So I ]ust got out of Prison
and luck it it I' forgotten how to work a mouse and hit the submit button too
shit has changed. so many boards now Idea' t know what the luck is going on.
where do I start, Two years inside and it s we the whole world has changed. Just
wanted a board where s stayed the saute.
who the Fuckis m n Bieberr Iget out and first t W Tsee is that home has
a tattoo but Idon' t even know who the ante home is. My cable got cancelled while
I was away so Icara' t even out Thank fuck for lee internal, I swear to
God it' s ester now too. seriously, it s we I' traveled through time. Fucking wads
look we shit out the future. reel we I' mend a decade oi shitty meme.
bid you make a thread about the before you went I P remember it.
update about why you wen how it was, etc?
sure did. would have been middle of mus what I was still pretty gully ho about it
before Estupidas tried to bail and ended up spending a month side before
wide from my will until Tuesday the week. reel we I' lost more than two
years. we I' lost a decade or so.
the was my artist time raide.
Was done for armed robbery and got months on a plea bargain. Got lucked on
three parole hearings and ended up doing another four mulls. Volt hear oi these
guys who get out early because they were 'model prisoners' Idea' t know how
they do it.
so while Iwas inside I made a let oi the worst things about preen to share with
the boards I used to frequent. seemed we any dicussion oi preen would be all we
lolrape' and no actual info tor alums that might Timi themselves in my -
situation. so here it is. the top In worst ms about preen that you never knew
In. The Smell
preen walk we shit. SUEDE worse than shit. Von know the smell you magine
jenkem to smell we? meg e net, only it' s be W rubbed on the arm pits of a
sweaty Mexican and then he armpit pubes are being set Ftrw too. It' s that bad. no
one the Buckie john. Ever. Volt know how clean prison looks in all the
pictures.» It e, because we spend all fucking day cleaning it. And then convicts just
bas' shit lemma for a _ I switched buses on the way back and sat
next to the guy wea cologne. I' m not gay (well as not gay as you can be alter
being inside) but I got a boner as soon as Osment it. Fucking amazing.
9. Wll' tle people
Alter the first year, Iwas ashamed to be white. m the world, white people are
capable of all kinds of great things, and all s oi bad things. Bill raide we' re just
universally cunts. Aryan brotherhood weren' t a big presence in my block, but they
were bad enough to make you kind of wen your mother had been raped by a
nigger. And that' s before you meet your boss' s. correctional services
come in all devours, but white screws were the worst. neck screws, you could tell
were just poor triggers [trying to get by in a - job. only white guys ever
seemed to enjoy their s t. Rape, depite the contours, is not a big deal inside. It
doesn' t happen that men. Bill everytime it happened on my block it was a white
guy. And every time anyone got murdered, it was a white guy. There were "
murders while Iwas side 12 of them my block. All because white cunts couldn' t
keep t dicks the pants, or eke ‘cut someones eyes' which was sew for
stealing someone s shit. Being beck in prison would have been awesome.
it Getting fat
There is no gym ecu merit preen. That whole, ‘bunch of guys sin
pump W roaf image you have? Forget .wrym ecu pliant is a weapon, and weapons
are forbidden. our block had one treadmill that would Mammy work. Von
couple that with high fat food, all day, everyday, you start to go - realty
quickly. one of the t ms that occupies a lot convict‘: days is Fatt W someway to
try and do some physical activity. Alter about six months feel my male
mass g rig, so me and my cellulite would deadfall each other for a iew hours.
Gayest (II W you' ever seen, but it in the time.
