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#204380 - anon
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Been a lurker on this site for a while. I really enjoy the community I feel like my ideals are really in line with you guy's ideals and I enjoy reading posts and comments because I feel like there are people a lot like me out there. I don't hope to get anything other than maybe some helpful advice and a place for me to vent my pent up feelings. Basically I just want to lay out my life story which for you guys and I kinda hope that maybe I can find someone going through something similar.

Part 1
My earliest known problems started when I was in third grade. Something traumatic happened, I honestly can't remember what and i think I may have blacked it out. This event whatever it was triggered something in my brain. I started developing an irrational fear of germs as well as an irrational fear of drowning and choking. I developed a pretty severe eating disorder because I simply was afraid to eat. I was scared of what kind of germs were on food and I was afraid that I would choke and die. I would go days without eating and I would have breakdowns in class if anything i thought was "dirty" touched me. I constantly washed my hands sometimes to the point where they would blister and bleed. My parents thought that this was just a phase and that it would just go away on its own. The only food that I could force myself to eat were these pre-made canned protein shakes and even then i had to vigorously wash the outside of the can before I could drink it. Needless to say I started to lose a bunch of weight. Due to my constant breakdowns I started missing more and more school. Eventually my mom pulled me out and got me professional help. I was diagnosed with OCD as well as clinical depression and and germaphobia. I was prescribed medication and was eventually able to get my episodes under control enough for me to return to school. I had lost a significant amount of weight and the other children could notice. Also no one believed me when I told them that I was out of school for 3 months because I had the flu. The school knew about my condition and I felt like somehow some of the kids had found out possibly through their parents who had learned it through the school or perhaps my own parents, Either way I was singled out and ostracized. I had only a few close friends who were able to look past my issues. I got slightly better with the medication and time however I was still very messed up.
I would like to note that throughout this time my home life was under significant stress. My father would leave the state for weeks at a time for work. So I was left basically left to be raised by my mother alone. I also had an older brother who despised me. He would constantly beat me up and blame me for things which I didn't do. He thought I was a freak. He was also bullied in elementary school and I think he blamed me for it because he was the brother of the "freak".

#204382 to #204380 - anon
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Part 2

Things got slightly better until middle school. My middle school was structured a bit differently than most. There was a standardized test which you took each year. Based on the results of this test you could be seperated into classes based on your aptitude. So that people who did poorly could be placed with people their own aptitude and so the class could move at a slower pace. This also worked the other way so if you did well then you could be placed in higher classes so you wouldn't be slowed down. My brother was in 8th grade when I was in 6th. He was also pretty widely considered to be the smartest kid in the school. It was a very small school of only like 200 kids. He was very proud of his status. Anyway when It was time to take the standardized test he was used to scoring the highest, only this time he didn't. He scored the second highest and I was the one who beat him. I'm not by any means claiming that I am a genius, I'm far from it. I just happened to do well on this particular test. Anyway this absolutely destroyed him. It also managed to put me as the only 6th grader in a class with my older brother and a bunch of other 8th graders. Everyone could tell that I was a little off and it didn't help that my brother would constantly pick on me, the teachers did nothing about it because "oh they are brothers, its normal". Basically I had few friends throughout my first year of middle school and I started sinking back into a depression.
Once my brother graduated and I entered 7th grade, things started to briefly get better. I started making more friends and was probably genuinely happy for the first time in my life. Then things started getting bad again. Money was really tight. My father started drinking heavily. He would constantly yell at and put his hands on my mother. I fairly certain he tried to cut her with a knife once, though my mom claims it was just an accident. I felt like this was my fault because of the financial strain that my medication and therapy sessions put on my family. I tried running away and contemplated suicide many times. My father hated me. He thought I was weak and a failure. My father's drinking got worse. He worked long days and I only saw him when he came home stinking drunk.
#204383 to #204382 - anon
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Part 4

