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#2 - ninaf
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#458 to #2 - jizzexpert
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#90 to #2 - chroner
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feels
feels
#91 to #90 - chroner
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good, feels
good, feels
#133 - infinitereaper
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I usually try to comment something funny or rant, but I'll share a story today, feel free not to care or waste your time reading.
>Born from a recklessly young couple, father joined the military to support everyone
>Childhood was okay, we moved to Germany eventually
>Make great friends, fall in love with a wonderful girl
>Begin to notice my parents aren't entirely normal, small signs
>Girl doesn't respond to my advances, I'm rejected/ignored
>We move away, to a wonderful magical land called Louisiana
>Make great friends, for a time it's like wonderland.
>The girl of my dreams contacts me, we start talking, one day she tells me she loves me
>For a time thing are beyond perfect.
>Get beat up in school until my violence put an end to it.
>Around this time or another start having issues with my parents. (unrelated to fighting)
>Discover why my mother gives me so much verbal abuse, a tendency for violence and irrationality, she had an alcoholic father who beat her and her mother
>Discover why my father is so incredibly angry and dangerous all the time, he has some deep dark horrific traumatic event in his past
>I still have my love, that's all I ever needed and ever even wanted.
>Time goes on, one day my best friend tries to spill my insides with his knife, survived on instinct
>Things go sour with my love, she can't handle the distance, it tears us apart
>Trauma, verbal abuse, and occasional violence reach a peak with my parents.
>Ironically my girl is coming to Louisiana, but we are moving, there is no chance now
>End up California, the days are empty, darkness has me cornered, start drinking
>Watch helplessly as my love falls in love with someone else, gets used, and utterly destroyed and thrown away, cry my heart out, and want to die tired of the ********
>Move to South Korea, emptiness, pain, terrible people, teachers that are jokes
>The years and years of wear and tear have me absolutely broken.
#136 to #133 - anon
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no one cares
#142 to #136 - pongprofessor
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#145 to #142 - anon
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umad?
#347 to #145 - anon
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uStupid?
#141 to #136 - saxophan
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Speak for yourself, cocksniffer.
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#603 to #391 - infinitereaper
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I understand that. It's why I care so much. I feel like I can hear the cries of those asking for help; I want to be the one that finally answers those calls. I had to help myself, but that's not always easy, especially for those who suffer even worst.
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#623 to #611 - infinitereaper
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Good luck with your illnesses, I actually have several health problems myself. The docs don't really know whats wrong with me so I can't really say. Just try to eat healthy and such. I will do more.
#197 to #133 - knarta
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Not as bad as you, but got almost the same ****. I was living in France loving this girl, my parents and I moved to Germany, she tells me she loves me, then we move back to France where she finds someone else and ignores me. I then move to Switzerland where she breaks up with this douche and admits she was being a bitch to me but says a distant relationship wouldn't work. A year after my mother reveals her alcoholic side and there isn't a day going on without a huge fight betweem her, drunk, and my father. I'm still waiting two years to be able to move away from home and live my life.
But seriously, you story gave me feels and reminded me of mine.
#134 to #133 - infinitereaper
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>Contemplate suicide, almost attempt it several times.
>Move back to California
>Start to… smile on the inside more. The years and years of pent up insanity take over. I can’t help but laugh, and laugh and laugh! It’s all so ******* funny! Terrible things that always happen; nearly loose myself.
>End up in the hospital because severe alcohol intoxication.
>Even more family problems.
>Secretly overdose on DXM, just wanted to see some pretty lights, but I took too much. Stupid.
>Begin to rethink my life. I don’t want to live this way… I don’t want to die this way.
>Eventually I begin to find myself. I choose to fight. I choose to follow all those dreams I had. I can’t change the past, but I definitely change the future. And even darkness comes in the future, I can take it! I’ve stood in darkness for so long, I’m used to it; I can endure it.
>Graduate High school, now trying to find work, school part time, and move towards my dreams of writing, art, and business. Trying to fulfill my grand dream of making the world a better place and helping people; especially those who are powerless.
>It still hurts so much, but I try to have some sort of an optimistic outlook, I’m trying to work hard and move forward.
>And well, here I am now I guess.
I know FJ is not the place for this sort of thing. I might just sound pathetic, I’m sorry. This comic unexpectedly really did bring back a lot of stuff for me. I just wanted to let everyone know that it’s best not to give up. Hopefully, everything will be alright in the end.
#166 to #134 - infinitereaper
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I want to take this moment to thank everyone for their kind words and support. Such a thing is a pretty foreign concept to me. Your kindness means the world to me. I promise not to give up and work hard!
#200 to #166 - anon
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I've finally for the first time experienced real pain in my life... I thought life was a dance on rainbows, i was wrong. But as rocky said, it is not about how many times life strikes you down, it is about how many times you can get up! And you sir, has gotten back up, with your back straight and everything! You sir, gives me hope back that i to can endure the pain that i'm feeling! Thank you
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#146 to #134 - killertpu
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Everybody has got a dark story man glad you could share it with random people on the internet. You sir are Alpha as ****
#591 to #146 - accdodson
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(10/01/2012) [-]
Dark story venting thread?

