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#2707 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Hey there....
#2708 to #2707 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
how are ya
#2739 to #2708 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
You live in Texas! Why am I not surprised?
#2740 to #2739 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
iv told you that already
#2741 to #2740 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Sorry, I forgot...
#2742 to #2741 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
well ill be seeing you
iv got somthing to do
#2743 to #2742 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Not sooner before I will be seeing you! :3 Yea and... please don´t try to look for my facebook. You´d find me being drunk with other kids. I´d damned...
#2709 to #2708 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Better now, I guess...

How about you?
#2710 to #2709 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
im good
how was your day
#2711 to #2710 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
It was good I guess... Just that boys in my class were creepin´ up at me... again.

#2712 to #2711 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
#2713 to #2712 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
You don´t wanna know... They were literally mimicing gang-bang with their jeans belts...
#2714 to #2713 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
messed up
#2715 to #2714 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
You wanna know what else is messed up? The another guy also approached me another time and started massaging my neck and shoulders(which I had btw really stiff today)... I almost sent him away that second he began... Still, I called him off too soon and lied to him that its already good.

Maybe it was because the ´´thing´´ that happened back that day or because he wasn´t so good in that, but still... It felt like lying to my parents to get alcohol...
#2716 to #2715 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
I think he was hitting on you
#2717 to #2716 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Maybe? Like few others. Or maybe they are just crazy as that. You may never know. Problem might be that I don´t wanna risk finding out...
#2718 to #2717 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Thats my cause you see... My problem....
#2719 to #2718 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
Dont be afraid
maybe it will be nice
#2720 to #2719 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Or maybe I get my cover blown up and they will tease me like 10 times more. I take serious this sort of thing. It would hurt me if they would make jokes of it. And I couldn´t almost to nothing against that... My back denies me any exceptional fighting performance.
#2722 to #2720 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
cover for what?look this is just me talking
but i have never been in a relationship
never had a girlfriend
never been kissed
and no friends
if someone was hitting on me
i would jump with joy
#2723 to #2722 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Same here buddy. I was also told about few girls who liked me before too. I didn´t do a thing. I generally thing that girls are harder to understand and harder to have fun with. What´s the girlfriend for when I cant have good time with here?

...I almost don´t know that guy today at all.

I would like much more to be with you than anybody else.
#2724 to #2723 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
thats so sweet :,)
#2725 to #2724 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
You should know something. You are on of many. Though its just you at a time... Thats how I sexualy behave.

I don´t ... Get it? No?
#2727 to #2725 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Not so sweet now huh? I carry the regret for every one of them. That I didn´t do anything...
And it wasn´t just internet friend thing. IRL people too...

And now I just feel like I need to cut off every last bond I got. Learn to stand for myself and how to stand for my feelings....
#2736 to #2727 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
no i mean like skype or fj
those are what im on mostly
#2738 to #2736 - onefuckingskurut
(09/09/2013) [-]
So if thats everything I will be going, ok?
#2737 to #2736 - onefuckingskurut
(09/09/2013) [-]
You haven´t been on FJ past 2 days. At least when I was there I guess...

Please don´t try to talk me out of it...
Just promise to keep it together. You know, you are not so bad at it just yet. I got 23 years old sister and she still has no job. But she has damn bad personality. Whole damn person is bad.
You are different. If you look in the mirror and can´t see deeper than your face than how can you like yourself? And if you don´t like yourself how can you love another person?
You can do it. I just know it. You need a job. Than ******* get one. You can get lots of money even without being highschool graduate. Just try to thing outside of the box. Many people in my country got rich like that.
And if you won´t succed anyway don´t give in just yet... Because if I will make it trough, I will ******* fly to you and make things right! > Cause I said so!

I liked this Dashie picture so most. Mind keeping it? :3
#2733 to #2727 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
well im always online
you can reach me anytime
#2735 to #2733 - onefuckingskurut
(09/09/2013) [-]
You mean steam or something?
#2731 to #2727 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
thank you
#2734 to #2731 - onefuckingskurut
(09/09/2013) [-]
You have been some great support as well as my other internet friends. I owe you all.

And one day if I ever suceed I promise to pay back, somehow... I promise not to get hooked up into marriege or another crazy thing ones like me do...

