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#626585 - inteus (21 minutes ago) [-]
#626589 - cutietooniexx (18 minutes ago) [-]
#626575 - See you later  [+] (1 new reply) 39 minutes ago on Pony Thread 15 +1
#626576 - wigglyjr (39 minutes ago) [-]
#626570 - No matter how much time I give its not gonna happen.... …  [+] (3 new replies) 47 minutes ago on Pony Thread 15 +1
#626574 - wigglyjr (40 minutes ago) [-]
Well... I have to go now, sweetie. I'm really really sorry I haven't been able to help you.

I'll see you later. With open arms~<3
#626575 - cutietooniexx (39 minutes ago) [-]
See you later
#626576 - wigglyjr (39 minutes ago) [-]
#626565 - I doubt it.....nothing is showing any signs of improving soon.…  [+] (5 new replies) 51 minutes ago on Pony Thread 15 +1
#626567 - wigglyjr (48 minutes ago) [-]
Well... there hasn't been enough time for improvement, really. It would take hours, most likely.

If that's what it is, then I think you need to sleep, sweetie.
#626570 - cutietooniexx (47 minutes ago) [-]
No matter how much time I give its not gonna happen....

I cant sleep....for some reason I just cant.
#626574 - wigglyjr (40 minutes ago) [-]
Well... I have to go now, sweetie. I'm really really sorry I haven't been able to help you.

I'll see you later. With open arms~<3
#626575 - cutietooniexx (39 minutes ago) [-]
See you later
#626576 - wigglyjr (39 minutes ago) [-]
#626563 - But its not gonna get better.....especially at this rate... … 53 minutes ago on Pony Thread 15 +1
#626554 - Its more of just getting used to it....then it getting worse t…  [+] (2 new replies) 59 minutes ago on Pony Thread 15 +1
#626559 - wigglyjr (55 minutes ago) [-]
If you can get used to it, and it can get worse, then you can get used to it after getting worse and it'll make you feel great when you get better~

That's my point. Nothing you say could get rid of me forever. Say what you want, if you think it'll make you better~
#626563 - cutietooniexx (53 minutes ago) [-]
But its not gonna get better.....especially at this rate...

I just am not sure.....and even then we dont have much time to talk about anything.....
#626546 - They never work out....just get worse. AT this p…  [+] (4 new replies) 1 hour ago on Pony Thread 15 +1
#626552 - wigglyjr (1 hour ago) [-]
You were better earlier. So that's not true.

Well... like I said, I'll be here for you till you don't want me anymore. And you can always have me as a friend again, if you want.
#626554 - cutietooniexx (59 minutes ago) [-]
Its more of just getting used to it....then it getting worse than it was.


I just dont know.....I cant think straight right now.....so many terrible thoughts going on right now.
#626559 - wigglyjr (55 minutes ago) [-]
If you can get used to it, and it can get worse, then you can get used to it after getting worse and it'll make you feel great when you get better~

That's my point. Nothing you say could get rid of me forever. Say what you want, if you think it'll make you better~
#626563 - cutietooniexx (53 minutes ago) [-]
But its not gonna get better.....especially at this rate...

I just am not sure.....and even then we dont have much time to talk about anything.....
#626545 - Because it never does....just hurts me more.  [+] (4 new replies) 1 hour ago on Pony Thread 15 +1
User avatar #626578 - inteus (31 minutes ago) [-]
i'm so sorry =<
*cuddles you tight*
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#626537 - No it wont...  [+] (6 new replies) 1 hour ago on Pony Thread 15 +1
#626540 - inteus (1 hour ago) [-]
why not?
#626545 - cutietooniexx (1 hour ago) [-]
Because it never does....just hurts me more.

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User avatar #626578 - inteus (31 minutes ago) [-]
i'm so sorry =<
*cuddles you tight*
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#5237 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/13/2015) [-]
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User avatar #5714 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Hi!
User avatar #5755 to #5714 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
I saw, your headphones arrive? :3
User avatar #5756 to #5755 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Well I'll be going to pick them up straight after school. A thirty minute busride and a 15 minute walk. I COULD just wait until tomorrow, but I NEED IT.

And the weather's nice, anyway :3
User avatar #5757 to #5756 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Good to hear <3
User avatar #5758 to #5757 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Oh god I hope I can pick it up in Apeldoorn.. x3

The phone only had this computer lady, no actual person. So I hope it'll all work out. <3
User avatar #5759 to #5758 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
I hope it all works out too <3
User avatar #5760 to #5759 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
What's the weather like over there at the moment? All I've been hearing is like 70/ 20 Celsius degrees everywhere. x3
User avatar #5761 to #5760 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
I have no idea honestly, I think its been nice mostly x3
User avatar #5762 to #5761 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Oh, haven't been outside?
User avatar #5763 to #5762 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Yeah, haven't been outside recently....last time I was outside it was snowing and that was like a few days ago >.>
User avatar #5764 to #5763 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Oh snap. Where did you live again? is it Northern America?
User avatar #5765 to #5764 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
I live in Cedar City, Utah.....and it snows here at random times at any point of the year >.>
User avatar #5766 to #5765 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
My topography of America isn't that good.. sooo, Utah is..Where? x3
User avatar #5767 to #5766 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Its a sort of west and a small bit north.
User avatar #5768 to #5767 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Oh, I see. I've just studied the map of Manhattan and Brooklyn. x3 Since I'll be staying in Manhattan soon <3
User avatar #5769 to #5768 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
So the weather here is pretty random at times.

Hope you enjoy your time there <3
#5735 to #5714 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
So anything you would like to chat about?
User avatar #5736 to #5735 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Is that a Chrissy X Twilight child? o.O
#5737 to #5736 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
No I dont think so, cant remember what the pic is referencing....I think it was a fanfic of some kind
User avatar #5738 to #5737 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
So it may still be a Chrissy x Twiliy child :3
#5739 to #5738 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Could be...Im not entirely sure so I cant say.
User avatar #5740 to #5739 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
I MUST KNOW. x3
#5741 to #5740 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Well I dont know anything about it....just that its looks nice.
User avatar #5742 to #5741 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
It does look nice, that is definitely true x3
#5743 to #5742 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Well Chryssy always looks nice.
User avatar #5744 to #5743 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Or she looks naughty... x3
#5745 to #5744 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Yeah x3
Yeah x3
User avatar #5746 to #5745 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
No naughty Chrissy now, though. I'm at the academy >.>
#5747 to #5746 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Aw ok x3
Aw ok x3
User avatar #5748 to #5747 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
That'd lead to incredibly awkward situations >3>
User avatar #5749 to #5748 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
I bet it would ^^
User avatar #5750 to #5749 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Boners in class. Nightmares.
User avatar #5751 to #5750 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
eh I have awkward situations....but its related to my personal interests.