>10
>on vacation in ****** hotel, my family used to be poor
>parents fighting, gets worse
>brother is 7 and pretty small
>mom gets really pissed
>starts crying because of something my dad said
>my brother is afraid and crying, my mom wants him to take a bath for some reason
>he is scared and doesn't move
>she throws him into the tub, literally chucks him.
>he hits his head hard and starts crying more
>wtfman.jpg
>have no idea what to do
>learn that my mom has deep seeded anger issues/is crazy, several more events like these occur
>i learn why my mom always has the agenda of "violence is never the answer", its because deep inside she is violent and wants to be rid of this aspect of herself

I guess mine isn't that bad, everyone knows someone who's ****** up. anyone wanna contriboot
#139 to #134 - saxophan
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That's right, you ******, never give up. You're all the stronger for all your ****, so take it and go somewhere with it. Nothing to lose, everything to gain.
#169 to #139 - infinitereaper
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I promise not to give up, thanks for your words and time.
#388 to #134 - exrflarion
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your father face when
#582 to #388 - infinitereaper
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That gave me a good laugh actually. My sense of humor is part of the reason I've survived.   
I'd like to share something nice in return. Someone did a Dead Island Symphonic Cover, it was  jscottrakozy it's a uplifiting happy verson, and it's quite beautiful, found it yesterday:   
www.youtube.com/watch?v=CrnbQZ35XHI
That gave me a good laugh actually. My sense of humor is part of the reason I've survived.
I'd like to share something nice in return. Someone did a Dead Island Symphonic Cover, it was jscottrakozy it's a uplifiting happy verson, and it's quite beautiful, found it yesterday:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=CrnbQZ35XHI
#595 to #582 - exrflarion
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Holy ****! That's ******* pro mixing, **** is ******* awesome!

Dude, many thanks for showing me this!
#389 to #388 - exrflarion
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Should i delete this or...?
#343 to #134 - bannon
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Really liked your story dude and it's awesome that you've managed to climb over so many problems but as soon as I heard South Korea, I honestly thought this was going to end in some Gangnam Style kind of joke haha

But still congrats to you man!
#151 to #134 - graysonschultz
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(10/01/2012) [-]
thats pretty deep bro, i feel for ya, thankx for sharing
#170 to #151 - infinitereaper
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Thanks for caring man.
#617 to #134 - buckoman
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With this big of a buildup I had expected spaghetti or some cross between a Lochness monster and doing the dinosaur.

But I was wrong. You just restored a partial faith in humanity for me, that people can recover and change to a new route because of the past they were given.