And if I won´t suceed, I will probably just have fun making people suffer or something.
Lurking around the streets somewhere.
#2729 to #2727 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
you cant just cut people off
thats how you end up living the rest of your life alone
look i get alot of crushes too
and i hate it because i cant do anything about it
im to disgusting and shy to make a move on anyone
and the only friends i have are online
and you are one of the three i have
so im sorry that you get picked on but at least some people like you and you have chance to be with someone
#2732 to #2729 - onefuckingskurut
(09/09/2013) [-]
I can´t bear the pain in days like that anymore. I need to find a way to stand up for my feelings and cultivate them without help of internet friends. Friends aren´t always online when I am. Especially, the one is lives in another time zone...
#2730 to #2729 - onefuckingskurut
(09/09/2013) [-]
You know... I am pretty much decided by now. Those 2 days without you I felt very much turned down when you wasn´t around...
#2726 to #2725 - thundercloud (09/09/2013) [-]
i dont get it
#2728 to #2726 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Everytime I am having some good time with someone and feel any sort of affection to them and built myself a crush to them. I am intesively sensing this for almost 2 years now. Can you imagine how many crush did I get? I lost the count...
#2721 to #2720 - onefuckingskurut (09/09/2013) [-]
Could you even imagine that? 28 peple being aware that I am omni-sexual? All of them would ask me what does it mean and how does it feels. At the same time! Again and again! They be like animals sometimes....
#2696 - onefuckingskurut (09/07/2013) [-]
Brand new news: Dad at home spoiling families food!
#2697 to #2696 - thundercloud (09/07/2013) [-]
not the food!
#2698 to #2697 - onefuckingskurut (09/07/2013) [-]
He literally can´t find anything to get argue on so he does that. I think he is turning insane...
#2699 to #2698 - thundercloud (09/07/2013) [-]
well maybe
im pretty sure my dad is insane
#2700 to #2699 - onefuckingskurut (09/07/2013) [-]
Please do go on
#2701 to #2700 - thundercloud (09/07/2013) [-]
he is always finding something to be mad about
even if its something small like not hearing him when he says something
he just snaps
#2702 to #2701 - onefuckingskurut (09/07/2013) [-]
Yeah... I don´t even want to take any actions. I don´t want it to get worse. He is the only one in family with income... Also my 23 years old sister failed at driving school yesterday.
Many people got disappointed in her now.

Feels like being only sane in family :/
#2704 to #2702 - thundercloud (09/07/2013) [-]
that sucks
#2705 to #2704 - onefuckingskurut (09/07/2013) [-]
Agh... Gotta go and straighten up. See you later maybe.
#2706 to #2705 - thundercloud (09/07/2013) [-]
see you later
#2703 to #2702 - onefuckingskurut (09/07/2013) [-]
I mean, it hit my sister hard...
#2671 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
One of that days when I don´t like looking and porn and steam is not responding...
One of that days when I don´t like looking and porn and steam is not responding...
#2673 to #2671 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
thats to bad
#2674 to #2673 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
Yea and I am also excluding those hormone odors. Its arousing but I am still not quite okay with that idea...
#2676 to #2674 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
so how was your day
#2678 to #2676 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
Hehe yea  It went ok I guess. My parent´s got bill for my phone today. A whole bunch of money because I was on the phone often when I was at that health resort...   
Now he is like ranting but he keeps some money hidden anyway. He ussualy buys some hunting stuff for himself for that money...   
I did nothin´ wrong and yet he yelled at me. Fella couldn´t find anything wrong wth me so I guess that made him bit happier now...   
Also that friend I spoke of yesterday was behaving very nicely today. I couldn´t just un-notice it. I am mule but I think that I already forgave him...
Hehe yea It went ok I guess. My parent´s got bill for my phone today. A whole bunch of money because I was on the phone often when I was at that health resort...
Now he is like ranting but he keeps some money hidden anyway. He ussualy buys some hunting stuff for himself for that money...
I did nothin´ wrong and yet he yelled at me. Fella couldn´t find anything wrong wth me so I guess that made him bit happier now...

Also that friend I spoke of yesterday was behaving very nicely today. I couldn´t just un-notice it. I am mule but I think that I already forgave him...
#2679 to #2678 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
well thats nice
maybe your luck is turning around
#2684 to #2679 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
And how are you holding up so far?
#2685 to #2684 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
im good i just got done eating for the first time in a few days
#2687 to #2685 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
You haven´t been eating a days? Why in the world?
#2689 to #2687 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
we dont always have money for food
i had to break down and eat a potato last night
a potato!
#2690 to #2689 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
****************** hugs you firmly** Sorry to hear that...

I have yet done something like that before too. Just don´t remember what food was that.
#2691 to #2690 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
but its all ok
we have food now and im now full
#2693 to #2691 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
I really gotta go now... School tomorrow. Be well...
#2695 to #2693 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
#2692 to #2691 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
Still doesn´t feel that much satisfying huh?
#2694 to #2692 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
no it doesn't
#2682 to #2679 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
#2675 to #2674 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
Now I wait and see what will come out of this...
#2677 to #2675 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
you are odd
i like it
#2680 to #2677 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
Yea and that I am just half odd as I used to be before. I am keeping it down cause I don´t wanna get hurt ya know? Life is pressing on me. Some mean motherhover notices someone go happy over-drive and gets urge to ruin it for him...
Yea and that I am just half odd as I used to be before. I am keeping it down cause I don´t wanna get hurt ya know? Life is pressing on me. Some mean motherhover notices someone go happy over-drive and gets urge to ruin it for him...
#2681 to #2680 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
well i like odd people
and you are very odd
#2683 to #2681 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
*skurut will remember that*
#2686 to #2683 - thundercloud (09/05/2013) [-]
pleas do remember that
#2688 to #2686 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
Its funny that I remember much more about my friends than about my person...
#2672 to #2671 - onefuckingskurut (09/05/2013) [-]
#2634 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
Hey there... Am I not disturbing?
#2635 to #2634 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
not at all
whats up?
#2636 to #2635 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
I´ve had some bad time past 2 days. Care to listen me out? I don´t know what to do...
#2637 to #2636 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
go ahead,im all ears
#2638 to #2637 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
So, my friends find it very hilarious that I got drunk last year on school trip. I was the only one who threw up and some nasty things happened... The more I drink the the more I hate it...

About month later there will be another school trip to Bucharest. I am going there, I wanna see piece of a outer world. Yet my classmates are allready bruised up on how I am gonna drink with them... I am soo not going to! Before it was because I was very bored but this time I will come prepared for sure.

