOO LATE FUCKING HELL
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#783 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
OK OK OK OK
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#781 - feupy (11/26/2016) [-]
I see, maybe another time !

It's okay, work is frantic but I just took a small weekk off. Are you surviving yours ?
#774 - what up mon ami! Well, I was disconnected from the world nearl…  [+] (15 replies) 11/21/2016 on zergiel's profile 0
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#775 - feupy (11/21/2016) [-]
Welcome back to civilization ! seems like you were busy as well ;^) Who is the girl, have you told me about her before ? well anyway it counts !
Here it's kay I guess, I might be having insidious second thoughts about my girlfriend which makes me feel like a piece of shit, but still bretty gud.
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#776 - zergiel (11/23/2016) [-]
Those thoughts are always gonna appear, especially if you have some arguments. But, the content of those thoughts is indeed important, it can give you information about things that you may be ignoring.

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#777 - feupy (11/23/2016) [-]
I guess, thank you... Humans are never satisfied with what they have, aren'tthey ? Fucking srupid animals we are
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#778 - zergiel (11/24/2016) [-]
You said it. Although we indeed sometimes ask for too much, there are times were we know we are getting the short end of the stick.

Don't overthink shit like me, and you will probably be ok.
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#779 - feupy (11/25/2016) [-]
Well if not overthinking things is the solution I think I'm fucked~

How is it going for you ? can it be serious with that girl you told me about ?
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#780 - zergiel (11/26/2016) [-]
We talked about it, we are both not into each other romantically, it was the first time we both drunkily made out with someone else, so we kinda laughed it off and that was it. So no mon ami.
And you? how's work and stuff?
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#782 - feupy (11/27/2016) [-]
Ah, come on, had a nightmare about it now, great.
Sorry for the rant to come, I hope you like storytime, but a bit of background summed up from the start, this shit is a fucking telenovela I swear.
You might (or not) remember that at the end of november last year I had a first date with a girl (let's call her A) and came back from it saying that I was madly in love and stuff. And ever since we've have some dates, she was tellling me the situation with her boyfriend wasn't great but I couldn't say anything right ? boyfriend = shut up, I'm not a homewrecker even though the home's already on the verge of shrecking itself.
After months of a certain pattern with her (one date thate makes me think "yup, I'm in love", some other dates a bit less intense, then 2-3 months without seeing each other, repeat cycle), I saw a post on facebook where she was saying roughly "despite everything I might be saying, I guess after all I like my bf". So I got frustrating and was kind of telling about it to the girl who would later become my girlfriend, Y.. At this point, she had hinted that the liked me, but well I wasn't sure I could handle the distance and I still liked A. During the conversation about the whole thing with Y., she asked something like "I hope for you it will work out with A, but if it didn't, would you consider going out with, for instance, someone like me ?". And that made me snap. I thought "Shit, poor girl, she probably likes me and I"m complaining about another girl, and she's so fucking adorable and nice, I'm a fucking idiot." So after a bit of thinking, and since she said she was going to Tokyo but her friend wasn't there to put her up, I invited her at my place for the week-end, and that's the story of how we ended up together.

BUT

There was kind of a new development. A bit more than one week ago, A. asked me if Iwas up for going to eat somewhere at night with her and one of her friend who talked a bit of french. I said yes even though I didn't give a damn about the friend, plus I am terrifiend of strangers, but I wanted to see A. so... A bit later she texted me saying that her friend couldn't come, "sorry, is it okay with only me ?" -Fuck yeah it was. So we met at the restaurant, ate a lot of weird stuff (fucking Okinawa cuisine), drank a lot too as she was saying "Tonight I want to drink". For more background about her, she's a block of ice. By that I mean, a real japanese woman who doesn't show her emotions or feelings or talk crude truth - reason why it's complicated here, it's the norm. But that night (thx to the fukcing pure methanol they drink in Okinawa? That shit hits hard man) she told me everything, how she was sure her bf wasn't the right guy, he didn't care about her, the met like once a month only to have a meal and basta, and she stayed with him only because she has very little friends and is terrified of being alone. So I was already like wow, let me digest the info holy fuck. Then we left the restaurant for a bar as it was closing and she still wanted to drink. Then when we sat in the bar we ordered a coke to make a little pause, she told me it was a real relief to be able to told me those things, and it was funny that even with the language barrier she felt like I could understand her better than the others... and that's when she started CRYING. Ho-ly-shit, you can't imagine the fucking shock that was, I told you, usually she doesn't show a damn thing. So that's what a real Japanese kuudere/dandere looks like in real life, even the most ridiculous anime can't prepare you for the feels. She was saying things like "people who like me should say it clearly and people who don't should make it clear as well".