I like you, man. Good luck with your life.
#312 to #134 - superchuckles
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Respect man, keep steady on your feet and thanks for sharing.
#237 to #134 - daentraya
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I have so much respect for you right now..
#185 to #134 - marceau
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Every time I look at a comment, every time I think of my life I realize there are people like you. Not a Man not a Woman but Human. You accept everything for what it is, you see that even darkness has a light, no matter how dim, do you see that light has a darkness yet? I hope not, once you see the shadow, you search and search and search. Like a frantic dog looking for their bone.

Though I never knew a pain as yours, I have my own, a bottled pain of which only two know. I know I should not say your names but I will: scixzor and drvvatson. The pain I have is not much but I have learned to accept, to love and to always do one thing. One horrid thing that acts as a blessed curse at times. Think. I began thinking when I was young and I have not stopped in all my few years. I have seen my mind descend into what I call darkness but compared to your it is pettiness. Though I cannot say that your trials will be easy as they have proven to be far from it as of yet. I must ask truly ask you, have your wounds become scars? Have they changed from a sore of which still causes pain into a blemish that brings upon you memory?

As a online series has said, "Memory is Key." It is, we are meant to remember, we are meant to learn and we are meant to live. May your life be grand and take this quote with you from a friend of mine, "Life is a bitch, Ride her like one."
#598 to #185 - infinitereaper
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I like to think I have a foot in both worlds. To understand one, you can't ignore the other. How could I claim that I care about people if I immediately forsook certain people? I'm not naive, I understand that some people are truly beyond saving, and that the harm they have done is unforgivable, those who oppress and control... the world is better off without them. I can only say this because I try to live in balance.
To answer your question, some of my wounds have become deep scars. They still hurt, and remind me, and some wounds just never closed, but I try to live in the moment. I hope your darkness fades or no longer hurts you. I think the key to life is this: If one state can exist, so can the other, if the world is a darkness with a small amount of life, what one could call a living hell, what would the opposite be? A world full of light with little darkness? It would be paradise, that's my grand ambition, to help the world move towards this state. But the metaphor does good for our lives, if we could simply allow more light into our hearts, we could make peace with the darkness.
#599 to #598 - infinitereaper
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life**** I meant light**
#148 to #134 - chucknorrisTHEGAME
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Geez, that's rough. Good for you for persevering, though. Keep going, keep holding on, it's got to get better for you. I hope your life takes a much needed turn for the better very soon.
#167 to #148 - infinitereaper
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Thanks man, I appreciate it.
#235 to #134 - pollux
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Dude, remember us when you're president.
#587 to #235 - infinitereaper
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I do plan to run for office one day. Though plans could change. I'm not sure how the U.S. will be or look by the time I'm even old enough for that, it all depends on what's best for humanity, or rather, what position allows me to do most good, but that is a long ways away, I have many things to accomplish before then.
#621 to #587 - pollux
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Respect.
#144 to #134 - anon
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I'm from louisiana, they got stationed in ft pok ? that's where i'm from, who knows, we coulda met bro small ass world. . I feel that feel that you feel bro
#549 to #134 - anonymouspls
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Lose*
#29 - classygentleman
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My gf of 4 years killed herself, I know the feel...
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#320 to #29 - lordmoldywart
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Why?
#605 to #320 - classygentleman
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She was already suicidal when I met her, and she said I was the only thing that stoped her.
She was also bipolar, and I guess I just was not there when I needed to be..
#612 to #605 - lordmoldywart
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I thought we had medication to help with bipolarism
#618 to #612 - classygentleman
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She was also supposed to take vitamins because she was anorexic, but she "forgets" to take her pills.
She was ****** up.
But she was my angel.
#520 to #29 - mrbuu
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My best friend killed himself yesterday..
In Left for dead 2. went up and smacked a witch in the face with a bat.
#39 to #29 - SACAPUNTAS
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Wh............
Why?
#100 to #29 - blbaker
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my mom killed her self when i was 10
#247 to #29 - elinventor
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#55 to #29 - WhattheNorris
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This gave me harder feels than the content. **** you!
This gave me harder feels than the content. **** you!
#163 to #29 - doesnotcompute
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My dog killed himself last week, I know how you feel. :(
#215 to #29 - onceknownsober
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(10/01/2012) [-]
I eat burgers with pickles..