And then there is this other thing... I was playing a card game with my ¨friend¨ and classmate. I suck at it compared to them. When that classmate got teemed up with me, he was all like ´´oh **** that, you are useless!´´ We lost and on the second later my ¨friend¨ said this:¨What do you expect? He doesn´t know whats live like.¨

That got me upset now... Reminder how everyone treats me. Just seeking to use my person for their business. I am merely tolerated here. I never had place here and never get You need to login to view this link matter what I do for them, none of them will hesitate to betray for any petty business...

Originaly my friend was the one who came up with the idea creating a porn site and putting up adds here and getting paid for it. I did most work on it. My friend cant even manage anything cause he can´t english. I just changed a passoword on the site so he can´t acces it.

I am dealing mostly with that type of people who in their head only how to get moneyz and how to slack away from school. These people are the reason why even some African countries can compare to us...

Later this day the same friend I told you about called me and asked if I go on the bike with him. I have not complete equipment and I was upset on him but still, I just thought that it would be awkward to decline and agreed on it. He played all nice on me,lended me one piece of equipment and also helped me refill my gums on bike.
Still though, he worked me horribly...

#2640 to #2638 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
sound like you had a hard time

dont listen to them
no matter what people say or do you cant let it get you down
if you do then they win
it hurts knowing what people think of you
i know what its like because i get it all the time
just ignore them and think about the people who actually care about you
and stop hanging out with dicks
#2642 to #2640 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
You make a fair point. There is also that problem that I am not coming after them but they are coming after me...
#2644 to #2642 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
then get help
tell someone you'er being bullied
#2646 to #2644 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
Well its not really bullying... Now at least I know where do I start,thanks.
#2648 to #2646 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
you'er welcome
and know that im always here if you need to talk
#2650 to #2648 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
Yea I reckon I said the same few days ago...
#2652 to #2650 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
i know
#2657 to #2655 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
****************** nuzzles on ya**
#2659 to #2658 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
This one is mine.
#2664 to #2659 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
so you drew this?
#2665 to #2664 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
Noope. Of course not!
#2669 to #2665 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
nothing i just thought you drew it
#2670 to #2669 - onefuckingskurut
(09/04/2013) [-]
Okay. I gotta go already... You haven´t even told me how was your day yet. See you later...
#2667 to #2665 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
#2668 to #2667 - onefuckingskurut
(09/04/2013) [-]
What was that <oh> supposed to mean?
#2660 to #2659 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
the grey one is mine
#2661 to #2660 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
Sexy :3 You areally drew that one?
#2662 to #2661 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
aa friend online did it
the white one is his
#2663 to #2662 - onefuckingskurut
(09/04/2013) [-]
Veery nice!
#2639 to #2638 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
I still have a problem... Sane man would never go with that dude on bike after what he said. I do everything for everything without a complain and then start regreting it when it hurts..
#2641 to #2639 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
know your limits
#2643 to #2641 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
What do you mean?
#2645 to #2643 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
i mean if you reach the point were you'er struggling to catch your breath
you should stop
#2647 to #2645 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
Its much more different... It hurts that instant as soon as I try to do something stupid...
#2649 to #2647 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
if you know its stupid dont do it
#2651 to #2649 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
Its hard to state if it is bad for my health or not. And when it starts hurting I find myself in the middle of action and quiting could be kinda awkward...
#2653 to #2651 - thundercloud (09/04/2013) [-]
dont push yourself to hard
#2656 to #2653 - onefuckingskurut (09/04/2013) [-]
yeah... Its not like I want to but I find myself in others influence a lot...

Its not nice, thinking that 2 of my 3 only friends are dicks.
#2625 - onefuckingskurut (08/19/2013) [-]
Hey buddy. God damnit its been a time! How are you?
#2626 to #2625 - thundercloud (08/19/2013) [-]
iv been very good
how are you?
#2629 to #2626 - onefuckingskurut (08/19/2013) [-]
Basically... I was at health resort... My back has gone better...made a friend and later he left than I got into closet from outer world so I won´t get hurt from others... last brick to my emotional wall. Bam, I have gone very selfish and know no compassion...
#2630 to #2629 - thundercloud (08/19/2013) [-]
you shouldn't hide from your problems
iv been doing that for years and it was a huge mistake
now i have no friends and nobody likes me
#2631 to #2630 - onefuckingskurut (08/19/2013) [-]
Yea seems just like the road I am walking now... Buw what am I hiding? I don´t know...

I might be trying to hide that even though I am very good in school I am mostly behaving dumb because playing a PC alot...

I might be hiding that I am soo very untalented at drawing but still stubbornly trying. If trying means doing it for 10 minutes and than having to take 30 minutes break of gaming. I have gone bit better though...

I don´t really know...
#2627 to #2626 - onefuckingskurut (08/19/2013) [-]
Ah nothin´´... Just wrote ******** of text and I accidentaly cliked on ´´return to profile´´ button...
Ah nothin´´... Just wrote ******** of text and I accidentaly cliked on ´´return to profile´´ button...
#2628 to #2627 - thundercloud (08/19/2013) [-]
aww to bad
#2620 - onefuckingskurut (06/26/2013) [-]
Heloo? Anybody here?
#2621 to #2620 - thundercloud (06/26/2013) [-]
im here
#2622 to #2621 - onefuckingskurut (06/26/2013) [-]
I was at the school trip this weekend. I am so tired. I´ve took like dozens of naps when on the trip and even today at home. My sleep schedule got huge beating.

