Sorry for the late reply, and thanks for the advice. I wrote a long message to one of those friends, and they just ended up showing it to the other friend, who basically told them to tell me to fuck off, even though friend #1 was still willing to give our friendship a try again. Needless to say, friend #1s response was very, very hateful. It's a long story about why friend #2 started to hate me, so I won't get into it.

I just really miss being someone's closes friend. I miss being able to call them before my tests when I'm nervous or brag about how well I did afterwards, I miss going places with them and doing stupid stuff together, I miss being able to act like an idiot around someone without any fear of being judged or thought less of. I know I'll find new friends, and I already have, but it's hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that someone I was so close with and who loved me so much while I loved them could hurt me so badly and not even feel bad about it afterwards. I mean, we all know that friendships / relationships are bound to break one day or another, but we're always convinced it won't happen to us , you know, but to someone else. Like the love you have is so strong it's the exception to these rules, when in reality, it's not.

I just had my heart shattered for the first time, so I'm still getting over it. I kinda expected my significant other would do this, not my best friend, so it really hit me off guard. Thanks once again for your reply, though. It gave me some more hope.

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