We had to sell our nice house and move into this shitty apartment. One day I saw my family stumbling into the living room drunk. At the time I owned an all metal m1911 airsoft gun with the orange tip broken off. I saw what I thought was this in his pocket. I asked him what he was doing with my airsoft gun. He started yelling and basically being the stereotypical abusive drunk dad. My mom heard this and quickly took me and my brother out of the house and took us to the park. We came back later and couldn't find my dad anywhere. Eventually we found him with his head blown off in one of the rooms. Turns out it wasn't my airsoft gun, it was my dad’s real gun and he had killed himself while we were away. I personally blamed myself for not being able to tell the difference between an airsoft gun and a real gun, and I think my mother and brother did the same. The guilt and trauma kicked all the issues that I had worked so hard to control into overdrive. I developed insomnia, I couldn't sleep for days, and I washed my hands until they bled. I developed weird rituals such as doing things a certain number of times. I stopped leaving the house and got pulled out of school again. My family basically fell apart. We all stayed together, but there was no love or compassion for one another. Christmas and birthdays were hollow and really didn't mean anything. My brother hated me more than ever. My mother still loved me however she too was broken and really couldn't help me and honestly I lost any love I had for my mother. I felt alone. This went on for about a year. Eventually I worked through my issues completely on my own. I went back to school finished up eighth grade and went on to high school. My family life remained nonexistent and made no attempts to fix it because it was so self-destructive. High school went better. I made a few good friends, I mostly had my issues under controls. I did well enough to get me into college where I found many close friends. I was finally free from the home which tortured me for years.
#204384 to #204383 - anon
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(12/09/2015) [-]
The real part 4. The previous part 4 was supposed to say part 3. Im retarded

This is where the source of my current issues which I want help in comes in, and yes I’m sorry if you are disappointed but they are relationship issues. Throughout growing up I never had any real connections with people. I never truly felt loved by my family and I never loved them back. I also never had a girlfriend or any sort of romantic relationship. Because of this I fell completely head over heels in love with the first girl who showed me even the slighted amount of affection. We were friends for a while prior to being romantic and our relationship was brief. She said that she had mistaken feelings of friendship for feelings of romance. I took this extremely hard. When I was with her I was legitimately the happiest i have ever been in my entire life or since. Never had I felt like I had someone who cared about me. I thought that she simply didn't like me because of my appearance so i started working out and taking care of myself. I've actually gotten pretty swole. However she still wouldn't love me. We have remained friends, but my feelings for her are as strong as ever. I've tried going after other girls however none of them measure up to her. Worst of all I have to watch her fall for my guys friends, all of which have broken her heart and i'm always there to console her. Ive made my feelings very clear to her, however she simply doesn't want me. I've accepted that she unobtainable but I still can't stop loving her. I believe the reason I can't move on is because I never had anyone care about me, and I don't want to go back to being alone. I've tried cutting ties with her, but that didn't work. Its been a year since we split. Honestly does anyone have any sort of advice for me?
#204392 to #204384 - smartythechicken
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(12/09/2015) [-]
remember anon: just because you are swole in your arms doesn't necessarily mean your swole in your heart and mind
git gud
also, listen to this www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1bFr2SWP1I
shits cash yo
#204390 to #204384 - minutes ONLINE
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(12/09/2015) [-]
I am just gonna ignore part 1-3 cause I am not a psychiatrist.

You need to change your view on yourself and people in general. You seem to have a good heart and good intentions but you're doing all the mistakes that people do when they were socially isolated for a long time I know that because I did them too I'll just try to list them and give advice.

1. A girl is not supposed to be the solution for your personal problems. Not anyone else for that matter. Only you can be there for yourself and only you can be the one to pull you out of your own shit. There are people that can be guidance, like me in this moment or a good friend, but in the end you're the one who has to go that path. I could tell you what to do for hours, it's still on you to make it happen. You're born alone, you die alone. The rest is yours to fill the gap. Get your life together before you even think about getting into a relationship. Gfs aren't the solution, they are the reward for happy people.