Yesterday we were camping in a little cottages. No TV, outside you freeze your ass off and toilets are like 100 meters away from cottage district...
If nothing else I got terribly drunk yesterday. I´ve had like 10 shots of vodka without a soda brake. I never use brakes. For the first time I had to throw up.
My stomach feels bad even now.
I really regret that drinking before. In the end I spend up all the money mostly on alcohol and little on supplies and snacks. Because of that I had not enough money to buy souvenirs. I am pretty sure few people would envy them...
#2623 to #2622 - thundercloud (06/26/2013) [-]
im sorry
i wish i could cheer you up some how
#2624 to #2623 - onefuckingskurut (06/26/2013) [-]
Thats okay, really. I am sure I will be fine. I just thought that I will greet my friends here and all... Not many of them are online right now anyway.

And how went the brony convention? You have already been here?
#2595 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
Heeey buddy! Wassup?
#2596 to #2595 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
hey hey hey skurut!
im good
how are you
#2597 to #2596 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
Not bad. Its all hot in there so I have to be on PC with doors open. I tried to watch MLP but I am not that much alpha >_< And besides, in the living room next beside my room is my dad who must have volume on TV ridiculousy high :/
#2598 to #2597 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
that sucks
#2599 to #2598 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
Naaah... I will manage. Or I could try again,that is

My back past few days got even better...

One thing I fear that my classmates will pull something devious on me one day. I am talking too much ya know... Sometimes some really kinky details slip away from my tongue. Friends even call me a faggot sometimes. :l They ain´t no call anybody a faggot for no reason :/

#2600 to #2599 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
thats not right
so what if you let things slip
its no reasone to make fun of you
#2601 to #2600 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
Yea :/ Sometimes they go too far... But mostly its good in line. We are good friends. One of them was getting pretty close to my body sometimes... Had to remind me that thats gay :3 He is straight anyway. But he has something with eyes which makes his sight entire periheral. The guy is talking to you but looking somewhere else
#2602 to #2601 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
thats funny
#2605 to #2602 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
So I was watching ´´friend in deed´´ episode. I made it this far for the song ´´smile, smile´´. I can hardly watch this alone without losing it, not saying about watching it in public...
#2603 to #2602 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
I guess

Say... you are working now at the summer,right? What do you do?
#2604 to #2603 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
im not working just yet,im try to get a job
#2607 to #2604 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
Say... you come over again?
#2608 to #2607 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
#2609 to #2608 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
I mean if you come here again. You mentioned some issues before, you know...
#2610 to #2609 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
oh yeah,ill come back soon
#2611 to #2610 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
#2612 to #2611 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
mhmm :3
#2613 to #2612 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
Sooo Whatcha doin´?
#2614 to #2613 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
trying to print out my coformation for bronycon
#2615 to #2614 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
For what now?
#2618 to #2615 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
it takes plase in baltimore maryland
#2619 to #2618 - onefuckingskurut
(06/21/2013) [-]
Mmmm cool.... I will never make it there for any convention.   
&gt;Living too far and poor
Mmmm cool.... I will never make it there for any convention.

>Living too far and poor
#2616 to #2615 - thundercloud (06/21/2013) [-]
the brony convention
im going to it
#2617 to #2616 - onefuckingskurut
(06/21/2013) [-]
Wow. Where it takes place?
#2606 to #2604 - onefuckingskurut (06/21/2013) [-]
Right... Well as soon as I find out when I am leaving for health resort I start looking for job too. Maybe one day I won´t be restriced from lifting heavy weights. That would help...
#2581 - onefuckingskurut (06/17/2013) [-]
Thunder guy!
#2582 to #2581 - thundercloud (06/17/2013) [-]
skurut whats up!?
#2583 to #2582 - onefuckingskurut (06/17/2013) [-]
No you! I haven´t heard of you weeks!
I am doing very well. I may even end school year with honors. Tomorrow and day after I got day off. About my back... Well, sometimes its better and sometimes worse. Whats imporant is that somehow I am getting my old spirit back. Slowly but yes. I am soo gonna fight this!
#2585 to #2583 - thundercloud (06/17/2013) [-]
thats nice to hear,iv been good
my internet has been off for a while so yeah
#2586 to #2585 - onefuckingskurut (06/17/2013) [-]
How so? What was with the internet?
#2587 to #2586 - thundercloud (06/17/2013) [-]
i forgot to pay the bill so it got turned off
its been off for about a month
#2588 to #2587 - onefuckingskurut (06/17/2013) [-]
****************** hugs thundercloud** Ooo boy, I am glad you are back.
****************** hugs thundercloud** Ooo boy, I am glad you are back.
#2589 to #2588 - thundercloud (06/17/2013) [-]
well im not really back
im at a library using a public computer
#2590 to #2589 - onefuckingskurut (06/17/2013) [-]
Well then you better come back for real. Again I mistaken somebody else for you
#2591 to #2590 - thundercloud (06/17/2013) [-]
ill be back as soon as i can
#2593 to #2591 - onefuckingskurut (06/17/2013) [-]
Well... I got to go. Exercise again. Here have this video. I don´t really know if you have the mood but I´d say its worth a shot!
Be well!
#2592 to #2591 - onefuckingskurut (06/17/2013) [-]
I don´t know how. Imma just hanging around the site and calling your name
#2558 - onefuckingskurut (04/29/2013) [-]
Hey there,cloudy guy! I have serious questions for ya :)
#2559 to #2558 - thundercloud (04/29/2013) [-]
hey there
go ahead and ask :)
#2560 to #2559 - onefuckingskurut (04/29/2013) [-]
Remember that thing I said about mistaking you with another user? I´ve already asked the other one. Now please tell me your name
#2561 to #2560 - thundercloud (04/29/2013) [-]
my name is joseph
#2562 to #2561 - onefuckingskurut (04/29/2013) [-]
Well thats nice to know! How was your day Joseph :)
#2563 to #2562 - thundercloud (04/29/2013) [-]
my day was very good   
and yours?
my day was very good
and yours?
#2564 to #2563 - onefuckingskurut (04/29/2013) [-]
It wasn´t bad. Today I visited few shops with my friend. I´ve seen so many beautiful things :) Its just a shame I cant buy them yet. I got to buy some exercise thingy first. I haven´t even started looking for it :/