So this is where my second thoughts have been coming from. That last sentence, man, what if I had told her I liked her some months ago? It's bugging me so much I had my annual nightmare about it - to make it short 'cause no chara left, I simply cheated on my gf with her in the nightmare. Fucking hell.
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#785 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Ok... so this happened to me with my ex but not on the same scale.
I have to tell you this rn before I continue tho, I will tell you some stuff that may sound weird or not at all what you think, and disagree with me ALL you want, but never close your mind to the possibility of what I'm telling you.

Now that you read that, you have to ask yourself 3 questions:
1) Do you like A more than you like Y?
2) Is your likeness of A worth it, so you would break up with Y and end up with A?
3) Can you be sure that, if you were single, A would date you instead of other person?

Those three are VERY important. so you understand how this works.
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#786 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
Don't worry don't worry, I'm not an idiot - I mean yeah obviously I am but I can still think logically and I will think long and hard. I did ask myself these questions and the answers were
1. I don't know and I don't think I'll be able to sort it out. A was love at first sight, Y is love that comes from being comfortable tohether, it's different right.
2. Probably not. It's pretty good with Y so it would take a really good reason and being 140% sure about shit to wreck that. Plus I don't want to hurt her obviously
3. I've been trying to figure that shit for one fucking year. So I dunno.

Thank you ! worry not amigo, I wrote the rant in a moment of doubt but yesterday night I met with A abd it was... normal so I'm reassured~
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#788 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Also, be careful. It may not seem it AT ALL when you are in that kind of situation, but humans use your good intentions to manipulate you. So I'm not saying be skeptical about what A says, just take it with a grain of salt. I know Japanese are usually not that scummy as latinos are, but humans are humans.
As I told you, Disagree with me all you want, just don't close your mind to those possibilites. As a Doctor, you get to see the very nasty side of humans, so I give you my advice with the highest of regards.
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#789 - feupy (11/28/2016) [-]
I understand where you're coming from and I do agree with you, but I really think A is an honest girl and that episode was definitely not fake. If she was calculating qnd wanted to get me for whatever reason she could have done so when I was single and HINTING that I was interested in her. I think she's just... clumsy.

And of course I did agree with you leaving her, from what you were telling me it was no good, it has to be double sided. it's different with Y, we're well balanced I think. so no great change happening for now. Thank you love senpai for your consulting - Or should I say Doctor of Love !
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#787 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
Alright, so there you have it. It's VERY different from my situation back there. My relatioship was going to shit and in the end she didn't fucking fought for us so you know... I knew she didn't love me, and she probably never was going to. So there was no other choice unfortunately.
I can't say I don't miss her from time to time, but I can definitely tell you that I HAD to do that. To remind myself that I was worth my effort, and my love. And if she wasn't gonna appreciate all the shit I did for her... Not even being able to tell me confortably she loved me after 2 years, then it was probably not worth it. I loved her, with all my heart, and I probably will love her as long as I am human, but I love myself more now.
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#784 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
I JUST HOPE IM NOT TOO LATE FUCKING HELL
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#783 - zergiel (11/28/2016) [-]
OK OK OK OK
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#781 - feupy (11/26/2016) [-]
I see, maybe another time !

It's okay, work is frantic but I just took a small weekk off. Are you surviving yours ?
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#11665 - feupy (10/23/2016) [-]
'tis fucked up...

I'm so sorry, you know I have birthday autismo, I wouldn't even remember mine if other people weren't reminding me about it ...