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#896 - Good luck, and keep us updated!  [+] (1 new reply) 07/19/2014 on tell addy your feels 0
User avatar #897 - itsamazing (07/19/2014) [-]
Will do!
#893 - Sounds like a good idea, I do think its easier to avoid white …  [+] (3 new replies) 07/19/2014 on tell addy your feels 0
User avatar #895 - itsamazing (07/19/2014) [-]
I never really ate white bread, I've always been more of a wheat type of person. I'm just trying to avoid bread altogether, but I'll cave every now and then. Diet is the biggest factor for me, and I'll lose weight in no time with exercise. Once I get used to the water only & no junk food it'll be easy...hopefully.
User avatar #896 - aviox (07/19/2014) [-]
Good luck, and keep us updated!
User avatar #897 - itsamazing (07/19/2014) [-]
Will do!
#874 - I have a good tip for you with the weight loss, avoid ALL suga…  [+] (5 new replies) 07/19/2014 on tell addy your feels 0
User avatar #890 - itsamazing (07/19/2014) [-]
Yeah that's what I've been trying to do. The bread is probably the hardest part but I really haven't had that much of it. I had like a single piece of toast the other day and I think that's been it so far. I'm sticking to fruit, meat, salad, and oatmeal (not instant oatmeal, it's a healthier kind.)
User avatar #893 - aviox (07/19/2014) [-]
Sounds like a good idea, I do think its easier to avoid white bread, seeing that I'm a danefag, and we have 40 different types of rye bread :p
User avatar #895 - itsamazing (07/19/2014) [-]
I never really ate white bread, I've always been more of a wheat type of person. I'm just trying to avoid bread altogether, but I'll cave every now and then. Diet is the biggest factor for me, and I'll lose weight in no time with exercise. Once I get used to the water only & no junk food it'll be easy...hopefully.
User avatar #896 - aviox (07/19/2014) [-]
Good luck, and keep us updated!
User avatar #897 - itsamazing (07/19/2014) [-]
Will do!
#157 - Where exactly? 07/11/2014 on tfw 0
#152 - That sucks, I know I'd be devastated if Jenny(name of my gf) b…  [+] (2 new replies) 07/11/2014 on tfw 0
#154 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
I wish it was like that, with me and her.
Our arguements tend to heat up.
And when they do that, it usually ends up with one of us leaving the conversation.
Yeah, I live around an hour - hour and a half away from Copenhagen
User avatar #157 - aviox (07/11/2014) [-]
Where exactly?
#10 - It sounds like she broke things off :/ What happened?  [+] (30 new replies) 07/10/2014 on tfw 0
#58 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
Ill just write, what I wrote for satrenkotheone.
You are free to read it all, or just some of it.

If you just want to read about the current events, with some background, I would sugguest starting from funnyjunk.com/tfw/funny-pictures/5214599/32#32 to understand more (I hope). But if you only want to read about the event, start here funnyjunk.com/tfw/funny-pictures/5214599/36#36 at "The meeting of Natalia"

Of course, you can also choose not to read it at all.
User avatar #66 - satrenkotheone (07/11/2014) [-]
might delay this read till tomorrow.
#11 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
Do you want the shit long version, or the light one?
User avatar #13 - satrenkotheone (07/10/2014) [-]
Shoot
#19 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
Well, what Im basicly going to do now, is going to write a lot of stuff about myself, like backstory, and shit like that. Because I need peoples opinion (if I get any anyway). So it will get sort of personal, I guess.
But the main issue will be described in the end, so there is no need to read it all, if you dont feel like it.
#21 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
There are a few things to break down, about previous parts of my 'romantic' life. It is a bit of reading, but I dont think it's right to just tell the most recent part of it. But its completly up to you. Yeah, I might be a bitch, a beta-faggot, or whatever you want to call me. But I just feel like getting it out

About myself
I live in Denmark like you (aviox), I am 19 years, a kiss-virgin (still are, but after my experience thats somewhat common here). I have always been sort of awkward, shy and what I would call introvert. I dont like changes that much, hate when people ignore me, and I just want to be accepted as who I am (as we pretty much want). But I would call myself a generous, considerate and nice guy (...yeah, pretty much all guys do that, but whatever).

Youngest (9-11)
When I was around 9 years old, I had a crush in 3rd grade called Emma. I wrote on a piece of paper that I liked (or loved, cant remember). It got rumored around the class, and I heard different rumors about her thoughts about me (some said she liked back, other she hated). I was just to narrow sighted about this girl, that when another friend called Christina asked me home, I said no (not realizing what it could have been, I deeply regret it now).

Younger (12-14)
I got a crush on a muslim girl (Im telling her religion, as it is prehabs why she reacted that way). I wrote to her over Facebook (because I was shy), that I liked/loved her (again, cant remember which). She logged off Facebook, and after that, she bullied me, pushed me, and called me names. I mean fuck, all I told her was I had a crush on her, and thats her reaction. I told my mom about it, she called her mom. And the next time we were paired in groups, she directly threatened me (if you get your mom to call me again, Ill have my friends to beat you up). Later on, I defended her against a teacher, and that was sort of the end of her bullying.

[Continues...]
#22 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
[...continued]

A bit young (15-16)
So after two rejections from girls, I was pretty down, and had sorta lost hope (remember, I am more shy than talkative). But then a friend said, looks like Denise (a girl from my class) likes you. And I dont know, that trickered something in my head. So I got a very big crush on her. I began talking to her, and she seemed cool. We then went on a trip to Berlin, and I spent most of my time around her, alone. We were walking home from tours alone, and I was so happy. I told some guys about it, and I shouldnt have. One of them spread a rumor, that I had said we were a couple, she stripped or something. She got mad. A lot of this seems a bit irrelevant, but I ended up sitting next to her (because there was no more seats), while she still was mad. We began talking again, and the crush was getting bigger . The next school year, I spent the whole year, sitting next to her, hoping she would fall for me too. As you have guessed, it didnt happen. But she became my very good friend instead. To this day, I dont know if she knows how much I liked her, even though a few classmates had joked about it, cause they had figured it out.

Young (17-18)
Now I am in 10th grade. But during the summer, I met a girl called Gry. We started writting with a couple of weeks of pause, then it started to get more frequent, and then daily. Around 5 days of daily chatting, I stepped up, and asked her out. She did say yes. I was unbelieveably happy. Finaly, a girl with mutual interest. None of us had been in a relationship before, or even on a date, so it was new to both of us. So I didnt do any of that Alpha shit people tend to brag about. We walked around in Copenhagen for around 2-3 hours, just talking (and not holding hands). But it was great, I loved it. I made a few mistakes, laughing at the wrong times, but I was happy. It seemed great, but sadly for me, it wasnt going my way for long.