2. Don't rely on anyone to be happy. Kind of similar to the first one but still. It has a pretty practical reason as well. A girl is attracted to alpha-guy behaviour I know that sounds stupid but listen Girls instincitvely want guys who are top tier social people. Being confident, having a huge social group etc. are parts of it. You have to be independent and she has to feel that, otherwise she'll loose attraction. Sure, she can say "bla bla I want a man with a six pack and money bla and he has to be tall bla" but don't listen to that. She only THINKS that she wants that. In reality, attraction is not something people can controll. Evolutionary, girls had to get the best man for the best genes, they had to be really carefull cause they could only get a small amount of kids, so they are very selective. Now they also had to keep that guy to survive right? These evolutionary traits never really vanished. They still try to get the best man and they still want to keep him, so they basically try to make you theirs by betacizing you. It starts with stuff like coming late to dates or not responding. If you just suck it up she won. Now her subconciousness tells her she succesively bound you. But listen up, this is not something good. As soon as she bound you, you're no longer alpha, she no longer has attraction for you, cause now she can go and find someone with even better genes while you're always there to care for her.

Let's recap a little shall we. Girls only put the absolute minimal effort into the relationship that they have to. If one message per month is enough to keep you around, they won't do anything more than that. The consequences therefore have to be, don't let yourself be her slave. Develope your own life, be independent, improve yourself. Not for anyone else, just for yourself. Start different hobbys, talk to more people and live your own fucking awesome life. I'll give you a few sentences and you will learn them and live by them.

"I live autonomously and independently, create my life according to my own will and only follow rules and Principles that I located for good and right. I am proud of what I am doing and will never say sorry for what I am. An error is something that I by honest self-criticism, regardless of the opinions of others, have recognized. I appreciate and enjoy the presence of other people and feel well in their company, but I will never be depending on anyone, neither friends, nor affairs, nor of my partner. People who repeated to bring disrespectful and inappropriate behavior to me will be dismissed from the circle of my acquaintances immediately and permanently, after a one-time strong warning . I help my friends when they need help, but I know that each person is responsible for his own life and its problems. I am therefore neither Therapeut nor lawyer, nor servants, nor Clown for whomever."
#204391 to #204390 - minutes ONLINE
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Whenever something requires your reaction, think of these sentences and be that guy. Hold your "alpha frame" infront your face and act like he would. It will improve you and your social skills. Your sole goal is self improvement now. Doesn't matter how tiny that improvement may have been, as long as you go to bed being a little bit better than you were when you woke up, you succeeded. Baby steps are also steps.

If she's late to one of your meet ups, just go and do something else. Don't contact her for the next few days, she will message you. Then just tell her that you were busy doing X. If she wants to be your friend she has to treat you with respect and from your tellings it seems like she isn't doing that. Confidence is your way to go. It doesn't built up over night, it takes ages and hard work, but you can do it. Block out all the thoughts of you not being worthy, it's not true. Go and be whatever you want to be, but don't try to be her psychiatrist, don't sit when she screams sit. You're not a dog. You said "I have to wach her fall for my guys friends". That is fucking bullshit. No one makes you watch this, you do this to yourself. If you don't want this, go and do something else. Learn an instrument, read a book whatever. You are not her servant. Once you start to respect yourself, others will respect you too.

So practical spoken, she can be your friend if she wants to be, but she has to work for that just as much as you have to. You only want this girl because you subconciously think she will solve your problems, she won't. Let yourself be free. Be the person you have the potentional to be.
#204381 to #204380 - solitaryhitmitt
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#204379 - fukatron
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(12/09/2015) [-]
I have a question on credit cards and credit score. I just finished my first semester of college, and I kinda want to move out on my own by the time i finish the next year and a half to get an associates. Now, i know it's kind of necessary to have a good credit score to make getting things in life easier, like renting an apartment or leasing a car and shit.