I gotta start wednesday when the school will be off... Basically I am feeling much better today. No sad or anything...
#2565 to #2564 - thundercloud (04/29/2013) [-]
thats great! :)
im happy you'er not sad anymore
#2566 to #2565 - onefuckingskurut (04/29/2013) [-]
#2567 to #2566 - thundercloud (04/29/2013) [-]
iv been meaning to get some exercise equipment as well
i need to lose a few pounds :/
#2568 to #2567 - onefuckingskurut (04/29/2013) [-]
Disregard overweight,acquire self confidence and knowledge of true values
#2569 to #2568 - thundercloud (04/29/2013) [-]
ill try
#2570 to #2569 - onefuckingskurut (04/29/2013) [-]
My classmate is about 240 pounds heavy and amongst all the people I know IRL. He is most charming. Ladies are totally hanging on his words :)
My classmate is about 240 pounds heavy and amongst all the people I know IRL. He is most charming. Ladies are totally hanging on his words :)
#2571 to #2570 - thundercloud (04/29/2013) [-]
im 325 and tho i try and be kind to people i have yet to make friends irl
#2572 to #2571 - onefuckingskurut (04/29/2013) [-]
Aight,thats the way to go! Now sign in wrestling club and and smash all the ******** :)
Aight,thats the way to go! Now sign in wrestling club and and smash all the ******** :)
#2573 to #2572 - thundercloud (04/29/2013) [-]
words of wisdom my friend
#2579 to #2577 - onefuckingskurut
(04/29/2013) [-]
****************** leans closer,supporting his hands on his kneels** ...But I dont know now...
#2578 to #2577 - onefuckingskurut
(04/29/2013) [-]
Actually... I was about to go to sleep
#2540 - onefuckingskurut (04/22/2013) [-]
Dudeee! :c
#2541 to #2540 - thundercloud (04/22/2013) [-]
#2542 to #2541 - onefuckingskurut (04/22/2013) [-]
my life! It is...
#2545 to #2544 - thundercloud (04/22/2013) [-]
so how are you man
so how are you man
#2547 to #2545 - onefuckingskurut (04/22/2013) [-]
I was supposed to get myself student practice in any corporation and give the signed contract to my class teacher until end of this week. Yet I haven´t found a place where I could practice. I visited work inspectorate,national theatre,2 shoping centers with tech stuff and one normal shopping centre and yet nothing. To some I even sent mail with contract rewriten. Yet not ansver from any of them.

And thats only small part of things which has gone wrong so far...

I am really trying to keep my head up and I am doing good job. Though while I progress in everything I am losing myself. I can keep my head up cause I don´t care about anything or anybody anymore.

My biggest fear is coming true and I cant do anything about it. Hell,I doesn´t even care!

I´ve just came here because I felt really grumpy and tired after nap. I just wanted to chat a bit I guess...
#2549 to #2547 - thundercloud (04/22/2013) [-]
whenever you,er lonely
you come to me
#2548 to #2547 - thundercloud (04/22/2013) [-]
no problem man,im always here to help    
ill listen to whatever you have to say    
ill always be here    
and sorry i didnt reply sooner,my internet is bad
no problem man,im always here to help
ill listen to whatever you have to say
ill always be here

and sorry i didnt reply sooner,my internet is bad
#2550 to #2548 - onefuckingskurut (04/22/2013) [-]
Thats ok man www.youtube.com/watch?v=2yIoby6dQuc

I´ll keep going. I will make new plan. There is nothing much I can do anyway
#2551 to #2550 - thundercloud (04/22/2013) [-]
there is always something you can do
you just gotta think
just dont give up
#2552 to #2551 - onefuckingskurut (04/22/2013) [-]
No ****...
#2553 to #2552 - thundercloud (04/22/2013) [-]
hey dont get snippy with me im just trying to help
#2554 to #2553 - onefuckingskurut (04/22/2013) [-]
I am sorry. I am very sorry
#2555 to #2554 - thundercloud (04/22/2013) [-]
its ok

bad internet
#2556 to #2555 - onefuckingskurut (04/22/2013) [-]
****************** hugs thundercloud** I guess... Gud night :)
#2557 to #2556 - thundercloud (04/22/2013) [-]
good night buddy
#2533 - onefuckingskurut (03/26/2013) [-]
Sup bro? Have you been on FJ /brony/? The rave is on! :D
#2534 to #2533 - thundercloud (03/26/2013) [-]
sup man!
yeah im there right now
#2535 to #2534 - onefuckingskurut (03/26/2013) [-]
MFw no dancing gifs in my folder. I doesnt even mind!
#2537 to #2535 - thundercloud (03/26/2013) [-]
here have mine
here have mine
#2538 to #2537 - onefuckingskurut (03/26/2013) [-]
Man,thats badass :o