I was fucking terrified oi solitary when I Fest wen we which
contributed to me we W meet. tin I realised that sectary "sift something you
can hold on wits! not be W a dick. It' s a manly oi are and you will at ,
be put in contary for no fucking reason at " usually, because there is a remand
inmate that needs to be cycled into gen pop before trial and they need to tree up
your cell - so you go into contary because there aren' t any other beds. I did two
months oi that all up. no books, no bankers, no right, 23 hour backdown. Most they
can do is I week at a stretch - worst part was knowing you were going to go back
alter a week lithe block was too over crowded. nu spent your whole time in gen
pop just as luck because you could get dragged oil the chain at any
moment and seat back.
ti. The Drugs
Alter a wit In drugs become a viable option side. There is a lot on otter. It you can
get it out in the world, you can get it lis' lde tor a better price strangely enough
considerin the difficulty of getting it n. That is " is what your man says it is. I
decided to get onto horse alter a few months, mostly as something to do. I' d '
heroin outside but hadn' t wed it s m getting on the nod seemed we a waste oi
time. Bill inside s great - a shot solitary can make a week pass in no time at
all. Problem is the sh it will be cut with. Flour, baking soda, jello crystal - all shit
that should not be in a vein. Alter a while you just end up doing things that
outside you never would have dreamed oi. Iwas paranoid about getting the AIDS,
so I kept the one needle the whole time I was inside. went rusty and Bended up
spending a month in sick bay with . when Icouldn' t score for junk, labored
tor codeine tablets. Grew my thumb re low and wrecked it on the concrete so it
was sharp enough to cut open my thigh, and would stick the crushed up tablet
nah, shit got that bad.
I joked to my cell mate on the first day that at least the in couldn' t luck MS inside.
He' d been done for assaulting a cop when he house got taken by the bank. but
wit it mule we Nigger‘ became the standard reply to any query as to how beck
market prices were suddenly going through the not The price oi a deck oi smokes
tripled. There was an actual economic reason about the. I went away in Michigan
where a lot of people lost their houses, mostly poor people already. when they had
to move away from the prison, it meant they couldn' t bring their loved ones as
much contraband group. which meant the price of what there was sky rocketed.
And the worse things got the more the people who worked the store would
wow and take home with than which meant stocks ran low which lucked us even
Bet you didn' t read about that one in the wall street Journal.
q. Losing everyone you ever med
no one ever talks about the because preen makes you a hard ass. or at least you
teach yourself to (ll k it does. The Fest ones to go are your Friends. They tell you
they' ll write and send you stint - take every mend you' ever had, now pick one.
There will be one that actually does it. Bill they' ll stop alter a iew months. then
your girlfriend - they might say they' ll wait but you know they won' t. Icahn m In
on my second week and told her it was over. Apart from the total shock of going
away. I couldn' t stand spun every night wondering it she was getting cranked
by some other dude. Was one as thing to worry about My kid, who was about to
turn I when Iwent away, will never have any idea who the luck I am. Her mom
took her away the second Iwent lis' tde. never called. Doll‘! even know where to
begin looking. My Mom and Dad were the worst. They proceed me when Iwent
inside that they' d stick by me it I stuck by than that all they wanted was the
occassional phone can to let them know I was okay, and they' d make sure they
vetted reguarly. Iwas so lucked up hall the time Iforgot when veiling day even
was. I realised, and tried to tell the boss that I didn' t want to see them that I was
too messed up. so the cunts dragged me by the through the block to the
vi rig room and propped me up on a cm from of them and bullied. They
never came back. and they haven' t seen me since Igot out.
An old timer told me that when he first went inside in the Bos. preen was all about
chimes. There were whereat gangs, people stuck together because of ethnicity,
even reag' lerl. Back then there were Ereh Catholic moves, tation of Isam cloves -
even white Dolby guys started cliques to avoid getting stepped on.
one thing the boss' do very well is create an atmosphere of consent paranoi. i
you get shaken down and you get group found on we they' ll stick
you in contary and Forager your best trend for setting you up. If you come wide
with a predigesting garra att% timr. we a lot of beck guys do, they start by
stepping on your items straight away and bemis you for it until you' re a Wren.
Forget about the yard be W full oi big groups oi guys chitin together. no one
hangs with anymore than three people for a stretch. B you' re seen with a big
group. you' ll be targeted by the screws. Mostly, people do the me alone. Pacing
the yard, or even just ignoring t cell mates completely.