I'm an engineering major, not a finance major. So i kind of need help on deciding what a good credit card or credit account would be. So far i have the Santander student debit card but i got a full time job so i'm somewhat confident in paying every month normally. I'm just scared of getting trapped in some loophole fineprint and get robbed out of shit.
#204385 to #204379 - crlmsonhazard
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Find something with no annual fee if possible. Pay the full balance off every month. Then there shouldnt be an issue
#204431 to #204385 - fukatron
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(12/09/2015) [-]
is it really that simple..?
#204466 to #204431 - crlmsonhazard
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(12/10/2015) [-]
Kinda yeah. Most people cant manage this because theyre 'tarded with budgeting or they dont have a rainy day fund to cover their ass. If your financial situation is meh, just use the credit card a few times per cycle like for gas or coffee or whatever.
#204444 to #204431 - darkbladept
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Go to r/personalfinance
#204375 - discardedslinky
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(12/09/2015) [-]
So I'm 2 days away from the end of a college semester. I have one class that didn't require attendance and you could do the work whenever you wanted at your own pace so I basically blew it off and now here I am and I haven't done any of the work. I haven't even signed up for the online program yet. I'm going to spend the next two days basically cranking all this work out and hopefully get a passing grade.

Has anyone ever done this before? I hope by not doing anything in class all semester I didn't get kicked out or anything. Is that possible?
#204377 to #204375 - tikitaco
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(12/09/2015) [-]
My first question is have you logged into the online program's site yet?
#204367 - shadowdoogen
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Can anybody tell me why no matter how many times I try to bring myself to forget about someone I end up thinking of all our good times? Or why no matter what vile things they said to me when we argued I'm the one who feels bad for arguing? Why I can't forget the times them and I were having fun? Why I can't just let them go, when I know they aren't the person I remember?
#204389 to #204367 - minutes ONLINE
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(12/09/2015) [-]
If enough time has passed you'll just think about it less and less. The feelings never end but once you start forgetting it gets better.
#204369 to #204367 - tikitaco
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(12/09/2015) [-]
You aren't going to forget the good times, because those are the memories you should remember and cherish for the rest of your life. You should think of putting them behind you and moving forward rather than just outright forgetting them.
#204370 to #204369 - shadowdoogen
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Isn't that just giving up? Shouldn't I fight to bring that person back?
#204371 to #204370 - tikitaco
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Before I answer that, when you say "Why I can't just let them go, when I know they aren't the person I remember?" did you mean that in a negative way as in you're remembering the good times about a bad person?
#204372 to #204371 - shadowdoogen
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(12/09/2015) [-]
I was remembering the times they weren't a bad person.
#204373 to #204372 - tikitaco
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Did you guys break up because you no longer got along?
#204374 to #204373 - shadowdoogen
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(12/09/2015) [-]
We never dated. But something changed in them, and they were no longer like what they were. They had something bad happen to them I know that, and ever since we never connected like we did.
#204376 to #204374 - tikitaco
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(12/09/2015) [-]
That's too bad. Do you think that having possibly forcing this person back in your life is a good idea in your opinion?
#204378 to #204376 - shadowdoogen
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Forcing them? Hell no, that's unhealthy. I don't know what to think, I want them back in my life, because I think that I could put things back like they were. They're not a bad person in the sense they spit on babies and kicks puppies, I think we just have bad chemistry now. I think I just don't want to accept reality, accept that there is no way we could ever be like we were back then.
#204368 to #204367 - rokkai
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(12/09/2015) [-]
because you shouldn't forget good times. they may not be the same person now but they were back then. you only have to get those feelings go away, and keep the good memories. this is what makes relationships great. you learn so much with each individual it's crazy
#204366 - anon
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(12/09/2015) [-]
does anyone know what the oldest piece of still viewable content is on this site?