And I don't even like them
#57 to #29 - baconofdoom
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My dad hung himself just less than a few months ago. It's okay, buddy.
#73 to #57 - Sambenmaggie
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I'm sorry to hear that mate.
#75 to #73 - baconofdoom
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Thanks. :)
#530 to #57 - wopwop
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I'm sorry to hear that, but what was he thinking when he left you and your mother behind?
#560 to #530 - baconofdoom
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I couldn't tell you. He left and didn't turn up for 3 days. So.
#553 to #530 - lordmoldywart
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That's what I was thinking, selfish bastard
#319 to #57 - lordmoldywart
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Why?
#484 to #319 - baconofdoom
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Quite frankly, it's none of your business.
#504 to #484 - lordmoldywart
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Why did you post that he killed himself then? If it's not our business? Sounds like attention seeking to me
#559 to #504 - baconofdoom
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Or, instead, my post could be reassuring the guy he's not alone in his situation, and I don't want to get into the details? He got into a bad spot, that's all.
#293 to #57 - anon
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my dog just killed himself by eating 2 chocolate bars.

i guess he seemed depressed about somethin
#602 to #293 - perfide
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Oh god, that took me off guard!!!

Thanks
#270 - SHAMU
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dat boner.
#401 to #270 - jimmynutz
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eye of the sniper
#283 to #270 - lysham
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why are u even looking at that particular place
#333 to #283 - SHAMU
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#528 - ponaniwhisperer
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#533 to #528 - svensavuste [OP]
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this **** is so true, my life is so depressing :/
#426 - marchinghurdler
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You have no idea how perfectly this fits me right now. This weekend I learned something that crumbled everything. I dated a girl for two year. Girl of my dreams, my first crush, first kiss, first love. But when we were headed off to college, we decided we were going to break up because long distance so rarely works. I still loved the girl, but to make her happy I agreed. So we broke up, but decided to try to keep contact and maintain a friendship. A few weeks after we broke up, she started dating another guy. I was there supporting her, and when he turned out to be a jerk to her, and she had to break up, she was devastated and I helped pick up the pieces. Still we weren't back together, I encouraged her to make friends and be social. But I still hadn't really stopped loving her. At the end of the first semester we were back home, and things were strained, but still similar to how they used to be. And I thought maybe we could get back together, we didn't. During the second semester, she found a group of friends, and I encouraged her to be social with them. However after a few weeks we began to talk less and less. I would text her, and it would take her hours to respond or she never did. We were drifting apart, and I knew it. I panicked, I still loved her, so I told her how I still felt. She was stagnant and uncompassionate in her response.

So it continued like that, we drifted apart and eventually stopped talking all together. This past summer I started dating a new girl and thought that I was getting back on track. But Saturday I learned that last semester she hooked up with a guy. In the two years we dated, we never had sex. Every time we got to that point, I'd ask if she was ready, and a no was her response, so I didn't push it. But I learned that last semester she hooked up with a guy that she wasn't and never dated. That crumbled all the confidence I had reformed after it all. I thought I was over her and I wasn't.
#433 to #426 - anon
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That is a similar situation, so you should kill yourself
#449 to #433 - riffz
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Go choke on a pube.
#442 to #433 - totalcookie
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Shut up anon.
#441 to #426 - anon
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*bro hug* people are cunts bro. Not everyone's like that though, keep yer chin up.
#633 to #441 - marchinghurdler
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Thanks anon. Even you can help today, and that surprisingly makes me smile
#472 to #426 - anon
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As much as it sucks to happen, sometimes the most unexpected things occur by those who we love[d]. Keep your head up man, and know that -you- tried your best, and gave it your all. Just give yourself some time to heal, pick up a hobby, play some video games, hang out with some friends, just don't get stuck in memories,cause that always ******* sucks. Keep on keeping on, man.[ Sorry for ****** anon advice, it sounded much better in my head -_- ]
#635 to #472 - marchinghurdler
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Dwelling in memories is exactly what I was doing. Just like the comic. But thanks, I'll make sure to keep my head up and work for better memories
#496 to #426 - Nightinear **User deleted account**
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Tough luck
**** like this happens to a lot of people
Suck it up
#430 to #426 - hes
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you sir make me feel
#464 to #426 - frylord
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i know this feel, however because of what happened (similar to your story) ive found an amazing girl, dont give up!
#634 to #464 - marchinghurdler
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Thanks. I've got one too, and in light of the situation, I want her closer than ever. I'm not giving up, I just need to work on moving on.
#645 to #634 - frylord
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Some people say its wrong, but sometimes moving on quickly helps you see what you couldn't see (of course there is a catch 22 of it being a rebound) good luck man!
#479 to #426 - hellomyfriend
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its just awesome how people in the internet can feel for another, normally everyone is so rude, but when someone gives you a feel, we feel with you, keep your head up bro