Here take this in return!
#2539 to #2538 - thundercloud (03/26/2013) [-]
thanks bro
no problem
#2530 - onefuckingskurut (03/21/2013) [-]
Sup man,how are ya? I see this place haven´t moved an inch sinch I was there last time ...
#2531 to #2530 - thundercloud (03/21/2013) [-]
oh hey man
how are ya
i just got done eating birthday cake
#2532 to #2531 - onefuckingskurut (03/21/2013) [-]
Cool! I had to leave cause cause I was in school with classes left to attend to. I am doing very good and finally its going to remain that so even in long run.
#2510 - onefuckingskurut (02/22/2013) [-]
Hey man,where have you been so long? I might be just getting curious :)
#2511 to #2510 - thundercloud (02/27/2013) [-]
hey man
iv been busy moving into my new home,and plus my internet was out for a while
#2512 to #2511 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
What a fuss,maan... I thought you already moved.
#2513 to #2512 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
we have alot of stuff
we had to buy a shed the size of a small house to putt it all in
i hate moving
#2514 to #2513 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
Ohhh man :) How is that you have so many things? ... I mean,I too used to keep my toys but aren´t you like grown up now?
#2515 to #2514 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
im addicted to flea markets and garage sales
#2516 to #2515 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
Wow :D I was actually joking...

So I understand it now that you keep stuff you bough from garage sales and flea markets,right?
#2517 to #2516 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
i end up selling some of it
but most things i keep
#2518 to #2517 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
:) crazy!

And are there some more favored by you than others?
#2519 to #2518 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
my records and cassette tapes
#2520 to #2519 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
Depends on what are on those tapes,right?
#2521 to #2520 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
i could get rid of most of them
like my zz top and willy nelson tapes can go
but i can never part with my beatles tapes
#2522 to #2521 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
... Willy ... Nelson?
#2523 to #2522 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
i have about two willy nelson tapes
#2524 to #2523 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
But who´s that guy?
#2526 to #2524 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
and i might be related to him
#2525 to #2524 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
he is an old country music star
he's pretty good
#2527 to #2525 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
no way man... You pretty much listen to everything :D
#2528 to #2527 - thundercloud (02/28/2013) [-]
yeah pretty much
#2529 to #2528 - onefuckingskurut (02/28/2013) [-]
Man,I am getting sleepy... I better go to bed. Have a nice stay!
#2499 - onefuckingskurut (02/07/2013) [-]
I am sorry. I couldn´t really feel with you so here is human hugging a pony :p
#2500 to #2499 - thundercloud (02/07/2013) [-]
its fine,thank you
#2509 to #2500 - onefuckingskurut (02/07/2013) [-]
****************** hugs thundercloud firmly**
#2507 to #2500 - onefuckingskurut (02/07/2013) [-]
You doesn´t really seem comunicative right now... I´ll take shower then... Got to prepare for departure to school :) See you!
#2508 to #2507 - thundercloud (02/07/2013) [-]
see ya
#2502 to #2500 - onefuckingskurut (02/07/2013) [-]
Have you been on frontpage yet?
#2503 to #2502 - thundercloud (02/07/2013) [-]
#2505 to #2503 - onefuckingskurut (02/07/2013) [-]
Sometimes I like to look for pony pics on web and save the worst ones. Later I am posting them on internet and calling them cancer ponies...
#2506 to #2505 - onefuckingskurut (02/07/2013) [-]
Though I seem having difficulities finding some...
#2495 - chrislafff (02/07/2013) [-]
Hey, man! How goes things?
#2496 to #2495 - thundercloud (02/07/2013) [-]
hey there
things are good
how are you?
#2497 to #2496 - chrislafff (02/07/2013) [-]
Pretty good for me too! I might have a snow day friday!
#2498 to #2497 - thundercloud (02/07/2013) [-]
cool,i love snow
it did a month or two ago over here
#2483 - onefuckingskurut (02/03/2013) [-]
Helooo helo? Do you have some time?
#2484 to #2483 - thundercloud (02/03/2013) [-]
yes i have some time,whats up?
#2485 to #2484 - onefuckingskurut (02/03/2013) [-]
:) Glad you are good! I was at cinema with my sister watching this www.youtube.com/watch?v=6VneW1vtcWY

Dear lord that was most ******* touching thing I´ve ever seen. It was funny and comedic and still with well made humorous stories. At the apocalypse part it left me in total ave. That I didn´t know is coming...

A dude has a cat named Beezle. He invites his girlfriend over and kiss her. That animated cat was totally against this and threated her. One morning she heard noises in bathroom and found Beezle fapping to dude´s summer photos of him in swimming suit. Cat noticed her and chased her down to the garden and pissed all over her. Dude stepped into a garden and saw her covered in pee and the woman made him choose between him or her. He said that he will find new home for him and that she is his true love. Later that night that couple had sex and his cat was watching his in the closet. While he was crying while ******* teddy bear and dildoying himself in same time. Next morning the cat crashed car into his girlfriend. She was still fine though. Geezle stepped out of the car with shotgun and shoot her. She could still move and when Geezle came closer to finish the job she smashed him with shovel she grabbed nearby. He was trying to run away but she was still bashing him with the shovel. That cat stopped in front of little kids having birthday party. The exhausted woman noticed that and tried to explain herself before startled crowd. Seconds later dude arrived her and saw his cat. He stood on Geezle´s side and started caressing Geezle while watching the crowd murdering that woman.