Even worse when you get a boner and have to present something
User avatar #5752 to #5751 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Yea I know that feeling.. >.>
User avatar #5753 to #5752 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
worst feeling ever >.>
User avatar #5754 to #5753 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Okay my day just got a LOT better.
User avatar #5716 to #5715 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
How are you doing, Toonz? <3
#5717 to #5716 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Could be doing better as always....just more crap getting me down as usual.

How are you? <3
User avatar #5718 to #5717 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
I have definitely seen better days.

Want to talk about it, dear?
#5719 to #5718 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
All I can say is Im just so lonely and have nothing going for me....gonna cost a fortune to fix my problems and everyone I turn to for help just ignores my problem.
User avatar #5720 to #5719 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
And that fortune you mean like, costs in professional help orr..?
#5721 to #5720 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Well yeah....need to see a few people in order to fix my second biggest problem
User avatar #5722 to #5721 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
Mhm that makes sense.. and I'm guessing since there's not really a health care system in the states it'll be incredibly expensive?
User avatar #5723 to #5722 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Most likely :c
User avatar #5724 to #5723 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
I am sorry to hear that, dear.. :C
User avatar #5725 to #5724 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
it just really sucks :c
User avatar #5726 to #5725 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
**furrypuppy hugs you tight**

I can imagine, sweety.. I wish I could help but I think there's little I can do from my position. :C
#5727 to #5726 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
**cutietooniexx hugs you back**

I know....there so little a lot of people can do.....hardly anyone even really talks to me
User avatar #5728 to #5727 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
I don't plan on letting you down, dear :C
User avatar #5729 to #5728 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
*hugs*

Thanks....good to know that
User avatar #5730 to #5729 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
*hugs back*

I'm not good with letting people down.. the one thing I fear most is hurting people :C
User avatar #5731 to #5730 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
Well I dont think its easy to really hurt me unless you just straight up insult me.
User avatar #5732 to #5731 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
The worst thing I could call you is a Toon, and you've already done that with your username x3
User avatar #5733 to #5732 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/20/2015) [-]
*hugs*
User avatar #5734 to #5733 - furrypuppy (04/20/2015) [-]
*hugs back again*
User avatar #5696 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
Mew, Tooney?
User avatar #5697 to #5696 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
Hello puppy~ :3
User avatar #5698 to #5697 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
Hey, you..! I'm sorry, just looking for company to keep my mind off the harmful things. I promised Snoh to stay safe.
User avatar #5699 to #5698 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
Alright I can help if you want, I got plenty of time to stay up and talk
User avatar #5700 to #5699 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
I need to start working on school stuff soon again but I have some time off
#5701 to #5700 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
Well whatever you want to chat about or anything to take your mind off things, Im open to anything.
User avatar #5702 to #5701 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
Well, I stressed out! :3

But the weather's nice at least.
#5703 to #5702 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
Oh?, What's the weather like where you're at?
User avatar #5704 to #5703 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
It's really sunny here :3
#5705 to #5704 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
Used to be sunny all the time where I used to live....but was also super hot, so having a water bottle was pretty much needed anytime you went out to do something.

Hope its not super hot over there.
User avatar #5706 to #5705 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
Nah it's rarely super hot here in The Netherlands..
#5707 to #5706 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
Well at least you dont have to worry about that, puppy.
User avatar #5708 to #5707 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
I guess not! :3

So how are you, anyway?
#5709 to #5708 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
Yeah...its the worst having to be out in the heat. :3

eh, I still could be doing better....still have things getting me down. Had a bowl of ice cream so im not TOO bad.
User avatar #5710 to #5709 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
Well I'm glad that it isn't going too bad o.o
#5711 to #5710 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
Yeah but that can change at any moment.
User avatar #5712 to #5711 - furrypuppy (04/15/2015) [-]
As always..
#5713 to #5712 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/15/2015) [-]
unfortunately, yes.
#5690 to #5689 - xblthatguy (04/11/2015) [-]
Hello, how're you?
#5691 to #5690 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/11/2015) [-]
Could be doing far better.

How've you been?
#5692 to #5691 - xblthatguy (04/11/2015) [-]
Worse then when we last spoke?
User avatar #5693 to #5692 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/11/2015) [-]
yep
User avatar #5695 to #5694 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/11/2015) [-]
Plenty of reasons
User avatar #5686 - tariv (04/09/2015) [-]
I'm headed to bed, but I thought you ought to have these.
To This Day Project -  Shane Koyczan Instructions For A Bad Day
I'm sorry we haven't talked anytime recently.
#5687 to #5686 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (04/09/2015) [-]
Im actually heading to bed too.
User avatar #5685 - novabird (03/31/2015) [-]
pv is fast today...o.0
User avatar #5674 to #5633 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
either chocolate or vanilla
#5675 to #5674 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
I love chocolate ice cream! Cookies and cream, cookie dough, or half-baked if you've ever had it.
I love chocolate ice cream! Cookies and cream, cookie dough, or half-baked if you've ever had it.
User avatar #5676 to #5675 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
I haven't had half-baked
#5677 to #5676 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
It's from Ben and Jerry's. I've had it maybe twice, but it has everything. Brownie bits, cookie dough and whatnot. All in Vanilla ice cream.
User avatar #5678 to #5677 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Sounds really good.
User avatar #5680 to #5679 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Probably is, might need to try it some time.
User avatar #5681 to #5680 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Definitely!
#5685 to #5684 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
That's a favorite of mine.
That's a favorite of mine.
User avatar #5654 to #5633 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Just would be nice to have something to talk about.
#5655 to #5654 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Well, the reason I took so long to come here was because I had to do some organization work. We're called Street Fight and we serve and pray with those in poverty.
User avatar #5656 to #5655 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Well at least its a good reason.
#5657 to #5656 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
It's something I found a real passion in doing.
User avatar #5658 to #5657 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Well that's good.
#5659 to #5658 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
I think you'd like it too. It's a very pleasant experience.
User avatar #5660 to #5659 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Possibly.
#5671 to #5670 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
I love ice cream.
#5672 to #5671 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
So do I, but I dont have any here
#5673 to #5672 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Me neither. What's your favorite type?
Me neither. What's your favorite type?
User avatar #5636 to #5635 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Terrible still
#5637 to #5636 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Really?

Well, I'll be here as long as I can/ you want me around today.
#5638 to #5637 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Yeah.....nothing has happened to improve my mood at all so probably actually doing worse.