[continues..]
#25 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
[..continued]

By the way, I dont expect my story to be seen as something unusual. I am no more important than you. And my story might not have a nerve shredding ending, as some green text stories has. And yeah, I might think myself, that some of the shit I have done is cringe worthy, but thats human I guess. Anyway, Ill continue

Young (17-18) continued
I am still in the process of the date. Some of the few mistakes I made, was to laugh or grin when she almost fell (I know thats fucking cruel, but I really cant remember why I did. I was happy, but did she tell something funny before? I cant remember, but I regret it, and it was bad timing). And I wanted to buy her something quick to eat (also because I was hungry myself), so we went to McDonalds. I wanted to be a gentleman, and got her something (even if she did say no). Anyway, at the end of the date, she said she did have a great time, and she wanted to see me again, and we arranged another date 2 weeks in the future. We kept chatting, but I couldnt wait to see her again, but appearently, she was to busy. Then she told me about her friend, who she should have been with that day, but the friend was together with somebody else. And she was pissed about that, which I understand, since her friend totaly ditched her that day. Then she tells me she is depressed, is questioning why she was born, stuff like that. And as a sensitive and caring guy, I wanted to help her. She didnt have a lot of friends, so I wanted to be there for her, through her difficult times. Then she ignored me (didnt answer my messages). When she finaly did, all I was getting was " :/ ". I then said (the day before our 2nd date was planned), that I still wanted to see her. But she had made other plans (hyprocrite). I asked her, what about the next couple of days, and she said she was doing absoulutely nothing (which I took as, I dont want to see you).

The 17-18 years, is going to be a bit longer than expected.

[continues..]
#28 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[..continued]

Young (17-18) continued (again)
So around the Fall (I think it was September), she started ignoring me. But I couldnt get her out my head. My crush was big on her. I cried about her, I kept messaging her. But eventually, she deleted her profile online (where we met), and still didnt answer my text messages.

Okay, in this one, Ill just focus on what happended with Gry according to me, even in the same time, as other things happended. But Ill just focus on different things, as it will be easier to follow then.

Gry: The Aftermath
As the shit head I was (...still am a bit), I couldnt take a clue. I just wanted in contact with her. I just at least wanted to be her friend, and help her through her depression. And My therapist (yeah, I started at one), said I could go to her adresse, and confront her by talking. But that could get fucking embarassing. The thought of sending a letter, would have been the same. But I was never truly over her. I just at least wanted to know, why she ignored me. If I did something wrong. All in all, I wanted clossure. I wanted her, out of my head. In the summer of 2013, I had enough. For some reason, I thought her parents needed to hear about her behavior. I still had her number, so I looked it up, and found her adresse and shit, including her parents phone numbers. I was in deep sorrow, and depression. So I wrote a 34 long text message (thats 34 text messages, around 1200 words), and sent it to her, her mom, and her dad. A week later (yes a whole fucking week), I get a message from her mom "We have recieved your messages, - Gry's mom". ...Is that it? Is that fucking it? I know it was somewhat creepy thing I did, but at least write more than that.
But one day, I checked her facebook status (like a stalker), that she was in a relationship. I envied the guy, and was sad it wasnt me. But she was happy...so thats good. But I didnt get my clossure, but it was over.


[continues...]
#32 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[..continued]

I found out, it was only half way seventeen, so the next title will maybe look a bit the same.

Almost present (17 1/2) - the downfall
So I was pretty much devasted. I had really liked 4 girls. The 1st was there splitted opinions about her thoughts about me going around, which leaves me confused. The 2nd left me bullied, because I expressed my feelings. The 3rd couldnt see how much I wanted her, and I was to afraid to tell her it, because of the previous outcome (she did turn out as a good friend though). And the 4th, ignored me. So all bad experiences. So I was pretty beaten down... devastated. I couldnt really take it anymore. 17 1/2, still hadnt been with a girl (still hasnt, by the way), and only have gotten shit back for trying (not trying to sound like those guys who use the expression "friendzoned" on themselves). So I went on Omegle, and chatted with girls. I know, girls on the internet are usually full of shit, and fake promises. But I can also tell you, I managed to get a few girls to say "I love you". I even made plans with a few of them, to see them (and they would come to me). It so happended, I could do all that, in around 3 days after I met them. Maybe they were vulnerable, or I had good persuasion skills. So I was finaly getting attention. I used Kik to chat with them after Omegle. But I was not always after flirting with girls, I was also looking after friends to just talk to (as I didnt have that many real life friends). I should say, I am overweight, but not obese. And might not have the most attractive face, but I wouldnt call myself ugly. But a couple of girls did. And I know, not all are polite. But I had enough. I just wanted to talk with people, not getting judged by some skanky bitches thinking Im not worthy of their time, because I dont have the looks. No, fuck that! So I did something, I have a mixed feeling about. It was sweet revenge (in some way), but also moraly wrong

[continues...]
#36 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]

Almost present (17 1/2) - the downfall part 2
What I did, which I still have different opinions on, was to download some pictures of a guys (big) dick (no homo), and use them as sexting pictures, to get some female nudity back. I spent a lot of hours doing that, and got many results (I think at one point, I had gathered 150 pictures, if not more, by that method). And the dick pictures was just some guy on the internet, which pictures eventually got taken down. So I had, some untracable pictures (at least for a normal girl). That was my way of giving the middle finger to those bitches, who only cared about looks and dick sizes. I might have come through some nice girls though, but I didnt really care, the method worked. But during all the sexting, flirting and chatting with a lot of girls, I met a special girl

Closer to present (17 1/2 - 18 (the real one now) - The meeting of Natalia
So, I met a girl called Natalia, on Omegle as well. The last place, I would look for something serious. I cant really remember how it happended, or how long it took, but... it happended. We fell for each other. Now, I had been heartbroken (or well, maybe teenage heartbroken) a couple of times, and was still not over Gry, so I had very mixed feelings. I didnt feel love that much. I maybe felt it at some points, but not like a flaming passion. But I really wanted to be serious with her. She was a bit obsessed at that point. When I went, to do something else, like play a game, she would be a bit envy and miss me. I found that was cute in some way. That somebody missed me. Anyway, she knew about all my other girls, and appointments and stuff like that. First, she didnt care. But then, it became pretty serious to her. By myself, I choosed to cancel the other things I had planned with the girls, and only wanted to do anything with Natalia.

[...continues] duh!
#38 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]
Shit, I just noticed that I had just written it all out, without using the enter button, so it will become annoying to read. I am sorry. I will fix it from now on

A thing worth knowing about Natalia, is that she is from Mexico, which is poor and dangerous (pretty obvious, yeah I know). And since none of us was wealthy, we couldnt visit each other.

Closer to present (17 1/2 - 18 - The meeting of Natalia (part 2)
But even with the appointment, with the other girls cancelled, it was hard to get rid of the habbit, of chatting, flirting and sexting other girls. But I was honest about it to her, and I knew it was a problem, and I tried to stop. But as newly 'couple' (or whatever you would call a newly long distance relationship), we were pretty intimite, caring and blooming of passion for each other.