I want this cat
#2486 to #2485 - thundercloud (02/03/2013) [-]
iv been wanting to see this move
i heard it was good
#2489 to #2486 - onefuckingskurut (02/03/2013) [-]
Oh k. Lets just not be that sick. How are you?
#2490 to #2489 - thundercloud (02/03/2013) [-]
im very well thank you
and yourself?
#2487 to #2486 - onefuckingskurut (02/03/2013) [-]
Most of the movie was touching but the last chapter ******* touched my heart :l
#2488 to #2487 - thundercloud (02/03/2013) [-]
so how are you, we haven't talked in a few day
#2492 to #2488 - onefuckingskurut (02/03/2013) [-]
Also I have finally come to one wise conclusion that I will just have meet my friends more.

Even though I doesn´t really have stories to tell I am still very good in conversation. Sometimes even charming. My mom was talking with my physiotherapist. She was honestly happy with me for my progress. Would have never thought I´d affect almost foreign woman like this. Even though it still might be just simple empathy I know about more cases of this happening...
#2493 to #2492 - thundercloud (02/03/2013) [-]
i sometimes think i should go to a therapist
to deal with my shyness and social awkwardness
but then i push the thought away
#2494 to #2493 - onefuckingskurut (02/03/2013) [-]
Ah to come to think of this. I am also going to visit my school psychologist. I wanna talk with her about how can I deal with my condition more effectively. Thanks for reminding me,my grandma would get mad if I would have forgot about it. I will try my best to avoid topic of my sexuality,even trough that it has direct link with my condition and my mental state...

Though you may try to keep it as much secret as possible. No need to be too much transparent. My good friend is also visiting therapist and my other friends doesn´t really think good about him. Poor guy. I think he is just missing out that he cant just flap around with his opinions,not respecting opinions of others. He is being hated for this.
#2491 to #2488 - onefuckingskurut (02/03/2013) [-]
I have not many news... My grandma will be moving to old folk's home soon. Its near street where I am having lunch after school. Guess I could visit her time to time when she will be her.

Also my sister lost her 2nd work. She is saying that she doesn´t want to do receptionist anymore. I dont know anymore then. She haven´t even received all of her payment yet. She is taking care of my grandma´s house to be sold. She have few people interested and she seem to enjoy doing all this stuff. Recently she was mentioning that she might like being real estate agent.... That there is doesnt need any special school for that....
#2473 - onefuckingskurut (01/30/2013) [-]
Hey man! :D
#2475 to #2473 - thundercloud (01/30/2013) [-]
hey there buddy :)
#2476 to #2475 - onefuckingskurut (01/30/2013) [-]
You are slow as heck :)
#2477 to #2476 - thundercloud (01/30/2013) [-]
sorry,im bussy
whats up?
#2478 to #2477 - onefuckingskurut (01/30/2013) [-]
Reading some good web-comic Ballerina Mafia. I could recommend that :)

What are you doing?
#2479 to #2478 - thundercloud (01/30/2013) [-]
nothing much,just doing some stuff around the house
#2480 to #2479 - onefuckingskurut (01/30/2013) [-]
Still settling in? I wanted to ask you that before... Where did you moved? And sorry to ask... from where?
#2481 to #2480 - thundercloud (01/30/2013) [-]
i moved to texas from arizona
#2482 to #2481 - onefuckingskurut (01/30/2013) [-]
Lol I thought you were from north-wester Europe. How was the Texas? Was it wild or so?
#2470 - onefuckingskurut (01/29/2013) [-]
Hey man,how were you been?
#2471 to #2470 - thundercloud (01/29/2013) [-]
iv been a bit busy
i might not be on for a while
#2472 to #2471 - onefuckingskurut (01/29/2013) [-]
Why so? What are you doing? :)
#2455 - onefuckingskurut (01/28/2013) [-]
Hey man
#2456 to #2455 - thundercloud (01/28/2013) [-]
im not hey man
this,is hey man
#2457 to #2456 - onefuckingskurut (01/28/2013) [-]
hey who? :)
#2458 to #2457 - thundercloud (01/28/2013) [-]
whats up my friend
how are you
#2459 to #2458 - onefuckingskurut (01/28/2013) [-]
oh ok,nevermind... I am fine. Windows in my PC fell down last Friday so I was without PC until today. It was getting weird with me :l

I was at the coffee with Mario my good friend. The **** was good and we had nice conversation :) ... Which also reminds me that I was supposed to send him a link to MLP. He have no idea what is that but wanted to know what so embarassing am I watching.

My sleep schedule should be fixed by now and I am going to sing up for Math competition. It will be held in next two months. I am not really good in math. I actually suck at it. But it will be something like a challenge for me. It should help me improve for real.