Alright.
#5639 to #5638 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Sorry to hear.

Those glowing chrysalis pictures are ominous.
#5640 to #5639 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Things are just awful for me.....and hardly anyone really seems to be able to do anything about it. Hardly anyone knows what makes me happy.

#5641 to #5640 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
What makes you happy?
#5642 to #5641 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Some things are pretty obvious, the things in my interests/likes on my profile.....talking ot people......having peace and quiet at times to recover......probably some others but I cant think much right now.
#5643 to #5642 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Well, I hope this helps at least a bit.
Well, I hope this helps at least a bit.
#5644 to #5643 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
It helps a little but doesn't last long.
#5646 to #5645 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Talking helps but Im just gonna feel just as bad a few minutes later.
#5648 to #5647 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Yeah....it sucks
User avatar #5650 to #5649 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Sorry, just not sure what to talk about....
#5651 to #5650 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
I said I'll be here regardless. Doesn't matter if any words are had or not. Ehe.
#5652 to #5651 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Oh...right.
#5653 to #5652 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
I'm not saying we can't! I'm just saying in case we can't find anything, I ain't leaving.
I'm not saying we can't! I'm just saying in case we can't find anything, I ain't leaving.
#5620 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Hey Travis!

I'm REALLY sorry I forgot to stop by like I said I would earlier!
#5621 to #5620 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
.....dont worry about it.
#5622 to #5621 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
How're you?
How're you?
#5623 to #5622 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Still pretty terrible....and tired.
#5624 to #5623 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Are you headed off soon?
#5625 to #5624 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
Maybe....I dont think tomorrow will be any better though....
#5626 to #5625 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Really sorry to hear...

Can I pray for you?
#5628 to #5627 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Is there anything else I can do for you?
#5629 to #5628 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
I dunno if there is anything else, cant think tonight.
#5630 to #5629 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
I can stay with you for a bit longer, if you'd like.
#5631 to #5630 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/29/2015) [-]
No, I think I will just go to bed......
#5632 to #5631 - xblthatguy (03/29/2015) [-]
Have a goodnight Travis!

I'll come as soon as I'm free tomorrow. Take care.
User avatar #5610 - novabird (03/26/2015) [-]
www.funnyjunk.com/The+black+watchmen/funny-pictures/5495464/ might be just what you wanted in a game...
also greetings.
#5611 to #5610 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/26/2015) [-]
Hey Nova....how are you?
User avatar #5612 to #5611 - novabird (03/26/2015) [-]
haven't been doing too well lately, i think i may avoid burgers for good now along with other stuff that makes me sick though, i'm pretty out of it and scrambled right now, trying to avoid the level of stress i hit the other day though that crap was terrible...
yourself?
#5613 to #5612 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/26/2015) [-]
Could be better......like always.
#5614 to #5613 - novabird (03/26/2015) [-]
understood, hopefully the things lined up happen soon so you at least get some relief from most of the crap... :\   
i swear night has to be the worst time for our moods though, wish there was a way to make people more active at these times...-_-
understood, hopefully the things lined up happen soon so you at least get some relief from most of the crap... :\
i swear night has to be the worst time for our moods though, wish there was a way to make people more active at these times...-_-
#5615 to #5614 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/26/2015) [-]
Yeah.....but like everything else its probably just gonna build me up then just knock me down.......nothing ever seems to go the way I would like.
User avatar #5616 to #5615 - novabird (03/26/2015) [-]
just do as i do lately and prepare for it and any other chances that may come along, once you're prepared that's all that matters once the chance comes in, spiders take a rather similar route on this as well.
i just wait for things till i have them, then i make them last as long as possible.
#5617 to #5616 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/26/2015) [-]
Seems like all I do is wait for things that seem to never happen......and should they happen they either stripped from me immediately or something equally negative makes it worth nothing.
#5619 to #5617 - novabird (03/26/2015) [-]
anyways, i'm gonna go to bed, you might wanna sleep more as well, night.
User avatar #5618 to #5617 - novabird (03/26/2015) [-]
nah, a lot of it was either your parents being selfish or other people ******* up which ended up costing you and being a source of torment, honestly if people were competent it would rarely happen...-_-
User avatar #5609 to #5608 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/26/2015) [-]
wat?

Also Hi Dashi~
#5605 to #5554 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Well then more reason to get some rest. Get some rest and be prepared for class
#5606 to #5605 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Ehe. Later Travis!
Ehe. Later Travis!
#5607 to #5606 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
See you later
See you later
#5575 to #5554 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Tell me about it.....
#5576 to #5575 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
So that's why you said you don't think things will ever go back to normal for you, huh?
So that's why you said you don't think things will ever go back to normal for you, huh?
#5577 to #5576 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Yeah.....pretty much.
#5578 to #5577 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Well, what you do you want to progress?
#5579 to #5578 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
That is something people ask me a lot.......and honestly I still have no clue really.
#5580 to #5579 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
That may be for the best.
That may be for the best.
#5581 to #5580 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Probably, yeah.
#5582 to #5581 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Ya' don't always have to know what you want. Sometimes good things just come and when it comes you'll know you wanted it.
#5586 to #5582 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
ugh but good things hardly come by me....and when they do its almost either taken away or canceled out but something negative.
#5587 to #5586 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Whenever that happens to me, I'm just thankful for the little bit I had it, and wait for the next good thing.
#5590 to #5587 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
The next good possibility will be soon....when i get the house to myself for a few days......probably giving me time to recover a bit.
#5591 to #5590 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Hey, that's really good news!
#5594 to #5591 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
If it goes well....could be like last time and just be a negative thing.
#5595 to #5594 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
How was it bad?
How was it bad?
#5596 to #5595 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
ISP pretty much dropped our internet speed to a pathetic amount.....could hardly load webpages.......so I had little contact with my friends and was stuck with absolutely nothing to do.
#5597 to #5596 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Yeah, lets hope that doesn't happen.
#5598 to #5597 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Yeah, let's hope that doesn't happen again.
#5599 to #5598 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Ah! 3am already?!
#5600 to #5599 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Heh, you should probably get some sleep
#5602 to #5600 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
But then I'll have to wake up and go to class!
But then I'll have to wake up and go to class!
#5557 to #5556 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Oh doing the same as I always am.

How are you doing?
#5558 to #5557 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Blessed and highly favored.   
   
...Well, you are in good spirits sometimes. So I dunno! You don't seem that bad today off the bat.
Blessed and highly favored.