This is the time, right before the main issue between me and her starts
Even closer to present (18- 18 1/2) - The last breath
So, things were doing great. Except the few mistakes I made, out of my bad habbit/obsession.
We argued a lot about it (I didnt argue for it, I said it was an urge, and it was hard to resist). But last fall, she had enough, and threatened, she would end it between us, if it happended again (I got a second chance).
I was grateful for it, and took it seriously. I held back the urge to flirt and sext other girls the best I could, and suceeded for four months.
But we began to argue a bit more. I am a pretty horny boy (as a lot of males are), and I was used to get my stuff and needs from multiple girls, so I felt I needed more attention from her now.
But she felt it was all I cared about. That I didnt love her, and I might only want to spend all time together with her in bed. While that is true, that I want to spend a lot of time in bed, I also want to hang out with her. But I was still, not sure how I felt about her (if I loved her or not).


[...continues]

#41 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]

A thing I forgot to tell, was I completly deleted all the sexting contact I had, plus the pictures. I was that dedicated to it. But the next part, is where the problem starts to show. And that she had been talking about moving here to Denmark, to study, after the current school year has passed. I am sorry for letting that information go by, but I am pretty tired, and not very observing.

Nearly present (18 1/2 - 19) The downfall
So after the four months (thats around January) without sexting with others, I was proud of myself. But then, I started feeling butterflies for a girl in my class. I told her about it, and she said it would be okay to her, if I started dating that girl (explaination in a minute).
I was...confused. I also told her that it had been four months, since I had sexted others (just to inform her about it), but the urge had been there.
She then said, if the urge was to big, I could just do it. It was okay with her.
I then asked her why, and she explained that she would get busy with school, exams and stuff, and couldnt 'satisfy me'. And I acted dissapointed (which is true), when she let me down. That was also why, she said it was okay, if I wanted to be with another girl, and then be with her when she came here to Denmark.
So now, I didnt have a reason to not doing it anymore. She wouldnt leave me, or get mad.
But to me, that was bad. No motivation to not do it. First it was good, but then, it felt... horrible. It wasnt the same, seeing other girls naked. I wanted Natalias body. I litterly begged her, to tell me I couldnt do it. But she refused to do it. I couldnt get my motivation back.
And we talked less and less, as she was studying hard, doing papers, prepearing to move to Denmark, hanging out with friends, seeing family. So she didnt have time for me anymore. I even said that to her. I was devastated. I felt ignored and neglected, by the person you were supposed to be loved by.


[continues...]
#45 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]

Again some things I have left out about her.
She feels like an obstacle, in the way of others life. I dont know if all of that was important, but she is very insecure about herself.

Nearly present (18 1/2 - 19) The downfall (part 2)
But she wouldnt cut me off her life. She didnt want to choose between school, and me. She needed good grades to get on with life (understandable), but she was studying way to hard.
In April, soon to Springbreak, she told me she got bad grades (maybe 80/100, which is low according to her). And I just dont really understand that, since she had used so much time on studying. Then she got sad about her life, wrote about it, then logged off for half a day. And I wasnt online when she did, and read it afterwards.
I felt like shit, and hated that she could do that to me (just log off, after telling stuff like that). She also told me, that we could talk all I wanted in 4 days (Springbreak), but she needed time to finish some stuff meanwhile.
So I waited. And sure enough, she was there. At that point, it was 3 months since I had seen her body, and I wanted to see it pretty badly again, but only if she wanted to show. She then said, "Alright", and left for 15 minutes.
Then she sent the pictures. I was happy to see her body again, and wanted to get intimite with her (as intimite as it gets, during an internet relationship). I said stuff like "I still love your body, thanks for showing it again" (maybe not the most romantic). She replied "Your welcome". That was kinda cold, but she kept writting it.
That knocked me off the mood. I then found out she was cleaning her room. Cleaining... her room. In our only intimite moment in months... even when she said we could talk how much I wanted. I felt very dissapointed. And not only that, she would get busy out of nowhere, and leave me waiting for an reply for an hour, without telling me she left. We argued a ot during that vaction


[continues...]
#48 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]

Jesus, I dont believe anybody would read this much. But I feel sorta good, letting it out, even if its late.

Nearly present (18 1/2 - 19) The downfall (part 3)
So the situation was, that she would get busy out of nowhere, without telling me, leave me hanging during a conversation, and not have time for me out of vacation. Why didnt I end it? Because I was so foolish, to actually believe that it would get better. Because, she would get here in August. Because, I had waited to see her, for so many months, and wouldnt just throw it away.
By the end of the springbreak, I ended up messaging her again, asking if she was busy. She told me, she wasnt. I then began to tell her, that I only would ask for 3 things from her in general: Love, caring and comfort.
I wanted those things from her (implying, I didnt wanted it by sexting other girls). She said, she couldnt promise me those things. I really cried there. Not only, was she taking a lot of time replying, but also her answer. I told her I cried, she just told me "What can I do about that?" (she didnt even try anything, she just had the conclution, what CAN I do?).
I then found out she was busy, even though she just specificly had said, she wasnt. I got mad at her, at that point, and said to her, she could message me, when she had time for me in her life.
By the time her springbreak vacation ended, she messaged me, telling me she was sorry. I felt bad for it all, and just wanted it to get better. And I hoped it would. But nope, still the same dog shit lifestyle, of getting neglected. Everything was more important than me. And my mom was working harder, came home later, worked in the weekends, and was just plain stressed. And one of my Kik friends mom died, so I couldnt talk to my friend anymore. So basicly, more alone than ever before. Neglected by basicly everyone (maybe a bit overdramatic, but whatever...)


[continues...]
#50 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[..continued]

This is one of the last parts, I SWEAR

Present (19) The Redemption(?)
When I turned 19, she didnt even write to me. In my head, she was just to busy. I didnt want to message her. I wanted her to remember it herself. If she didnt, I didnt really care. I didnt really care about much. What was the point of anything? It was about half a year of this horseshit. Half a year of not talking to eachother that much. Last good conversation was ages ago. All we nearly did, was fighting now when we finaly talked.
I couldnt stop thinking about her. And that hurted... a lot. Now I was the obsessed one. But I know, I never would have treated her like that, ignoring her for so long, not talking to her proberly.
I then heard from one of her friends, that her phone was to repair, so she was unreachable.
A week after my birthday (or six days actually) she then writes, if I was excied. Excited for what?, I asked. Your birthday, she replied. I was confused, why she would think my birthday was that day. But I just kept playing a long, till I went to sleep.
I wanted to see how she would celebrate me. I think, she turned out to think it was my birthday, because her phone had the wrong date, after the repair (a week behind).
But after that day, I had hope again. She said, she regretted the way she had treated me. She wished she had done it differently. Which made me happy.
But the hope, banished shortly after, as she got busy again...
Thats the last pleasent conversation we have had. We barely talk now. I mostly write how much I hate the way she acts, and how it all is right now (I basicly bitch). And she doesnt replies, because she got nothing to say. I express my feelings, about how much I miss chatting with her, while she doesnt express her feelings. It was okay the first times, but now it just pisses me off. But maybe its just because I miss her, and Im sad...