here have this carlton
#636 to #479 - marchinghurdler
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The Carlton made me chuckle. And I'm happy to report Funnyjunk knows how to handle a feel from a fellow bro. They made me get my butt out and work on getting over my problems instead of just dwelling on them.
#537 to #426 - alexianary
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#434 to #426 - lezbeyan
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Sir, have this crying black child. He is my feel
Sir, have this crying black child. He is my feel
#630 to #434 - marchinghurdler
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And that feel made me feel a feely feel
#429 to #426 - calderman
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it's going to be okay.. we're here for you man...
#628 to #429 - marchinghurdler
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Thanks. It's nice to know I've got you assholes when the world's got me down
#432 to #426 - seanmclean
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Man if you need any support you always have us. I have a long distance thing with someone, we don't go out, we can still see other people but we have promised in 2 years we will ditch anyone we have to be with eachother. I'm praying it works out. I hope I never feel this feel:/
#629 to #432 - marchinghurdler
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I wish you the best of luck. If she's the right girl, you know she's worth the wait
#643 to #629 - seanmclean
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Much love mate
#436 to #426 - dharkmoswen
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I'm so sorry man, but you know I've been there too. As have a lot of us... Good luck and don't lose hope!
I'm so sorry man, but you know I've been there too. As have a lot of us... Good luck and don't lose hope!
#631 to #436 - marchinghurdler
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Hope hasn't been lost thankfully, but I've still got to work on picking myself up again. And all of you have helped.
#638 to #631 - dharkmoswen
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Glad to have helped man!
#94 - spycheckingpyro
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I got married when I was twenty. She was the girl of my dreams at that time. About a year into my marriage, I found out she wanted to leave since before the engagement.   
Whenever I hang out with any of my friends who are older than me; I usually have to explain to them the full story.    
   
>mfw the conversations always end in "yeah... I guess I was just a stupid kid..."
I got married when I was twenty. She was the girl of my dreams at that time. About a year into my marriage, I found out she wanted to leave since before the engagement.
Whenever I hang out with any of my friends who are older than me; I usually have to explain to them the full story.

>mfw the conversations always end in "yeah... I guess I was just a stupid kid..."
#98 to #94 - DeadlyHorizons
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mfw reading your comment.
mfw reading your comment.
#195 - memvar
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i have no soul!
#206 to #195 - thechosentroll
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Feels great being immune to feels, doesn't it?
#208 to #206 - memvar
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being immune to the feels, feels amazing!
being immune to the feels, feels amazing!
#219 to #208 - ndiliciousa
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related
related
#395 to #208 - exrflarion
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**** your **** people, i love feels! Mm-hmm i do love some teary feels!
#314 to #206 - eonphoenix
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feel immunity ftw
#586 - kerplunking
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(10/01/2012) [-]
>Girl breaks up with you
>Kill yourself

BRILLIANT LOGIC THERE
#593 to #586 - derpypotato
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i know right?
#86 - thunderpony
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(10/01/2012) [-]
now im going to bed sad... :(