...Well, you are in good spirits sometimes. So I dunno! You don't seem that bad today off the bat.
#5559 to #5558 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
I dunno....life seems to have proven to me that everything I have can be taken away without a moments notice.
#5561 to #5560 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Wait....have I not told you about that moment? I thought of all people I would have told you
#5562 to #5561 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
I don't think you have.
#5563 to #5562 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Well then I guess I will tell it and if you've heard it then no real harm done.....so pull up a chair.
#5564 to #5563 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Ready.
Ready.
#5565 to #5564 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Well....a few years ago I had everything I could ask for.....family had a superb income, we had a nice house, a swimming pool and spa, lived in a nice gated community, had a girlfriend, had plenty of friends to hang out with and several other things. Then things just.....suddenly seemed to go downhill so fast. Parents lost their jobs, we lost our house, my dad got pancreatic cancer, my girlfriend left me, we moved to a small town where there is little to nothing to do, I lost most if not all of my friends.......everything just was stripped from me. All that's left of those times are just memories......from that point on everything was just depressing.....and even to this day it seems that everyone around me is happy, and all I seem to be able to do is sit around and watch. Heck I can hardly even have dreams....I just seem to just wake up from nothing. I now have friends all around the globe but even with all these friends, nothing can ever compare to what I had....or how much it hurt to have it all suddenly taken away. So just about each and everyday I question......will I ever be able to have the same kind of happiness that everyone around me has.....or will I just be forever in this dark depression.
#5584 to #5583 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Oh....didn't seen you on my profile.....

Well I guess you got to know more about me from this visit.
#5588 to #5584 - lightingmike (03/24/2015) [-]
*hugs cutietoonie*
#5585 to #5584 - lightingmike (03/24/2015) [-]
I.. feel bad for you
I.. feel bad for you
#5589 to #5585 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Well....at least now you know....and would explain why I have acted so desperate to get acknowledge in PT15......I have little to nothing left IRL. A story about my past is left below but I dont think it would be wise to make you feel more for me.
#5592 to #5589 - lightingmike (03/24/2015) [-]
I'm sorry that you went through all of this. You don't deserve these negative stuffs!
I'm sorry that you went through all of this. You don't deserve these negative stuffs!
#5593 to #5592 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
A lot people say I dont....but I just happen to keep getting more and more of it. Heck...some of it could probably not really be over just yet.

Although if I should be thankful for one thing, it would be meeting all the friends I have online......regardless of what people say, you guys have by far treated me nicer and have helped me more than anyone IRL has.
#5601 to #5593 - lightingmike (03/24/2015) [-]
If you need anything, just come talk to me!
If you need anything, just come talk to me!
#5603 to #5601 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
I will try, if anything you will see it on the thread.
#5604 to #5603 - lightingmike (03/24/2015) [-]
Now, good night~   
   
wiggly~
Now, good night~

wiggly~
#5566 to #5565 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
So that's what happened.
#5567 to #5566 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Yeah.....plus there is a whole other story about my time growing up....but I dunno if I told you that as well.....
#5569 to #5568 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Wait....I haven't told you that one either?

What the hell is wrong with me....seriously....
#5570 to #5569 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
Hey! Don't be like that! It just hasn't come up!
Hey! Don't be like that! It just hasn't come up!
#5571 to #5570 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Well then are you up for another story?
#5573 to #5572 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Well I told about the one incident when I was young with that black mass thing.

So I will leave that out.



I didn't really grow up in a, safe neighborhood. Shootings and homicide in the cul de sac right next to our house and having a house burn completely to the ground on the same block.....it wasn't really that safe. All throughout my life in school I was always picked on by at least someone. I could never seem to get a moments peace....parents messing up instructions on dealing with my hearing problems making me feel worse and afraid. Every time I got picked on no one seemed to do anything about it....parents were pretty strict with school work to the point where the kept going through my personal belongings, which only made me despise them like everyone else. I had some real nice friends but those friendships didn't seem to last long. In high school I still got picked on, had my heart broken several times and still was losing everything. On the last day of a school year my family supposedly told our bus driver to take an alternate route to make the trip longer.....reason being they wanted time for school districts police to deal with some kids who were waiting for me with urine filled water guns. My friends in the gated community I lived in weren't the best either.....sometimes just being straight up jerks to me. And over the years I have been taking in the pain....not taking out my anger but keeping it in.
#5574 to #5573 - xblthatguy (03/24/2015) [-]
That's haunting.
#5544 to #5543 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
I already knew of this but glad to see its still going.   
   
   
Im kinda annoyed right now.
I already knew of this but glad to see its still going.


Im kinda annoyed right now.
User avatar #5545 to #5544 - novabird (03/24/2015) [-]
what's going on?
#5546 to #5545 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Really want to order more stuff but still have yet to get my money back.....starting worry that it didn't work and its a bit more difficult to explain to the bank what it was I ordered.......
User avatar #5547 to #5546 - novabird (03/24/2015) [-]
if they ask just tell them it was private stuff, frankly it's not their business what was ordered but that it was never given and the company crashed...-_-
User avatar #5548 to #5547 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
I told him everything and they got started on it but IM not sure how long these things should take......
User avatar #5549 to #5548 - novabird (03/24/2015) [-]
it can take a few weeks average.
#5550 to #5549 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Ugh......more waiting!

Why must my life contain so much waiting right now.


At least I have better internet.....stupid ass parents were wasting god knows how much because the router wasn't giving anywhere near what we were paying for.
User avatar #5551 to #5550 - novabird (03/24/2015) [-]
ikr, ***** annoying...-_-
figures, they should have fixed that years ago... :\
#5552 to #5551 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/24/2015) [-]
Ugh its so annoying!

and yeah they should have but they dont know what their doing sometimes......
User avatar #5553 to #5552 - novabird (03/24/2015) [-]
eyup...-_-
at times it's better to take control then to let others make things worse.
#5537 to #5511 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Dont feel bad, its not your fault
Dont feel bad, its not your fault
#5538 to #5537 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
I always forget about that RD presents series.
I always forget about that RD presents series.
#5539 to #5538 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Well he hasn't uploaded a lot of them in awhile......plus he had to change the look of the series and such
Well he hasn't uploaded a lot of them in awhile......plus he had to change the look of the series and such
#5541 to #5539 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
I'm headed off. Goodnight.
User avatar #5542 to #5541 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Night
#5516 to #5515 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
What's up?
#5517 to #5516 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
Work that I refuse to do.

You?
#5518 to #5517 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Just bored...would like something to talk about but I dunno what......
#5519 to #5518 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
Well... I got 2 hours. We can find out.
#5520 to #5519 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
I dunno, just ask me some things.....anything.
#5521 to #5520 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
What'd you think of what I said yesterday?
#5522 to #5521 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
I like it.....though would like more things to talk about :3
I like it.....though would like more things to talk about :3
#5523 to #5522 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
I was just wondering since you didn't respond yesterday is all.