[continues...]
#54 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[..continued]

Present (19) The Redemption (part 2)
She had told me, she couldnt chat in the weekly days, because she would be busy with school, but she had surely time on the weekends. But that turned out to be false. She one day said, we could talk next friday, but when it turned out we couldnt, because she got busy, I got mad and dissapointed, and she got sad. Then i felt bad abut that.
So basicly, I feel like the bitching whore, who just complains all the time.
But I am really hurt. I cant take it much longer. I have missed her for so long, for so many months, so many months filled with shit. I just cant keep tormenting myself anymore.
So I wrote her a couple of messages last saturday, about I couldnt anymore. She had destroyed what we had. She had chosen, even though she didnt want to. And she didnt change anything, in those 6 months. She didnt even try. And a lot of bitching of course. And guess what, it took her 36 hours to read them. 36 HOURS. Jesus... she couldnt use 5-10 minutes before she slept?
So now, I dont care much more. So I recently continued chatting more with girls again, without the guilt. Because I dont care anymore. I dont see a chance or anything between us anymore. Maybe we can start fresh when she moves here. But I am not a part of her life, Im not connected with her, we are barely talking... I just dont feel it anymore.


Keep in mind, that this is my side. I understand the choices she has made (education is important), but she couldnt handle having me meanwhile, and she wouldnt admit that.
So know... Im broken hearted, for the 5th time.
I told to her, a year back, that I couldnt stand when people ignored me. She promised she would never do that.
But I feel pretty ignored by her. 36 hours to read some messages... wow.

So any advices or comments? Do I want her, or am I just looking for somebody to love me? Am I bitching to much about it? Is it really such a big deal?

Thanks for taking time reading this.
User avatar #152 - aviox (07/11/2014) [-]
That sucks, I know I'd be devastated if Jenny(name of my gf) broke up with me, but I know that's not going to happen, knowing our relationship. Every arguement we have, always get sorted out instantly, we made a rule not to storm off during an arguement and settle it right away. Also, I take it you live near copenhagen? I live quite close to copenhagen.
#154 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
I wish it was like that, with me and her.
Our arguements tend to heat up.
And when they do that, it usually ends up with one of us leaving the conversation.
Yeah, I live around an hour - hour and a half away from Copenhagen
User avatar #157 - aviox (07/11/2014) [-]
Where exactly?
User avatar #151 - satrenkotheone (07/11/2014) [-]
Gry's a bitch.

Don't blame Natalie for what you fucked up. You were too horny and pushed it too hard, you scared her away with not controlling your lust. Basically you made it appear to her as if you only wanted her body ( dunno if you only wanted that or really wanted something more, to be honest) and that probably scared her away.

And the fact that you blame her for it? Jesus Christ what the fuck man? You're a horny teenager who begs her for nudes then you have the audacity to blame her for appearing cold and ruining your relationship?

Oh no sir, you managed to fuck this one up yourself.
#156 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
For some reason, I cant reply to your newest comment.
I focused so much on the sexual parts, to show what really happended after Gry.
I can see, that when its written like that, it seemed like she had been online for 5 minutes or so, and then I asked for nudes. When I write stuff like this, I cant go deep enough into the details of our every conversation. Remember, as I said, that I believed she wouldnt be busy, the day she got springbreak, as she promised. But I think we chatted for around 40-50 minutes, before that topic was brought on. And I just mentioned, that I missed being close to her, and I couldnt wait to see her body again. She then asked me if I wanted, I then told her I wanted if she wanted to, and she said sure.
I didnt force her into taking them. I may have lead her to it, but I didnt say "Send some, or Ill leave".
She sent them, and I wanted to sext her back (like online roleplaying), because I wanted to feel close to her again, but it turned out she was cleaning her room.
How could I know, she was busy at that point.

In the last part, I meant to write "But she still said she couldnt promise me that". I think my mind thought of the "ignoring" part, where she didnt keep her promise there, and mistakenly wrote that.

I know you only know about the situation, from what I write. And I will gladly describe certain situation better, if needed.
But if you were in a long distance relationship, wouldnt you agree, you would at least have to stay in touch, for it to work?
There have been times, where we dont talk for a week or weeks, because she simply doesnt have time.
That is also the minimum to stay friends. But you can maybe put your friends on hold.
But the person thats supposed to support you, or be called your girlfriend... thats a lot harder.

#153 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
I think you misunderstood some of the parts.
How is it my fault, that she refuses to let me go, but still doesnt have time for me?
Yes of course Im horny, but I also wanted to do other things with her, and talk about other stuff, than anything sexualized. But that dont make up for her behavior.
And I didnt beg her for nudes, as much as you think I did.
But in a long distance relationship, as in a real relationship, you need some way or something to stay more intimite or have something special, or else you would just be friends. And after a few months without that feeling of being close to her, I damn missed that.
And its nothing by scaring her away, as she still shows interest.
I can see from her point of view though, that she has a lot of things to do, like finishing school, saying goodbye to friends and family, and getting ready to move.
But if you dont have time for a relationship, you shouldnt be in one.
Besides, as I wrote, the 3 things I asked from her in the end, was love, care and comfort. Nudes were not implied in that. But she still couldnt keep her promise.

I am not trying to give her the whole blame, but your reasons that its all my fault, just because of that, is somewhat flawed
User avatar #155 - satrenkotheone (07/11/2014) [-]
"Yes of course Im horny, but I also wanted to do other things with her, and talk about other stuff, than anything sexualized. But that dont make up for her behavior. "

"And I didnt beg her for nudes, as much as you think I did. "

Well if you didn't want it to appear that way then maybe you should not have put so much of an emphasis on the sexual stuff. And her behaviour? Well from my point of view it somewhat seemed like after a long pause between you two you basically opened up contact again and the first thing you asked from her was nudes even though you knew she was busy.

"She said, she couldnt promise me those things"

"Besides, as I wrote, the 3 things I asked from her in the end, was love, care and comfort. Nudes were not implied in that. But she still couldnt keep her promise. "

Say what now?
User avatar #120 - outerfiend (07/11/2014) [-]
commenting so i have these saved so i can read later
User avatar #20 - satrenkotheone (07/10/2014) [-]
Well I don't mind. Don't expect any really helpful advice or anything but heck I'll read it and try to comment it.
#33 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
Well, I guess Im writting a fucking novel here.
I dont really know if you do care, to read it all (it is far longer than I expected, to be honest), but I will notify you, when its done.
And as I have said in one of the comments so far, is that my life might not be interesting, so dont expect some tearing story. Just me, bitching about my life.
Opinions are still welcome though
User avatar #34 - satrenkotheone (07/11/2014) [-]
I'll comment on whatever I feel I should comment on I suppose. That's stating my opinions on the matter if I really have any.