That gets to you more than anything. The constant suspicion, and know you' re
I saw 11 deaths inside. Three oi them were at the hands oi screws. one of those
was a gunshot to the head while a guy was trying to escape. The other two were
beatings, and Ididn' t know they' d died until later. It' s not right to calla preen
a 'stabbing' because that‘: not how you die. Inside, we called it digging a
hole‘ or 'dug W a wer we ‘he got a well dug kim' or ‘pulled out a hole The
reason for this is the make shill weapons used side are not easy to " with. nu
basically make a hole as fast as you can. by Stabbing as last as you cart, and then
you try and get a gr wide it and just start . I saw the right up close one
time. I led the dist he importune of hat: W my cell behind a pier, we a bulkhead
kind of thing in the middle oi the block. so it you wanted to shank someone. it was a
great [hoe to hide. on the mp side it meant the boss' gave it a lot of extra
attention. which was bad tor rub W one out or taking a If _ Two guys were
loitering around the pier one day, wai W tor the fresh kid to wander past. Prison
gos p said he' s been worked over on he Fest night by someone who wanted
tor a wife but the kid bought back and nearly bit some fucker' s nuts off. so he
fiends wait with a ; and a ' down toothbrush. They' cracked down on
pastic toothbrushes, but there used to be enough of them that a lot of guys have
them stashed away nu can we down the ends on the concrete to a t. one
guy wraped a around the kid' s neck and tilted him the ground from
behind, and the other starts stabbing he gut. Alter a iew stabs, he starts try W
to get he terriers wide and he just we all the meat out Ithought he was g W
to pull out his intestines we you' d see a horror movie. but instead, he just pm
out list alter let of the yellow jelly shit and then big mule of meat we raw rice.
screws arrived and tamed everyone. Even the kid. He was on he side, right it
trout of my cell and every jolt from the laser made the big hole in he stone's
nu don' t see someth we that and not have it fuck you up worse than you
already were for iterated.
L Getting out
on my est day Astartes writing the let in my head, and thought it would be iunno
to post it on the Charis. but really, now I' written it it' s not iunno. tor toe, I was
orig telly going to talk about preen rape. Bill really: It' s a stun part oi doing time.
On any given block, you might only have a dozen or so convicts who are well, to
rape someone. And they go alter the saute kind oi convicts every time too.
Because it you try to rape the wrod guy" you might end up with your guts pulled
That' s not to say consensual gay sex doesn' t happen. I had it, and ' I' m
not going to go and luck a man on the outside but a combination olders, mince
and boredom do strange things.
so stead of rape the thing that tops my let was getting out. Alter months, I
felt we I led the whole preen kick down. Hell we I beloved. new guys looked up
to me we someone who' d seen shit and made it through. As Isoiled back on my
pretty huge habit. I started to get the kind of zen calm about incarceration, and I
wed to think I helped a few guys through their first weeks.
The est months before I tea was the lippiest of my entire are Astartes making
lets, we the one. Lists of what Iwas going to do. Lists of [lungs Iwas going to eat.
Lists oi pews I was going to go. I almost felt we I' d had a near death experience
and now I led to we a better tile. then I tell.
Two years is a low time. The world literacy chaces without you. I got oft the bus
and went to my favourite bar. It was empty. Iwent to a cate my friends used to
touch dicks at. none of them were there. Iwent to my house, pulled the boards on
and went wide. Everything was just as I' d ten it with two years worth oldest.
Most depress thing you' ever seen. I by down on my bed and paranoi
started setting tn. I realised Iwas pretty much saluting and was paranoid about
being picked up by the cops and breaching my parole, so went to my parents
house. they let me in, but told me Icouldn' t stay until they were sure I was oil the
drugs into a motel and sat on the edge of the bed, watching MTV and
ordering Pizza. I must have ordered we live pizzas from live whereat peas,
stayed up " dawn. Thing about prison. is that sleep becomes we a chore you do
each day. vou' re never really t ed, so you never really want to sleep, it just
breaks up the time. Hell we Ididn' t want to sleep ever again. next mm
decided to go for a drive, and thought I' d rent a car - but my driver' s licence had
expired. I went to get a new one but mun I' d been inside they needed me to
get a letter from my parole . so I just wandered around tor a day. tell we
everyone was suiting at me.
nu just we completely lost.