Ehe.

I'm not sure what else I can ask right now.
#5525 to #5523 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Dang it Im not sure what to ask either......   
   
   
Um.....what do you think of me and such?
Dang it Im not sure what to ask either......


Um.....what do you think of me and such?
#5526 to #5525 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
I think I've told you that before.

From what I've heard, you're really perspective, especially when everything's going alright.

From what I've seen, you're a pretty nice person, and fun to hang around. You get down sometimes but that's understandable considering your circumstances. One thing I still don't get is how different our views on attention are. But that's still expected considering what we're looking for.

Overall, I'd say you're a pretty great guy.

Plus, you got a T-name. I get along with T-names well.
User avatar #5529 to #5526 - giffythetoad (03/23/2015) [-]
And I think you're sweet c:
#5531 to #5529 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
I keep forgetting anyone can see this. Ehe.
#5528 to #5526 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
oh yeah I think you have told me that before hehe
oh yeah I think you have told me that before hehe
#5530 to #5528 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
I have.

But still. No harm in sayin' it again.
User avatar #5533 to #5530 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Yeah I guess
#5534 to #5533 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
Eh? Somethin' happen?
#5535 to #5534 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Just really bored is all
Just really bored is all
#5536 to #5535 - xblthatguy (03/23/2015) [-]
My bad.
#5495 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
lightingmike, theonetruedashi


I see you two there.
#5499 to #5498 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Hello~   
   
What brings you here?
Hello~

What brings you here?
#5501 to #5499 - lightingmike (03/23/2015) [-]
I dunno. It's just that... I feel empty.

And I need someone to talk to.
#5504 to #5501 - giffythetoad (03/23/2015) [-]
I can fill you up inside, Mikey...
User avatar #5509 to #5508 - lightingmike (03/23/2015) [-]
Aww, thanks gifty
#5503 to #5501 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Oh, well is there anything specific you want to talk about?
User avatar #5506 to #5503 - lightingmike (03/23/2015) [-]
I don't think so.

I just came to drop a hai~
#5507 to #5506 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Ah ok....but if you ever wanna chat you're always welcome to talk to me.
Ah ok....but if you ever wanna chat you're always welcome to talk to me.
User avatar #5496 to #5495 - theonetruedashi (03/23/2015) [-]
Hiya!
I'm just checkin up on people :3
User avatar #5497 to #5496 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Oh well, then hello anyway :3
#5487 - bronyfluttershy (03/23/2015) [-]
What up cutie!   
   
How you doing?
What up cutie!

How you doing?
#5488 to #5487 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Eh could be better....still some things going on
#5489 to #5488 - bronyfluttershy (03/23/2015) [-]
Did the therapist call telling you why he missed your appointment? Also I can never spell therapist without splitting it into 2 words, the rapist. Only way I can spell it...
Things?

How you leveling up in Payday 2?
I installed a few new games last night. So if you want to play L4D2 or Borderlands 2/pre-sequel I got them on my computer
#5490 to #5489 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
No he didn't
Yeah...one being my stupid parents made me take my meds in the morning so I was asleep literally all day

Eh, its fine....just need more offshore to get another infamy level
Would have to install some of those before we could play.
#5491 to #5490 - bronyfluttershy (03/23/2015) [-]
:/   
Don't you have a regular medicine schedule already? Kinda dangerous to go off that   
Well, I see you up all night. Some more sleep would be good for you :p   
   
Do you need a full team for that or can you do those missions by yourself?   
Okay. I want to finish one of my games before we start but give me the heads up once you are ready
:/
Don't you have a regular medicine schedule already? Kinda dangerous to go off that
Well, I see you up all night. Some more sleep would be good for you :p

Do you need a full team for that or can you do those missions by yourself?
Okay. I want to finish one of my games before we start but give me the heads up once you are ready
#5492 to #5491 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Yep...nothing.

If you couldn't already tell, my parents aren't the smartest......
Yeah sleep might be good.

Well a full team is nice cause the AI isn't really that good.
Ok.


Also could you try talking to shoote mupforus sometime.....he's feeling super down and feels like everyone is avoiding him.....plus he's in a worse mood than I am.
#5493 to #5492 - bronyfluttershy (03/23/2015) [-]
Eh   
You at least got a another appointment, but still...   
   
They are just looking at for you   
Just not in the correct way...?   
   
Can't imagine with AI bots. The game is about stealth and coordination, and bots can't do that   
   
I can see what I can do, not making promises cuz there is only so much I can do behind a computer screen
Eh
You at least got a another appointment, but still...

They are just looking at for you
Just not in the correct way...?

Can't imagine with AI bots. The game is about stealth and coordination, and bots can't do that

I can see what I can do, not making promises cuz there is only so much I can do behind a computer screen
#5494 to #5493 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Yeah...still was annoying.   
   
Possibly yeah   
   
   
for Stealth the bots just stand there not doing anything. When it does loud they usually just get stunlocked or wander off into stupid places.   
   
Alright
Yeah...still was annoying.

Possibly yeah


for Stealth the bots just stand there not doing anything. When it does loud they usually just get stunlocked or wander off into stupid places.

Alright
#5500 to #5494 - bronyfluttershy (03/23/2015) [-]
Grade A level bots right there
Grade A level bots right there
#5502 to #5500 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/23/2015) [-]
Its even more annoying when they are reviving you and stop at 0.1 sec left.......its far better to have players.
#5449 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Furrypuppy, gustavia


Is there something you two wish to speak to me about?
User avatar #5485 to #5449 - furrypuppy (03/22/2015) [-]
Hey there, sweety.I just woke up <3
User avatar #5453 to #5449 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Just wanted to check if you where still here, you didn't respond to my comment
#5454 to #5453 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Well I am still here....albeit a bit under the weather still.
User avatar #5456 to #5454 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Wanna talk about it? Do you maybe wanna do something to lighten up the mood a bit?
#5458 to #5456 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Well kinda would like to talk about it.....but Im not sure how to put it.......I just feel like im in a pickle with a few problems.
#5459 to #5458 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Just start from the beginning, what's got you down?
#5463 to #5459 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Well for one I do appritiate the company of others.....yet there always seems ot be a part of me that likes my solitude......for some reason I feel an odd sense of enjoyment being somewhat depressed.

Im in a pretty delicate situation right now but not wanting to elaborate on that.