Take your time.
#56 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
Its done now. Go nuts.

If you just want to read about the current events, with some background, I would sugguest starting from funnyjunk.com/tfw/funny-pictures/5214599/32#32 to understand more (I hope). But if you only want to read about the event, start here funnyjunk.com/tfw/funny-pictures/5214599/36#36 at "The meeting of Natalia"
#57 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
By the way, Ill sleep now, so if you do leave anything, Ill read them in a couple of hours.
#5 - I live in Denmark, and I have a long distance relationship wit…  [+] (36 new replies) 07/10/2014 on tfw 0
#9 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
Glad to hear someones long distance is working out.
I was supposed to meet my girlfriend for the first time (after 18 months) next month, but I wouldnt really call her my girlfriend anymore.
People usually say long distance dont work out, and I just wanted to be a part of the exception to the rule.
#16 - devout feminist (07/10/2014) [-]
Wait wait wait. You "dated" her for 18 months but had never met her?
#17 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
Yep, long distance relationship.
It was to expensive to go see each other, as we are both studying and not that wealthy.
User avatar #10 - aviox (07/10/2014) [-]
It sounds like she broke things off :/ What happened?
#58 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
Ill just write, what I wrote for satrenkotheone.
You are free to read it all, or just some of it.

If you just want to read about the current events, with some background, I would sugguest starting from funnyjunk.com/tfw/funny-pictures/5214599/32#32 to understand more (I hope). But if you only want to read about the event, start here funnyjunk.com/tfw/funny-pictures/5214599/36#36 at "The meeting of Natalia"

Of course, you can also choose not to read it at all.
User avatar #66 - satrenkotheone (07/11/2014) [-]
might delay this read till tomorrow.
#11 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
Do you want the shit long version, or the light one?
User avatar #13 - satrenkotheone (07/10/2014) [-]
Shoot
#19 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
Well, what Im basicly going to do now, is going to write a lot of stuff about myself, like backstory, and shit like that. Because I need peoples opinion (if I get any anyway). So it will get sort of personal, I guess.
But the main issue will be described in the end, so there is no need to read it all, if you dont feel like it.
#21 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
There are a few things to break down, about previous parts of my 'romantic' life. It is a bit of reading, but I dont think it's right to just tell the most recent part of it. But its completly up to you. Yeah, I might be a bitch, a beta-faggot, or whatever you want to call me. But I just feel like getting it out

About myself
I live in Denmark like you (aviox), I am 19 years, a kiss-virgin (still are, but after my experience thats somewhat common here). I have always been sort of awkward, shy and what I would call introvert. I dont like changes that much, hate when people ignore me, and I just want to be accepted as who I am (as we pretty much want). But I would call myself a generous, considerate and nice guy (...yeah, pretty much all guys do that, but whatever).

Youngest (9-11)
When I was around 9 years old, I had a crush in 3rd grade called Emma. I wrote on a piece of paper that I liked (or loved, cant remember). It got rumored around the class, and I heard different rumors about her thoughts about me (some said she liked back, other she hated). I was just to narrow sighted about this girl, that when another friend called Christina asked me home, I said no (not realizing what it could have been, I deeply regret it now).

Younger (12-14)
I got a crush on a muslim girl (Im telling her religion, as it is prehabs why she reacted that way). I wrote to her over Facebook (because I was shy), that I liked/loved her (again, cant remember which). She logged off Facebook, and after that, she bullied me, pushed me, and called me names. I mean fuck, all I told her was I had a crush on her, and thats her reaction. I told my mom about it, she called her mom. And the next time we were paired in groups, she directly threatened me (if you get your mom to call me again, Ill have my friends to beat you up). Later on, I defended her against a teacher, and that was sort of the end of her bullying.

[Continues...]
#22 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
[...continued]

A bit young (15-16)
So after two rejections from girls, I was pretty down, and had sorta lost hope (remember, I am more shy than talkative). But then a friend said, looks like Denise (a girl from my class) likes you. And I dont know, that trickered something in my head. So I got a very big crush on her. I began talking to her, and she seemed cool. We then went on a trip to Berlin, and I spent most of my time around her, alone. We were walking home from tours alone, and I was so happy. I told some guys about it, and I shouldnt have. One of them spread a rumor, that I had said we were a couple, she stripped or something. She got mad. A lot of this seems a bit irrelevant, but I ended up sitting next to her (because there was no more seats), while she still was mad. We began talking again, and the crush was getting bigger . The next school year, I spent the whole year, sitting next to her, hoping she would fall for me too. As you have guessed, it didnt happen. But she became my very good friend instead. To this day, I dont know if she knows how much I liked her, even though a few classmates had joked about it, cause they had figured it out.

Young (17-18)
Now I am in 10th grade. But during the summer, I met a girl called Gry. We started writting with a couple of weeks of pause, then it started to get more frequent, and then daily. Around 5 days of daily chatting, I stepped up, and asked her out. She did say yes. I was unbelieveably happy. Finaly, a girl with mutual interest. None of us had been in a relationship before, or even on a date, so it was new to both of us. So I didnt do any of that Alpha shit people tend to brag about. We walked around in Copenhagen for around 2-3 hours, just talking (and not holding hands). But it was great, I loved it. I made a few mistakes, laughing at the wrong times, but I was happy. It seemed great, but sadly for me, it wasnt going my way for long.

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#25 - meatboy (07/10/2014) [-]
[..continued]

By the way, I dont expect my story to be seen as something unusual. I am no more important than you. And my story might not have a nerve shredding ending, as some green text stories has. And yeah, I might think myself, that some of the shit I have done is cringe worthy, but thats human I guess. Anyway, Ill continue

Young (17-18) continued
I am still in the process of the date. Some of the few mistakes I made, was to laugh or grin when she almost fell (I know thats fucking cruel, but I really cant remember why I did. I was happy, but did she tell something funny before? I cant remember, but I regret it, and it was bad timing). And I wanted to buy her something quick to eat (also because I was hungry myself), so we went to McDonalds. I wanted to be a gentleman, and got her something (even if she did say no). Anyway, at the end of the date, she said she did have a great time, and she wanted to see me again, and we arranged another date 2 weeks in the future. We kept chatting, but I couldnt wait to see her again, but appearently, she was to busy. Then she told me about her friend, who she should have been with that day, but the friend was together with somebody else. And she was pissed about that, which I understand, since her friend totaly ditched her that day. Then she tells me she is depressed, is questioning why she was born, stuff like that. And as a sensitive and caring guy, I wanted to help her. She didnt have a lot of friends, so I wanted to be there for her, through her difficult times. Then she ignored me (didnt answer my messages). When she finaly did, all I was getting was " :/ ". I then said (the day before our 2nd date was planned), that I still wanted to see her. But she had made other plans (hyprocrite). I asked her, what about the next couple of days, and she said she was doing absoulutely nothing (which I took as, I dont want to see you).