I'm curious.
#204363 - anon
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(12/09/2015) [-]
So basically I'm a side hoe right now and I'm okay with that part because I get what I need out of this but some of this stuff is messing with my head. She cuddles with me whenever we hang out not kissing of fucking but cuddling and falling asleep in each other's arms, then she tells me I'm her favorite and she loves me then goes on to talk about her boyfriend. She even lies to him about being busy to hang out with me and I don't know if I should bring it up with her. I want to say "why would you lie to him" but I don't want to miss out on cuddles because I'm currently Josh lol with the women
#204394 to #204363 - lgninjaleetful
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(12/09/2015) [-]
you sound pretty pathetic to be honest
#204365 to #204363 - confusedasian
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(12/09/2015) [-]
A girl is already going out with someone. You know this, yet you still choose to sleep with her. You're both assholes.
#204364 to #204363 - helpful
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(12/09/2015) [-]
post pics of you and her bf it sounds like you are just a friend with fun
#204351 - helpful
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Hey im here and im calling advice ask for help
#204353 to #204351 - anon
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Wait, are you here asking for advice or giving advice?
#204354 to #204353 - helpful
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(12/09/2015) [-]
giving
#204356 to #204354 - confusedasian
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You know, you don't need to announce your presence. Just do what I do and lurk the board. Something new comes up, come out of the dark corner and say something, then crawl back.
#204357 to #204356 - helpful
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(12/09/2015) [-]
but im helpful its in my name
#204358 to #204357 - confusedasian
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(12/09/2015) [-]
I just don't see the point in announcing an arrival is all.
#204359 to #204358 - helpful
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(12/09/2015) [-]
entrances are the most important part of joining a party
#204360 to #204359 - confusedasian
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Okay.
#204361 to #204360 - helpful
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(12/09/2015) [-]
see now youve been helped in how to not be such an unnoticed emotionally deprived man child have a wonderful day yours truely Helpful
#204395 to #204361 - lgninjaleetful
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(12/09/2015) [-]
you arent helpful at all
#204362 to #204361 - anon
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#204348 - toncheky
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Made this rabbit from clear plexi 5mm, and my plan was to sand it and put an LED so it lights up completely, but I tried it while it's still clear and it looks kinda cool. Maybe I would leave it that way, but the problem is, it's a bit scratched up and it ruins it. Now I'm thinking of just sanding down some areas as shades... will post few pics as examples and I'd like to hear your opinions/ideas.

I will also add a little wooden base in which I will put batteries, a switch and hide the LED(s) so it just lights up the rabbit. How long would 2 AA batteries manage to power those LEDS? eBay info say if you got 20mA, forward voltage is 3.4v.
#204349 to #204348 - toncheky
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Test with an LED, clear, but scratched up.
#204350 to #204349 - toncheky
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Ideas for shading..
#204352 to #204350 - toncheky
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(12/09/2015) [-]
...and detailing.
#204334 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Has this popped up for anyone else?
#204355 to #204334 - anon
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(12/09/2015) [-]
Maybe it's only for people who arent logged in most of the time
#204345 to #204334 - yourinvisiblegf
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(12/08/2015) [-]
no
#204335 to #204334 - dorg
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Nope?
#204325 - cptsweatpants
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(12/08/2015) [-]
So I can't get any torrents to work lately, and I read it might be because torrent hosts are blocking Windows 10 users. is that actually fckin true?
#204336 to #204325 - dorg
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Try qBittorrent. If that does not work than it might be your ISP. Some trackers blocks unsecure clients but qBittorrent is (at least what I have seen) never on the blacklist.

Also, one should never use μTorrent or Bittorrent as they are almost classified as malware today.
#204332 to #204325 - alstorp
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Works for me, using W10, probably not that.
#204314 - ihaspotato
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(12/08/2015) [-]
So i'm looking for a job and i'm about to contact this one place about a job, should i just write a short message asking them if they need people and contact me for more information or should i just ship away a like full on job application immediately?
#204315 to #204314 - drickz
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(12/08/2015) [-]
The most effective means of getting a job is to show up, ask to see the manager, and leave a full resume with a personal letter/job application.
#204316 to #204315 - ihaspotato
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Unfortunately that's not an option as i'm searching for a job in another town.
#204317 to #204316 - drickz
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Send a resume and call, in that case.
#204318 to #204317 - ihaspotato
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Thanks for the advice.
#204319 to #204318 - drickz
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(12/08/2015) [-]
np!