I kinda wonder where I would be if I was given a 'normal' life......instead of having my life changed at such a young age.
#5465 to #5463 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
I understand you, being with other people is nice but there's something special about being alone with your own thoughts

Changed? What happened?
#5467 to #5465 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Yeah.....for me it just seems to appeal to me yet it makes me depressed and sad.


Well as I was telling Xbl......when I was young I woke up in hte middle of the night. I saw a small black mass moving across the ceiling.....I couldn't make out what it was....I remember it fell onto the floor then vanished from sight....seconds later my mind just instantly started being filled with these depressing thoughts and images that petrified me......I was stumbling trying to walk out of my room holding my head.....the fear was so intense I just stopped in my tracks and laid against the wall. It was at that moment when everything seemed different to me......I was constantly having these depressing thoughts and fearful images in my head.......and I still do but I have grown used to them......I also found myself whispering that I just want to go home......but I have no idea what 'Home' I was referring to.
#5468 to #5467 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Being alone is a really nice feeling sometimes, everything is just so peaceful and quiet. But it's also important to hang with your loved ones, being alone for too long is never good.

Hmm I see, do you know what this black mass thing is? Something from another world?
#5471 to #5468 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
I have been alone for quite sometime and I think that shows in me quite a bit.


I have no idea what it is.....or ever was able to find out what it was. I have no idea if it was.....but it just filled my head with these terrifying thoughts and images......always had me saying I wanted to return home. I also always seem to have had the feeling that there is something about life that we are not yet aware of. It almost feels as if its trying to get me to remember something long forgotten.


Its kinda hard to explain but also feels like I am gaining some support when I really push my limits.......I could be exhausted to the point of passing out but something always seems to be there carrying me.
#5474 to #5471 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
It really is showing a lot, 95% of the time I see you on PV you seem sad

I don't really know what more to say about this, it must be some other wordly thing that has happened to you and who knows maybe what is going on will turn for the better soon. It's good that you feel supported when you're on the edge, remember that PV is also here for you to support you in everything.
#5476 to #5474 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Yeah I guess it does show a lot......


Its odd......and I wonder what my life would be had I not had such terrifying thoughts at such a young age.....I know that PV is always there. Its just that i worry that putting up with me long enough will just make some of you guys depressed with me. I've refrained from sharing the thoughts I had because I dont want anyone else to have to deal with what I had gone through.
#5478 to #5476 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
I suggest doing some more research on this black mass thing. You can't be the only one who has experienced it.   
   
And you shouldn't be afraid from sharing your thoughts with us on PV, we are not mean asshole like the people on Friendly or /autism/. We are a big family who helps eachother and if you're ever feeling blue about something then you should talk to us because it's probably a big chance that someone on PV can help you. One of the things I love the most in life is helping people so if you ever need to talk or something then you know where to find me. I have you on Steam too if you don't feel like talking over FJ.
I suggest doing some more research on this black mass thing. You can't be the only one who has experienced it.

And you shouldn't be afraid from sharing your thoughts with us on PV, we are not mean asshole like the people on Friendly or /autism/. We are a big family who helps eachother and if you're ever feeling blue about something then you should talk to us because it's probably a big chance that someone on PV can help you. One of the things I love the most in life is helping people so if you ever need to talk or something then you know where to find me. I have you on Steam too if you don't feel like talking over FJ.
#5479 to #5478 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Eh I could try....but I dont even know how to describe it to search.


I just worry that if I shared those thoughts I would end up making someone else's life miserable.......
#5480 to #5479 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Probably not since your problems are your problems. But it's your decision, if you don't want to talk about your problems you don't have to. But remember that your friends on PV is there for you <3
#5481 to #5480 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Eh....I just wonder if any of those who are interested in helping people have learned a sad truth about it.
#5482 to #5481 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Sad truth about what? : /
Sad truth about what? : /
#5484 to #5482 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
About helping others.......its just sometimes despite how much you wish to help someone, there will be those who simply cannot be helped. No matter how much you try, the result will always be the same. Some of them it just simply is inevitable....either from a physical wound or their reality is twisted too much that we cannot reach them.
#5486 to #5484 - gustavia ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Yeah I guess it's true but it's always nice to have someone to talk to even though you can't be helped
#5464 to #5436 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Well as I said....I believe there is something we still have yet to discover. I cant explain it but I have a strong feeling that there is something we are all unaware of.
#5466 to #5464 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
I'm a Christian, and I'd agree with that sentiment.

But, I'm not sure if we're all unaware of it.
#5469 to #5466 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Well religion is one thing I still have yet to figure out.....so many beliefs that people have.....most of them referring to someone with abilities and seem to have done impossible acts......I can never say that its all false because nothing that is false survives the test of time this long.......and with several different religions....it makes me wonder.....is there something that we are not aware of.....or simply have forgotten as a race?
#5470 to #5469 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
Have you ever had a vision?
Have you ever had a vision?
#5472 to #5470 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Eh I think so....I still remember the one I had after I saw that black mass.........just made me question a lot of things and sent me a really depressing trip. Even with how far we have come it still feels like its just inevitable.
#5473 to #5472 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
Eh?

I had one about a week back. It was this beautiful world! I also had a few... Really spiritual moments recently... Stuff I didn't think could or would ever happen.
#5475 to #5473 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
OH!

That reminds me of another one I had.....I was out in this empty field.....everything was just so beautiful it almost felt like a paradise.....but there was no one......there was a rope in the middle of the field so I decided to climb it.....when I finally hit the top everything just seemed to have flipped upside down. Once I opened my eyes again this paradise was simply the opposite.....the sky was red and covered with smoke....the field was on fire and everything just seemed dead.
#5483 to #5475 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
It's 5am. I really need to sleep.   
   
If you were gonna reply, I'll answer when I wake up and we'll pick up from there. Goodnight!
It's 5am. I really need to sleep.

If you were gonna reply, I'll answer when I wake up and we'll pick up from there. Goodnight!
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#5438 to #5437 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
Hey! How're you?
User avatar #5439 to #5438 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Could doing better
#5441 to #5440 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Quite a bit actually....
#5442 to #5441 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
Not to  be discussed? Or too much?
Not to be discussed? Or too much?
#5443 to #5442 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Not to be discussed.....
#5445 to #5444 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
But enough about that.....how are you?
#5446 to #5445 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
Blessed and highly favored, thank you!   
   
I wanted to come spend a little time with ya' before I headed off.
Blessed and highly favored, thank you!

I wanted to come spend a little time with ya' before I headed off.
#5447 to #5446 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Oh, well then anything you wanna chat about?
#5448 to #5447 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
Ever felt like a relationship was the moon and the sun?

Ever had a Out-Of-body experience?

Have you ever felt like something big was going too happen, but didn't?
#5450 to #5448 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Always.