The 17-18 years, is going to be a bit longer than expected.

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#28 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[..continued]

Young (17-18) continued (again)
So around the Fall (I think it was September), she started ignoring me. But I couldnt get her out my head. My crush was big on her. I cried about her, I kept messaging her. But eventually, she deleted her profile online (where we met), and still didnt answer my text messages.

Okay, in this one, Ill just focus on what happended with Gry according to me, even in the same time, as other things happended. But Ill just focus on different things, as it will be easier to follow then.

Gry: The Aftermath
As the shit head I was (...still am a bit), I couldnt take a clue. I just wanted in contact with her. I just at least wanted to be her friend, and help her through her depression. And My therapist (yeah, I started at one), said I could go to her adresse, and confront her by talking. But that could get fucking embarassing. The thought of sending a letter, would have been the same. But I was never truly over her. I just at least wanted to know, why she ignored me. If I did something wrong. All in all, I wanted clossure. I wanted her, out of my head. In the summer of 2013, I had enough. For some reason, I thought her parents needed to hear about her behavior. I still had her number, so I looked it up, and found her adresse and shit, including her parents phone numbers. I was in deep sorrow, and depression. So I wrote a 34 long text message (thats 34 text messages, around 1200 words), and sent it to her, her mom, and her dad. A week later (yes a whole fucking week), I get a message from her mom "We have recieved your messages, - Gry's mom". ...Is that it? Is that fucking it? I know it was somewhat creepy thing I did, but at least write more than that.
But one day, I checked her facebook status (like a stalker), that she was in a relationship. I envied the guy, and was sad it wasnt me. But she was happy...so thats good. But I didnt get my clossure, but it was over.


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#32 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[..continued]

I found out, it was only half way seventeen, so the next title will maybe look a bit the same.

Almost present (17 1/2) - the downfall
So I was pretty much devasted. I had really liked 4 girls. The 1st was there splitted opinions about her thoughts about me going around, which leaves me confused. The 2nd left me bullied, because I expressed my feelings. The 3rd couldnt see how much I wanted her, and I was to afraid to tell her it, because of the previous outcome (she did turn out as a good friend though). And the 4th, ignored me. So all bad experiences. So I was pretty beaten down... devastated. I couldnt really take it anymore. 17 1/2, still hadnt been with a girl (still hasnt, by the way), and only have gotten shit back for trying (not trying to sound like those guys who use the expression "friendzoned" on themselves). So I went on Omegle, and chatted with girls. I know, girls on the internet are usually full of shit, and fake promises. But I can also tell you, I managed to get a few girls to say "I love you". I even made plans with a few of them, to see them (and they would come to me). It so happended, I could do all that, in around 3 days after I met them. Maybe they were vulnerable, or I had good persuasion skills. So I was finaly getting attention. I used Kik to chat with them after Omegle. But I was not always after flirting with girls, I was also looking after friends to just talk to (as I didnt have that many real life friends). I should say, I am overweight, but not obese. And might not have the most attractive face, but I wouldnt call myself ugly. But a couple of girls did. And I know, not all are polite. But I had enough. I just wanted to talk with people, not getting judged by some skanky bitches thinking Im not worthy of their time, because I dont have the looks. No, fuck that! So I did something, I have a mixed feeling about. It was sweet revenge (in some way), but also moraly wrong

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#36 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]

Almost present (17 1/2) - the downfall part 2
What I did, which I still have different opinions on, was to download some pictures of a guys (big) dick (no homo), and use them as sexting pictures, to get some female nudity back. I spent a lot of hours doing that, and got many results (I think at one point, I had gathered 150 pictures, if not more, by that method). And the dick pictures was just some guy on the internet, which pictures eventually got taken down. So I had, some untracable pictures (at least for a normal girl). That was my way of giving the middle finger to those bitches, who only cared about looks and dick sizes. I might have come through some nice girls though, but I didnt really care, the method worked. But during all the sexting, flirting and chatting with a lot of girls, I met a special girl

Closer to present (17 1/2 - 18 (the real one now) - The meeting of Natalia
So, I met a girl called Natalia, on Omegle as well. The last place, I would look for something serious. I cant really remember how it happended, or how long it took, but... it happended. We fell for each other. Now, I had been heartbroken (or well, maybe teenage heartbroken) a couple of times, and was still not over Gry, so I had very mixed feelings. I didnt feel love that much. I maybe felt it at some points, but not like a flaming passion. But I really wanted to be serious with her. She was a bit obsessed at that point. When I went, to do something else, like play a game, she would be a bit envy and miss me. I found that was cute in some way. That somebody missed me. Anyway, she knew about all my other girls, and appointments and stuff like that. First, she didnt care. But then, it became pretty serious to her. By myself, I choosed to cancel the other things I had planned with the girls, and only wanted to do anything with Natalia.

[...continues] duh!
#38 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]
Shit, I just noticed that I had just written it all out, without using the enter button, so it will become annoying to read. I am sorry. I will fix it from now on

A thing worth knowing about Natalia, is that she is from Mexico, which is poor and dangerous (pretty obvious, yeah I know). And since none of us was wealthy, we couldnt visit each other.

Closer to present (17 1/2 - 18 - The meeting of Natalia (part 2)
But even with the appointment, with the other girls cancelled, it was hard to get rid of the habbit, of chatting, flirting and sexting other girls. But I was honest about it to her, and I knew it was a problem, and I tried to stop. But as newly 'couple' (or whatever you would call a newly long distance relationship), we were pretty intimite, caring and blooming of passion for each other.

This is the time, right before the main issue between me and her starts
Even closer to present (18- 18 1/2) - The last breath
So, things were doing great. Except the few mistakes I made, out of my bad habbit/obsession.
We argued a lot about it (I didnt argue for it, I said it was an urge, and it was hard to resist). But last fall, she had enough, and threatened, she would end it between us, if it happended again (I got a second chance).
I was grateful for it, and took it seriously. I held back the urge to flirt and sext other girls the best I could, and suceeded for four months.
But we began to argue a bit more. I am a pretty horny boy (as a lot of males are), and I was used to get my stuff and needs from multiple girls, so I felt I needed more attention from her now.
But she felt it was all I cared about. That I didnt love her, and I might only want to spend all time together with her in bed. While that is true, that I want to spend a lot of time in bed, I also want to hang out with her. But I was still, not sure how I felt about her (if I loved her or not).


