Transgender realized he ruined his entire life
Sinking into depression postwo
Last February I had surgery and I feel like my honeymoon phase is
Over and reality of my life and situation has hit me.
Lately I' been very envious of gay men and men in general. I
very much seem to miss being a boy. I sit and think and try to
remember the feelings that pushed me into transition years
ago but those feelings don' t seem to be here anymore,
I thought sex was frustrating preap and felt embarrassed to be a
girl with a penis. Now I just feel scared that I won' t get wet
enough or won' t feel aroused enough and won' t enjoy sex. The
last couple times having sex I just wasn' t into it and the guy just
had sex with me until he was done. Ijust don' t feel all that
interested in sex anymore l Ijust don' t seem to get anything out
of it. Ithink I' m asexual now.
I don' t see how I' ll ever have a family. I guess I just sit and wait to
die. 32 now and am it' s going to be a lonely life. I' m plastic
surgery asexual post op trans girl with emotional baggage about
her gender still, At least my dog loam's me,
I serious hate being trans. I don' t like my vagina and I wish I would
of stayed being a boy. Now I' m stuck being a girl the rest of my
life. A girl who vagina isn' t as sensitive as she wanted. A girl who
has surgery scars on her forehead, her nose, under her chin,
behind her head, on her breasts, and on her vagina, How the fuck
did I get here?
I don' t know what to do with my life. There' s so much of it left and
I feel like I ruined it by trans. Uri ruined it by getting FFS or BA or
SRS or whatever other stupid initialism I thought would make me
In hindsight I really don' t think my dysphoria was that bad...