I cant say I have...or at least cant remember.

Sometimes yeah.....such a big letdown when nothing does happen.
#5451 to #5450 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
Eh? Every relationship?

I've always heard about them, but I've never had one.

Even when it's something bad you felt was gonna happen?
#5452 to #5451 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Well....hard to explain what I mean by that....

I've never had one either.....must be weird. Although I remember quite a few strange events in my life.

Well if was something bad then I got all prepared for it for nothing....plus I think every has had a moment like that with how many times we talk about the world ending on this date and blah blah....
#5455 to #5452 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
I don't think our relationship is like that at all, at least!   
   
I've had lucid dreams! Ooh, can I hear?   
   
Well, still! I think it's better it didn't happen. I think it'd almost empower someone- especially for the end of the world stuff. It could be like being born again to some people.
I don't think our relationship is like that at all, at least!

I've had lucid dreams! Ooh, can I hear?

Well, still! I think it's better it didn't happen. I think it'd almost empower someone- especially for the end of the world stuff. It could be like being born again to some people.
#5457 to #5455 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]
Well again...kinda hard to explain.


Well some were not just from dreams. I dont know if I told you but when IW as young I remember waking up in the middle of the night....I saw a small black mass just moving around on the ceiling before it fell to the floor and was gone from sight......shortly after I had my head filled with thoughts and images that terrified me....I literally was stumbling trying to walk and hold my head because the fear was so intense. It was then that I changed my outlook on things.

Well its just silly some of the things we end up believing.......
#5460 to #5457 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
Okay!   
   
...I've had a similar experience! I woke up in the middle of the night a huge black mass was right in front of me. I thought it was my brother and I yelled at him, but then he yelled from his room, &quot;What?!&quot; And it just suddenly disappeared! I had trouble sleeping for a few days after that!   
   
What separates the silly from the not?
Okay!

...I've had a similar experience! I woke up in the middle of the night a huge black mass was right in front of me. I thought it was my brother and I yelled at him, but then he yelled from his room, "What?!" And it just suddenly disappeared! I had trouble sleeping for a few days after that!

What separates the silly from the not?
#5461 to #5460 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/22/2015) [-]



Well after my expierence I had trouble sleeping for a few days.....having realised the inevitable facts of life. But it also made think there was something more to life.....something we still have yet to figure out. Sure my thoughts become depressing and left me in darkness for probably the rest of my life but it also got me thinking of a few things.


Well for one how possible it really is.......sometimes we just take another's word for an event to happen without getting much proof that it will.
#5462 to #5461 - xblthatguy (03/22/2015) [-]
What do you think? I definitely think there's more to life.
What do you think? I definitely think there's more to life.
User avatar #5427 - furrypuppy (03/21/2015) [-]
I need someone to talk to.
#5428 to #5427 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/21/2015) [-]
Well I am awake now so if you still need someone to talk to please vet all your problems
User avatar #5429 to #5428 - furrypuppy (03/21/2015) [-]
Well today me and my dad spent over five hours trying to get my work laptop to work again, all the while I was running back and forth between working on the laptop and working on the school I so desperately need to finish.

After five hours, we spent 220 euros on a new SSD, and we didn't get it to work. I basically BEGGED my father to take it away to a store before I would threw it against a wall because I was and still am BOILING.
#5430 to #5429 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/21/2015) [-]
Yeah best option at that point would be to take it in somewhere and see if they can get any luck on fixing it.

But please, do try you're best to calm down a little. Vent all you want and try to blow off some of that steam.
User avatar #5431 to #5430 - furrypuppy (03/21/2015) [-]
My life and future are relying on that thing..
#5432 to #5431 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/21/2015) [-]
oh then in that case take it in somewhere and try to have them fix it ASAP. Im not that good with computers but maybe in Novabird comes online you can talk to him......he knows quite a bit.
oh then in that case take it in somewhere and try to have them fix it ASAP. Im not that good with computers but maybe in Novabird comes online you can talk to him......he knows quite a bit.
User avatar #5433 to #5432 - furrypuppy (03/21/2015) [-]
Me and my dad both know our stuff about computers as well, but this left us clueless. It may be the motherboard, which would be about a 600 euro fix..
User avatar #5435 to #5433 - novabird (03/21/2015) [-]
what's it doing?
i have had to rebuild a few in my time as well and build custom rigs.
#5434 to #5433 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/21/2015) [-]
That could be the problem....Im still so sorry that this is even happening to begin with *hugs*
User avatar #5426 - warzon (03/19/2015) [-]
**warzon prods cutie's groin with a finger while back massaging with the other hand**
User avatar #5417 - lepidoptera (03/19/2015) [-]
hello, dear
it's Moths
how are you?
#5418 to #5417 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
Been feeling terrible.

Why the different account?
User avatar #5419 to #5418 - lepidoptera (03/19/2015) [-]
aww
and why is that?
might I be of help?

I've been locked out of it until future notice
#5420 to #5419 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
www.funnyjunk.com/pt15/481241#481241   
   
Pretty much some stuff on this comment thread with me and Gary.   
   
Been going to PT15 and want to be more known there since PV is well....mostly dead most of the time. But it just seems like no one really cares......been having severe breakdowns lately......and I Just really need something to make me happy while I wait for C-ya to move in......but nothing ever seems to go my way.   
   
   
Sorry to hear that, any idea why?
www.funnyjunk.com/pt15/481241#481241

Pretty much some stuff on this comment thread with me and Gary.

Been going to PT15 and want to be more known there since PV is well....mostly dead most of the time. But it just seems like no one really cares......been having severe breakdowns lately......and I Just really need something to make me happy while I wait for C-ya to move in......but nothing ever seems to go my way.


Sorry to hear that, any idea why?
User avatar #5421 to #5420 - lepidoptera (03/19/2015) [-]
I'm sorry to hear that, love
if you think of anything I can do to help
please, do be sure to let me know

and I've never really been to PT15
is PV no longer enough?
I haven't been there in a while
has it died?

no no, it's okay
I did so willingly
no worried
#5422 to #5421 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
Been thinking but its hard for even me to find something that will really help. I just kinda am hoping my friends who know me and what problems are bothering me can work together to find something......   
   
Yeah PV just isn't really enough for me.....but I still check there occasionally and thinking of another game to play with them. Its still there, so dont worry.   
   
Ah ok.
Been thinking but its hard for even me to find something that will really help. I just kinda am hoping my friends who know me and what problems are bothering me can work together to find something......

Yeah PV just isn't really enough for me.....but I still check there occasionally and thinking of another game to play with them. Its still there, so dont worry.