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#41 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]

A thing I forgot to tell, was I completly deleted all the sexting contact I had, plus the pictures. I was that dedicated to it. But the next part, is where the problem starts to show. And that she had been talking about moving here to Denmark, to study, after the current school year has passed. I am sorry for letting that information go by, but I am pretty tired, and not very observing.

Nearly present (18 1/2 - 19) The downfall
So after the four months (thats around January) without sexting with others, I was proud of myself. But then, I started feeling butterflies for a girl in my class. I told her about it, and she said it would be okay to her, if I started dating that girl (explaination in a minute).
I was...confused. I also told her that it had been four months, since I had sexted others (just to inform her about it), but the urge had been there.
She then said, if the urge was to big, I could just do it. It was okay with her.
I then asked her why, and she explained that she would get busy with school, exams and stuff, and couldnt 'satisfy me'. And I acted dissapointed (which is true), when she let me down. That was also why, she said it was okay, if I wanted to be with another girl, and then be with her when she came here to Denmark.
So now, I didnt have a reason to not doing it anymore. She wouldnt leave me, or get mad.
But to me, that was bad. No motivation to not do it. First it was good, but then, it felt... horrible. It wasnt the same, seeing other girls naked. I wanted Natalias body. I litterly begged her, to tell me I couldnt do it. But she refused to do it. I couldnt get my motivation back.
And we talked less and less, as she was studying hard, doing papers, prepearing to move to Denmark, hanging out with friends, seeing family. So she didnt have time for me anymore. I even said that to her. I was devastated. I felt ignored and neglected, by the person you were supposed to be loved by.


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#45 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]

Again some things I have left out about her.
She feels like an obstacle, in the way of others life. I dont know if all of that was important, but she is very insecure about herself.

Nearly present (18 1/2 - 19) The downfall (part 2)
But she wouldnt cut me off her life. She didnt want to choose between school, and me. She needed good grades to get on with life (understandable), but she was studying way to hard.
In April, soon to Springbreak, she told me she got bad grades (maybe 80/100, which is low according to her). And I just dont really understand that, since she had used so much time on studying. Then she got sad about her life, wrote about it, then logged off for half a day. And I wasnt online when she did, and read it afterwards.
I felt like shit, and hated that she could do that to me (just log off, after telling stuff like that). She also told me, that we could talk all I wanted in 4 days (Springbreak), but she needed time to finish some stuff meanwhile.
So I waited. And sure enough, she was there. At that point, it was 3 months since I had seen her body, and I wanted to see it pretty badly again, but only if she wanted to show. She then said, "Alright", and left for 15 minutes.
Then she sent the pictures. I was happy to see her body again, and wanted to get intimite with her (as intimite as it gets, during an internet relationship). I said stuff like "I still love your body, thanks for showing it again" (maybe not the most romantic). She replied "Your welcome". That was kinda cold, but she kept writting it.
That knocked me off the mood. I then found out she was cleaning her room. Cleaining... her room. In our only intimite moment in months... even when she said we could talk how much I wanted. I felt very dissapointed. And not only that, she would get busy out of nowhere, and leave me waiting for an reply for an hour, without telling me she left. We argued a ot during that vaction


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#48 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[...continued]

Jesus, I dont believe anybody would read this much. But I feel sorta good, letting it out, even if its late.

Nearly present (18 1/2 - 19) The downfall (part 3)
So the situation was, that she would get busy out of nowhere, without telling me, leave me hanging during a conversation, and not have time for me out of vacation. Why didnt I end it? Because I was so foolish, to actually believe that it would get better. Because, she would get here in August. Because, I had waited to see her, for so many months, and wouldnt just throw it away.
By the end of the springbreak, I ended up messaging her again, asking if she was busy. She told me, she wasnt. I then began to tell her, that I only would ask for 3 things from her in general: Love, caring and comfort.
I wanted those things from her (implying, I didnt wanted it by sexting other girls). She said, she couldnt promise me those things. I really cried there. Not only, was she taking a lot of time replying, but also her answer. I told her I cried, she just told me "What can I do about that?" (she didnt even try anything, she just had the conclution, what CAN I do?).
I then found out she was busy, even though she just specificly had said, she wasnt. I got mad at her, at that point, and said to her, she could message me, when she had time for me in her life.
By the time her springbreak vacation ended, she messaged me, telling me she was sorry. I felt bad for it all, and just wanted it to get better. And I hoped it would. But nope, still the same dog shit lifestyle, of getting neglected. Everything was more important than me. And my mom was working harder, came home later, worked in the weekends, and was just plain stressed. And one of my Kik friends mom died, so I couldnt talk to my friend anymore. So basicly, more alone than ever before. Neglected by basicly everyone (maybe a bit overdramatic, but whatever...)


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#50 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[..continued]

This is one of the last parts, I SWEAR

Present (19) The Redemption(?)
When I turned 19, she didnt even write to me. In my head, she was just to busy. I didnt want to message her. I wanted her to remember it herself. If she didnt, I didnt really care. I didnt really care about much. What was the point of anything? It was about half a year of this horseshit. Half a year of not talking to eachother that much. Last good conversation was ages ago. All we nearly did, was fighting now when we finaly talked.
I couldnt stop thinking about her. And that hurted... a lot. Now I was the obsessed one. But I know, I never would have treated her like that, ignoring her for so long, not talking to her proberly.
I then heard from one of her friends, that her phone was to repair, so she was unreachable.
A week after my birthday (or six days actually) she then writes, if I was excied. Excited for what?, I asked. Your birthday, she replied. I was confused, why she would think my birthday was that day. But I just kept playing a long, till I went to sleep.
I wanted to see how she would celebrate me. I think, she turned out to think it was my birthday, because her phone had the wrong date, after the repair (a week behind).
But after that day, I had hope again. She said, she regretted the way she had treated me. She wished she had done it differently. Which made me happy.
But the hope, banished shortly after, as she got busy again...
Thats the last pleasent conversation we have had. We barely talk now. I mostly write how much I hate the way she acts, and how it all is right now (I basicly bitch). And she doesnt replies, because she got nothing to say. I express my feelings, about how much I miss chatting with her, while she doesnt express her feelings. It was okay the first times, but now it just pisses me off. But maybe its just because I miss her, and Im sad...


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#54 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
[..continued]

Present (19) The Redemption (part 2)
She had told me, she couldnt chat in the weekly days, because she would be busy with school, but she had surely time on the weekends. But that turned out to be false. She one day said, we could talk next friday, but when it turned out we couldnt, because she got busy, I got mad and dissapointed, and she got sad. Then i felt bad abut that.
So basicly, I feel like the bitching whore, who just complains all the time.
But I am really hurt. I cant take it much longer. I have missed her for so long, for so many months, so many months filled with shit. I just cant keep tormenting myself anymore.
So I wrote her a couple of messages last saturday, about I couldnt anymore. She had destroyed what we had. She had chosen, even though she didnt want to. And she didnt change anything, in those 6 months. She didnt even try. And a lot of bitching of course. And guess what, it took her 36 hours to read them. 36 HOURS. Jesus... she couldnt use 5-10 minutes before she slept?
So now, I dont care much more. So I recently continued chatting more with girls again, without the guilt. Because I dont care anymore. I dont see a chance or anything between us anymore. Maybe we can start fresh when she moves here. But I am not a part of her life, Im not connected with her, we are barely talking... I just dont feel it anymore.