Whatever you choose to send, it's good to show you're eager to get any job they have to offer. Unless you're specialized and want to work with that, then you show that side. Just make sure they know you really want the job. Good luck!
#204320 to #204319 - ihaspotato
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Believe me i really want a job, i've been jobless since July... I'm getting so sick of having no money and sitting on my ass all day.
#204312 - dehumanizer ONLINE
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Just Fuck My Shit Up Fam

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!
#204311 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
I wish I weren't so scared of death, because I genuinely have nothing to live for, but I'm to scared to ever actually be suicidal.
#204347 to #204311 - xxxundeadswaifuxxx
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I used to feel that way. I do not feel that way anymore but one thing that truly helped me was gaining motivation to care about things. I guess it got to the point where I would never leave my room and my mentally ill Uncle told me that he did not want me to end up like him and he forced to me to go out of my room, even if it meant that I was out in the living room sulking. I would stay up really late at night playing games reading, thinking and slept in till noon (something I have never done in my life, I usually wake up pretty early). What kept me up was that fear of dying, but also feeling like I wanted to die. This is kinda personal but I genuinely want to make you feel better and hope this reply makes you know that you are not alone. Feel free to message me if you want. I went off anon for you, encase you took up the offer. (please do, i am more than willing to talk c

If you decided not to message me just listen to me and do what my Uncle made me do. Force yourself out of your room and be with your family. Feel better soon, anon.
#204310 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
I think I may have been too high to fuck. I didn't think I was that high, I felt okay. Only...impotent....

Weed and impotency, is that a thing?
#204299 - Izen
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(12/08/2015) [-]
im a 21 year old dude and don't really need or want anything
what do i tell my family i want for christmas
#204309 to #204299 - alstorp
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Harry Enfield:  loadsamoney
#204308 to #204299 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
just ask for clothes. you might not want clothes but you'll always need them.
#204289 - confusedasian
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(12/08/2015) [-]
You fellars know what type of dog this is? My little brother got me this statue for Christmas, (I know it's early, but my family doesn't celebrate Christmas to begin with.) and I was thinking in a few years down the road to get a dog. I'm choosing the same as the statue. When he asks why I chose the dog, if he does, I'll pull out the statue and show him. Few years is a long time, but I won't forget. My other little brother got me a para cord keychain. I was thinking of getting the same design and color for the dogs collar. I'll make it myself if I have to.
#204293 to #204289 - tikitaco
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Looks kind of like a boston terrier possibly?
#204296 to #204293 - confusedasian
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Yeah, that's what I thought. It has the color pattern of a German Shepard though. Closest I found was either a black and white, or brown and white boston. I found some with all three colors, but I guess they're rarer or something.

Pretty cute little guys though.
#204322 to #204296 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
The legs on the statue are short, wich to me is more french bulldog than boston terrier
#204323 to #204322 - confusedasian
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Oh, I think that's because it's in the laying/sitting position dogs do.   
   
Like this.   
   
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Oh, I think that's because it's in the laying/sitting position dogs do.

Like this.

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#204297 to #204296 - tikitaco
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(12/08/2015) [-]
I own one
#204298 to #204297 - confusedasian
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(12/08/2015) [-]
A black, white, and brown one? Are they rare? Or like how did you find one? Are they just more common then I think?
#204301 to #204298 - tikitaco
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Aw shit I meant I just have one that's black and white. The brown ones are semi-common and are usually a mix of black and brown. The full brown ones are rarer in my opinion though because I don't think I have ever seen someone with one.
#204302 to #204301 - confusedasian
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Its settled then, I'll adopt me a Boston Terrier. Unless anyone else has an idea, but I couldn't find anything else. Could be a French Bulldog, but the statue looks more like the Boston. Thanks man.
#204304 to #204302 - tikitaco
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(12/08/2015) [-]
No problem, glad I could help!
#204303 to #204302 - confusedasian
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Good night.
#204288 - crlmsonhazard
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(12/08/2015) [-]
>28 year old kissless virgin
>gross under 10k a year
>100lbs overweight
>addicted to candy and soda
>no friends
>most of my family disowned me due to my poverty
>even dogs dont like me
>cant go to sleep without jerking off
>severely ugly (like 310)
>too scared to try eHarmony (terrified of false rape accusations)
>Too cringey to interview well for a job so college is out of the question