Ah ok.
#5423 to #5422 - lepidoptera (03/19/2015) [-]
perhaps you'd feel better with some companionship?   
   
has Cya moved in, yet?   
is that still happening?   
   
maybe you can go out and get yourself a girlfriend?   
or a boyfriend   
someone who's into diapers as much as you, of course
perhaps you'd feel better with some companionship?

has Cya moved in, yet?
is that still happening?

maybe you can go out and get yourself a girlfriend?
or a boyfriend
someone who's into diapers as much as you, of course
#5424 to #5423 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
Probably.....   
   
Not yet, still waiting on him to finish his semester.....which I wish would end faster.   
   
Been trying.....been looking everywhere but there isn't enough people to meet here so the chances are really low and online when I find someone who is pretty much perfect they are already taken and it just hurts me a ton more......   
   
Gonna go to bed now. So if you want to talk it will have to be tomorrow....sorry.
Probably.....

Not yet, still waiting on him to finish his semester.....which I wish would end faster.

Been trying.....been looking everywhere but there isn't enough people to meet here so the chances are really low and online when I find someone who is pretty much perfect they are already taken and it just hurts me a ton more......

Gonna go to bed now. So if you want to talk it will have to be tomorrow....sorry.
User avatar #5425 to #5424 - lepidoptera (03/19/2015) [-]
I hope you feel better soon, dearest

sleep well
#5401 to #5399 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
Speeches like that never really stick with me.....plus its basically the same thing my therapist keeps telling me.
#5402 to #5401 - zealotgold (03/19/2015) [-]
but i still thought you would enjoy it heh, how are you?
#5403 to #5402 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
Still feeling pretty terrible.....not sure if you understand why though.
#5404 to #5403 - zealotgold (03/19/2015) [-]
then explain if you will and ill try to understand
#5405 to #5404 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
www.funnyjunk.com/pt15/481241#481241   
   
Pretty much some if it summed up in that comment thread.   
   
   
Just still feel like I get negative emotions while on the thread more than I get positive ones......
www.funnyjunk.com/pt15/481241#481241

Pretty much some if it summed up in that comment thread.


Just still feel like I get negative emotions while on the thread more than I get positive ones......
#5406 to #5405 - zealotgold (03/19/2015) [-]
then we need to get you motivated.... i think these are the words that i need to tell you i dont know why but they feel right.

we need to get you motivated not because we wanna change you and make you to a super happy no ***** giving person no. we need to make you whole. i want those days of bad to end i want you to see the sun because not that it sucks to go out side anymore its your mind trying to hold you in. i wanna hear what you do because we need to push on doing things we hate. it might turn into things we love, we need to go out and enjoy the little things because they make the big seem weak.

it may hurt for the first part, it may suck a lot but maybe the computer is killing you on the inside because its easy to gain a little happiness, but now i see we need to motivate you.

and its nothing to do with the hate in your soul or the unwillingness to do others but starting to bud out to others might do some good, the internet is a wonderful place but the human interaction is still needed.

we gotta get you up and moving day to day and nothing of oh i dont or cant because its ur head. start out with a walk around town or a walk around the block start slow and keep getting bigger more and more each day keep trying to do better.

just break hold of that self hate and move past it and finally move to do something hole again it might be a small town but that doesnt have to stop you and change doesnt happen over night but maybe a way to push you into the right spot because you need that push that nuge to say hey maybe i should try again

but we need to motivate because i think that will start the change
#5407 to #5406 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
I dont see the problem as me needing to get out.....because I still feel terrible when Im outside.....this town is just too damn small for me. Im used to big cities with plenty to do and tons of people to meet. Anything I can think of was there.....but here there is literally nothing interesting, even if I were to get out I wouldn't have anything to do or anyone to talk to because there is not really a place to meet people here. Motivation is just something I lack.....and is pretty much impossible for me to really get, believe me.....my family and I have tried EVERYTHING but nothing works. If it had worked I wouldn't be in the situation I am in now. Therapist takes me for a drive around town and such during our sessions and that really doesn't help much either. I have terrible social anxiety and it only gets worse and worsens my mood when I try to interact with people IRL.
User avatar #5409 to #5407 - zealotgold (03/19/2015) [-]
have you put in the effort deep down in your heart?
#5408 to #5407 - zealotgold (03/19/2015) [-]
but have you wanted it truly have you asked deep down inside have you wanted this motivation?
#5410 to #5408 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
Yes....Yes I have because without it my life is just falling apart. I've been trying EVERYTHING to get motiviaton to do things but it all just ends in me getting depressed and having a severe breakdown where I have to fight off the lucid thoughts of just injuring myself or just ends in disappointment.   
   
Right now i have nothing going for me.......absolutely nothing.....so its hard to feel a motivation for ANYTHING and with the way my mind is even if something may give me motiviation it still has to get passed the rpoblem of if my mind decides to actually think with it instead of just blocking it out like several other things. Still waiting on a psychological exam to be done about it but that too is a few months away......so what I am asking for is something to keep me happy or at least not as hurtful to me in the meantime while I wait for things. But nobody seems to be able to help with that and its just driving me up the 			*******		 wall.
Yes....Yes I have because without it my life is just falling apart. I've been trying EVERYTHING to get motiviaton to do things but it all just ends in me getting depressed and having a severe breakdown where I have to fight off the lucid thoughts of just injuring myself or just ends in disappointment.

Right now i have nothing going for me.......absolutely nothing.....so its hard to feel a motivation for ANYTHING and with the way my mind is even if something may give me motiviation it still has to get passed the rpoblem of if my mind decides to actually think with it instead of just blocking it out like several other things. Still waiting on a psychological exam to be done about it but that too is a few months away......so what I am asking for is something to keep me happy or at least not as hurtful to me in the meantime while I wait for things. But nobody seems to be able to help with that and its just driving me up the ******* wall.
#5412 to #5411 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
I've lost a lot in my life already......I had everything and now I have nothing......literally nothing. All I really ask for now is my time on the thread to be better....like I have tried expressing to people......so I at least have that to keep me in a brighter mood instead of it being a gamble.
#5413 to #5412 - zealotgold (03/19/2015) [-]
its something then at least
#5414 to #5413 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
Something...but lately its been more hurtful than helpful.
Something...but lately its been more hurtful than helpful.
User avatar #5415 to #5414 - zealotgold (03/19/2015) [-]
hmm maybe on a down curve for now
#5416 to #5415 - cutietooniexx ONLINE (03/19/2015) [-]
I've been stating my problems to quite a few people......but so far nothing really seems to be working in my favor......nothing ever seems to work out for me, just for everybody else.
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