Keep in mind, that this is my side. I understand the choices she has made (education is important), but she couldnt handle having me meanwhile, and she wouldnt admit that.
So know... Im broken hearted, for the 5th time.
I told to her, a year back, that I couldnt stand when people ignored me. She promised she would never do that.
But I feel pretty ignored by her. 36 hours to read some messages... wow.

So any advices or comments? Do I want her, or am I just looking for somebody to love me? Am I bitching to much about it? Is it really such a big deal?

Thanks for taking time reading this.
User avatar #152 - aviox (07/11/2014) [-]
That sucks, I know I'd be devastated if Jenny(name of my gf) broke up with me, but I know that's not going to happen, knowing our relationship. Every arguement we have, always get sorted out instantly, we made a rule not to storm off during an arguement and settle it right away. Also, I take it you live near copenhagen? I live quite close to copenhagen.
#154 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
I wish it was like that, with me and her.
Our arguements tend to heat up.
And when they do that, it usually ends up with one of us leaving the conversation.
Yeah, I live around an hour - hour and a half away from Copenhagen
User avatar #157 - aviox (07/11/2014) [-]
Where exactly?
User avatar #151 - satrenkotheone (07/11/2014) [-]
Gry's a bitch.

Don't blame Natalie for what you fucked up. You were too horny and pushed it too hard, you scared her away with not controlling your lust. Basically you made it appear to her as if you only wanted her body ( dunno if you only wanted that or really wanted something more, to be honest) and that probably scared her away.

And the fact that you blame her for it? Jesus Christ what the fuck man? You're a horny teenager who begs her for nudes then you have the audacity to blame her for appearing cold and ruining your relationship?

Oh no sir, you managed to fuck this one up yourself.
#156 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
For some reason, I cant reply to your newest comment.
I focused so much on the sexual parts, to show what really happended after Gry.
I can see, that when its written like that, it seemed like she had been online for 5 minutes or so, and then I asked for nudes. When I write stuff like this, I cant go deep enough into the details of our every conversation. Remember, as I said, that I believed she wouldnt be busy, the day she got springbreak, as she promised. But I think we chatted for around 40-50 minutes, before that topic was brought on. And I just mentioned, that I missed being close to her, and I couldnt wait to see her body again. She then asked me if I wanted, I then told her I wanted if she wanted to, and she said sure.
I didnt force her into taking them. I may have lead her to it, but I didnt say "Send some, or Ill leave".
She sent them, and I wanted to sext her back (like online roleplaying), because I wanted to feel close to her again, but it turned out she was cleaning her room.
How could I know, she was busy at that point.

In the last part, I meant to write "But she still said she couldnt promise me that". I think my mind thought of the "ignoring" part, where she didnt keep her promise there, and mistakenly wrote that.

I know you only know about the situation, from what I write. And I will gladly describe certain situation better, if needed.
But if you were in a long distance relationship, wouldnt you agree, you would at least have to stay in touch, for it to work?
There have been times, where we dont talk for a week or weeks, because she simply doesnt have time.
That is also the minimum to stay friends. But you can maybe put your friends on hold.
But the person thats supposed to support you, or be called your girlfriend... thats a lot harder.

#153 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
I think you misunderstood some of the parts.
How is it my fault, that she refuses to let me go, but still doesnt have time for me?
Yes of course Im horny, but I also wanted to do other things with her, and talk about other stuff, than anything sexualized. But that dont make up for her behavior.
And I didnt beg her for nudes, as much as you think I did.
But in a long distance relationship, as in a real relationship, you need some way or something to stay more intimite or have something special, or else you would just be friends. And after a few months without that feeling of being close to her, I damn missed that.
And its nothing by scaring her away, as she still shows interest.
I can see from her point of view though, that she has a lot of things to do, like finishing school, saying goodbye to friends and family, and getting ready to move.
But if you dont have time for a relationship, you shouldnt be in one.
Besides, as I wrote, the 3 things I asked from her in the end, was love, care and comfort. Nudes were not implied in that. But she still couldnt keep her promise.

I am not trying to give her the whole blame, but your reasons that its all my fault, just because of that, is somewhat flawed
User avatar #155 - satrenkotheone (07/11/2014) [-]
"Yes of course Im horny, but I also wanted to do other things with her, and talk about other stuff, than anything sexualized. But that dont make up for her behavior. "

"And I didnt beg her for nudes, as much as you think I did. "

Well if you didn't want it to appear that way then maybe you should not have put so much of an emphasis on the sexual stuff. And her behaviour? Well from my point of view it somewhat seemed like after a long pause between you two you basically opened up contact again and the first thing you asked from her was nudes even though you knew she was busy.

"She said, she couldnt promise me those things"

"Besides, as I wrote, the 3 things I asked from her in the end, was love, care and comfort. Nudes were not implied in that. But she still couldnt keep her promise. "

Say what now?
User avatar #120 - outerfiend (07/11/2014) [-]
commenting so i have these saved so i can read later
User avatar #20 - satrenkotheone (07/10/2014) [-]
Well I don't mind. Don't expect any really helpful advice or anything but heck I'll read it and try to comment it.
#33 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
Well, I guess Im writting a fucking novel here.
I dont really know if you do care, to read it all (it is far longer than I expected, to be honest), but I will notify you, when its done.
And as I have said in one of the comments so far, is that my life might not be interesting, so dont expect some tearing story. Just me, bitching about my life.
Opinions are still welcome though
User avatar #34 - satrenkotheone (07/11/2014) [-]
I'll comment on whatever I feel I should comment on I suppose. That's stating my opinions on the matter if I really have any.

Take your time.
#56 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
Its done now. Go nuts.

If you just want to read about the current events, with some background, I would sugguest starting from funnyjunk.com/tfw/funny-pictures/5214599/32#32 to understand more (I hope). But if you only want to read about the event, start here funnyjunk.com/tfw/funny-pictures/5214599/36#36 at "The meeting of Natalia"
#57 - meatboy (07/11/2014) [-]
By the way, Ill sleep now, so if you do leave anything, Ill read them in a couple of hours.
User avatar #7 - kajenkajon (07/10/2014) [-]
That's pretty gay.
#8 - devout feminist (07/10/2014) [-]
Says the faggot who has probably never even met a girl who's willing to touch him.
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mate, that's thumbology
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i dont even know you either, and tho im flattered, you are quite handsome yourslef :3
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