I pray daily for death


#204321 to #204288 - drickz
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(12/08/2015) [-]
So..
Work on bettering yourself.
Push the addiction aside.
Read self help books, for improving self worth and viewpoints on life.
Eat less, or healthier, too lose that weight. Work out if possible, but eating less is the easiest way.
Start tomorrow, small steps. I promise you can make a difference and in 2 years you will look back and see night and day when comparing now and then.

Five years ago I decided to stop being a self-centered, depressive, negative, awkward, and unproductive idiot. I'm nearing my goal. You always have to stick to it. Make up general rules that will help you stay on the right path. Some self help books have rules/thoughts like that.
#204305 to #204288 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Don't stand around and do nothing, waiting for things to get better, go to collage or go find a new. better job where you get to meet more people. You can get used to social interactions so your cringyness goes away, don't think you're not capable of being saved.
#204300 to #204288 - plantain
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Post a picture.
#204295 to #204288 - tikitaco
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(12/08/2015) [-]
...at least you have Funnyjunk? I'm kidding. You're worth more than what you make yourself out to be. Just start with working out and things will gradually get better if you try to improve yourself.
#204294 to #204288 - confusedasian
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Post a picture of yourself. You can't be that bad, and if anything some of us will help give you some suggestions on improving your looks and boost your confidence. Maybe not now from me, but that's because I'm heading out to bed. Got final exam for my programming class tomorrow.
#204291 to #204288 - kilgrave
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(12/08/2015) [-]
pull the trigger then, faggot. You are absolutely pathetic, and the world is objectively a better place without you being a waste of resources
#204285 - salivarocker
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(12/08/2015) [-]
So I've been thinking about starting on my own bonsai tree, how does all this stuff work? Do i go and just lop off a piece of tree from my area to know that it's able to grow? What does i do?
#204280 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Nothing normal turns me on anymore.

I gotta watch some seriously fucked up shit to even get a boner and i just cant stop.
#204281 to #204280 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Go cold turkey for a while.
#204269 - murrlogic
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Wow. Today is a drinking day. Typical since today is Monday

First the Suicide Prevention Organization did a presentation at my job today. They gave me a piece of paper stating on a scale of 1-10 how suicidal do I feel and for shits and giggles I put a 10 and mentioned how I wanna put a 12 gauge in my mouth

9/10 people usually don't read the suggestions portion of those pieces of paper so come to my surprise they call back 2 hours later showing legitimate concern

so come tomorrow I need to tell them I was just being my usual absolute madman self.
#204342 to #204269 - dreygur
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(12/08/2015) [-]
Don't make people think "Was he just joking..." when they tell someone they're suicidal. Shit isn't to be joked about.
#204306 to #204269 - zeruaargi
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(12/08/2015) [-]
"I-It was just a joke"

gg murr
#204292 to #204269 - crlmsonhazard
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(12/08/2015) [-]
as somebody who has had severe suicidal depression for over 20 years, this really pisses me off. I hope you were just baiting with nonsense, and didnt actually do this.
#204307 to #204292 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
you'd be surprised by the dumb shit he spews.

He works at a place that is designed to help people with problems, mostly educational minor mental issues (from what he has told us) and so on.

He gets pissed at those people, the people who are clearly not 100% there and need help, he gets angry at them. He's scum.
#204290 to #204269 - notred
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(12/08/2015) [-]
You should put a shot gun in your mouth.
#204287 to #204269 - alstorp
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(12/08/2015) [-]
I don't think you are fit to carry any kind of responsibility ever.
#204275 to #204269 - anon
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(12/08/2015) [-]
You really are a piece of shit aren't you?

who the fuck would do that?