I guess thats all.... I felt lonely :l
#2460 to #2459 - thundercloud (01/28/2013) [-]
my computer has been acting all buggy too lately
i suck at math
iv been sleeping well the last few days,im still not getting that much
well whenever you feel lonely you can always talk to me,thats what im here for :)
#2461 to #2460 - onefuckingskurut (01/28/2013) [-]
Yea well sure,I thought so. Though I doesn´t really have anything interesting to tell. Oh,I could still watch new pony episode :)

And also I can now send link to one MLP episode to my friend! Any suggestions what episode?
#2462 to #2461 - thundercloud (01/28/2013) [-]
the first episode i saw was "putting your hoof down"
it got me hook on the show
#2463 to #2462 - onefuckingskurut (01/28/2013) [-]
But there is a catch. He cant do english X/ It should be something easier to understand...
#2464 to #2463 - thundercloud (01/28/2013) [-]
how about nightmare night?
#2465 to #2464 - onefuckingskurut (01/28/2013) [-]
Yea that sounds great! Too bad he is not online at the moment... Gonna sent it anyway.

Have you see new episode?
#2466 to #2465 - thundercloud (01/28/2013) [-]
yes i have,its great :)
#2467 to #2466 - onefuckingskurut (01/28/2013) [-]
Okay then. I will leave you now,if thats okay with you :D ?
#2468 to #2467 - thundercloud (01/28/2013) [-]
sure its fine,have a good one :)
#2440 - onefuckingskurut (01/23/2013) [-]
Helooo? :)
#2454 to #2440 - onefuckingskurut (01/24/2013) [-]
I see. it makes sense now. Is there a cure for your conditions? Being healthier could change a lot you know? You might be not sad anymore...
#2441 to #2440 - thundercloud (01/23/2013) [-]
hey :3 how are ya
#2442 to #2441 - onefuckingskurut (01/23/2013) [-]
Fine now but I was disturbingly wrong like an hour ago :l ....
#2443 to #2442 - thundercloud (01/23/2013) [-]
what happened?
#2446 to #2443 - onefuckingskurut (01/23/2013) [-]
I got home quite demoralized as I am most of the time. I took a nap and I felt better after it. Though it took minutes until all the stuff got up to my mind again. I was browsing frontpage with bitter taste on my spirit. I found some funny and laughed pretty hard. But it was not relieving at all. It actually got worse. And then I found this web-site www.pimsleurapproach.com/video/learn-in-ten-days/ and watched the video. She had nice reassuring voice :) Though its not better now as I am recalling this I would recall it again before sleep anyway....
#2447 to #2446 - thundercloud (01/23/2013) [-]
i get depressed alot so i know how you feel
#2448 to #2447 - onefuckingskurut (01/23/2013) [-]
I had depressions long time ago. They are gone now. I don´t know how do I call what I experience but its certainly not depression. Nothing seem to have sense or value to me.
I´ve had many chances of which many I wasted. All progress I did is gone now and I know nothing what could make me to work on it again. I dont know where is my life heading except one unlikely destination.

....Oh well,still better than when I had those depressions. I actually wished to be back at the start...
#2449 to #2448 - thundercloud (01/23/2013) [-]
you sound just like me
#2450 to #2449 - onefuckingskurut (01/23/2013) [-]
Guess so. I mustn´t then feel guilty for sharing this with you... I am pretty much last hope of my family. But why should I like my family? Why should I keep my name? They all are unable to reassure or support....

Every time I retain some of my spirit I lost it outside. And so it goes to ****...
If I could just develop some bond of some sort with somebody....

Aaaahh,I am just bitching here. I will keep trying. Even though it hurts and its bad feeling... I have almost nothing left to lose anyway...

...You take care I should go to sleep soon. Good bye!
#2451 to #2450 - thundercloud (01/23/2013) [-]
you.....you are just wonderful
i hope you have a great night sleep
#2452 to #2451 - onefuckingskurut (01/23/2013) [-]
How in the world am I wonderful :D?

I wash on checkup with my back today. Doctor had not negative comments. And again I got asked if I am weightlifting in secret X) Apparently my muscles remained tight since I was doing that. Though it was long time ago. Them muscles seem normal to me...

I was also told the doctor about how I badly exhausted I got after every school day since November. After short discussion we concluded that its because I had not enough sleep. Almost every night I got awoken for pain or just did not fell asleep at all.

I guess that now makes sane sense why I was so edgy about life and stuff. I hope that I will get better now. I am going to stop wearing corset in the night for some time.
it just didn´t make any sense how come my spirit was leaking out of me like that...

And one more thing. You still seem pretty cool :)
#2453 to #2452 - thundercloud (01/24/2013) [-]
you are wonderful cause i say so
i have many many back problems,it causes me to not have that much sleep,that and my sleep apnea doesn't help ether,i only seem to sleep well every so often
like after along day at work (i work at a flea market)
but now that iv moved and no longer have a job,i good night sleep is a very rare thing
so i occupy my nights with games,movies,thinking about life and what might change in the morning
and thank you for the complement
#2444 to #2443 - onefuckingskurut (01/23/2013) [-]
Well today I got proved that my grades do not correspond to my knowledge. Also I pay for my credulity. Its not like that,I am just naive and risk to get into a favor of some people. Today I lend pen to a guy who is sitting beside me and with who I am getting along the worst. He broke it,I saw it and when I asked him to give it back he lied to my eyes even against proofs. Should have just hit the ******. I could not even shout at him because it was at the end of school day and I really have not that strong voice...
#2445 to #2444 - thundercloud (01/23/2013) [-]
that sucks