a heartfelt story. . advert. I'm just gonna write it here anyway to get it out. My boyfriend of four years left me today. He was my everything. I was sure we were gonna get married and last a heartfelt story advert I'm just gonna write it here anyway to get out My boyfriend of four years left me today He was my everything I sure we were married and last
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#2 - KellyisAwesome
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(12/20/2013) [-]
I'm just gonna write it here anyway to get it out.
My boyfriend of four years left me today. He was my everything. I was sure we were gonna get married and last forever and make a billion babies and live in a little ****** house in the suburbs.
Today he shows up at my house, totally unexpectet because I thougt he were at study group. Drops on me that he isn't in love with me anymore. He still cares a lot about me, and he said I have made him a better person, but he doesn't see me in a romantic light anymore. I'm crushed. I nevr saw it coming, yesterday he wrote a text where he said he loved me. He said it started when I got a depression like 7 months ago and he just became annoyed with me, and only felt obliged to stay because I felt like **** and got kicked out of school. Now I'm better, starting up again and he felt he could finally tell me.
I didn't see it coming, im just.. ****. haven't stopped crying since he left, I don't think i'll ever be the same again, he took something with him when he went away.
#34 to #2 - cycloberrick
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(12/20/2013) [-]
you're handling this situation a lot better than I would. You're a very strong person

fight on you glorious lady, fight on.
#39 to #2 - leprechaunne
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(12/20/2013) [-]
He shouldn't have done that to you, lied like that. I'm sure he was the best part of your life so far, but things will get better... it's just not gonna be a fun ride. If you want someone to talk to, PM me
#27 to #2 - infinitereaper
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(12/20/2013) [-]
I'm sorry to hear that, love is a very special thing and losing that love is one of the most painful things imaginable, whoever said love lost and found was better than never having loved at all was an idiot. It destroys you.   
   
I grew up in military family, we moved around a lot. I feel in love with a girl I met in 3rd grade. It was just a crush back then, and though we were friends she never returned my feelings. We all had to move away eventually since the military base closed down. I never really forgot those feelings for her, they just stayed with me. Whenever I thought about that "special someone" all I thought about was her. Anyways one day she contacts me online and we start talking again. It got to the point where we would talk all day, for hours and hours. One day she confesses to me. Tell me she loves me. I was shocked, I had no idea that there was anyone in this world that loved me. It was so strange, so weird, those feelings that had been with me suddenly sprung forth.   
   
And before I knew it I found myself madly in love. I loved her, so much, and it grew with every passing day. I was living in Louisiana at the time, and she was in Germany. And then in absolute cruelty I found out she was moving to Louisiana too... except I was moving in just a months time. She visited me while our times overlapped. It was super awkward, and I was scared. I couldn't look her in the eye. We held each other. We just held on too each other... I never kissed her, and she never kissed me. She left, and as suddenly as she came she was gone.   
   
A lot of crazy **** happened all around the same time, I was like 15, my family always gave me a hard time and my ******* best friend tried to stab me with a hunting knife, a lot was going on. I was in despair for years, but I guess things really built up during that period, and it messed me up. I don't think I really knew what love was, or maybe I lost sight of it so one day I told her that "we should just be friends."
I'm sorry to hear that, love is a very special thing and losing that love is one of the most painful things imaginable, whoever said love lost and found was better than never having loved at all was an idiot. It destroys you.

I grew up in military family, we moved around a lot. I feel in love with a girl I met in 3rd grade. It was just a crush back then, and though we were friends she never returned my feelings. We all had to move away eventually since the military base closed down. I never really forgot those feelings for her, they just stayed with me. Whenever I thought about that "special someone" all I thought about was her. Anyways one day she contacts me online and we start talking again. It got to the point where we would talk all day, for hours and hours. One day she confesses to me. Tell me she loves me. I was shocked, I had no idea that there was anyone in this world that loved me. It was so strange, so weird, those feelings that had been with me suddenly sprung forth.

And before I knew it I found myself madly in love. I loved her, so much, and it grew with every passing day. I was living in Louisiana at the time, and she was in Germany. And then in absolute cruelty I found out she was moving to Louisiana too... except I was moving in just a months time. She visited me while our times overlapped. It was super awkward, and I was scared. I couldn't look her in the eye. We held each other. We just held on too each other... I never kissed her, and she never kissed me. She left, and as suddenly as she came she was gone.

A lot of crazy **** happened all around the same time, I was like 15, my family always gave me a hard time and my ******* best friend tried to stab me with a hunting knife, a lot was going on. I was in despair for years, but I guess things really built up during that period, and it messed me up. I don't think I really knew what love was, or maybe I lost sight of it so one day I told her that "we should just be friends."
#28 to #27 - infinitereaper
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Cont.
I have no ******* idea what I was thinking. I think my life had literally worn down my sanity to the point where I just lost sight of everything. Anyways, she’s heartbroken, and I move away and eventually so am I.

For me the despair in my life had only grown stronger. I felt so much regret, and started to live life more hollow than ever before. By the time we talked to each other again I found out she had a boyfriend. That was tough for me. She told me about him, and I didn’t like him all. Dude was an asshole. Told her who she was allowed to talk to etc. You know, real obvious signs of an asshole. I tried to tell her this but she never listened to me. Anyways I tried to win her back. She was… actually is the only woman I ever loved. My entire life, since I was a kid.

But you know, she was already with that other guy. She told me getting over me was the hardest thing she ever had to do, but after talking with me again she remembered that love. Of course… in the end… I lost. She literally told me the day after she lost her virginity. (how ****** up is that) Now you can laugh at me if you want, but I cried. I was so crushed. I was shaking. It broke me down. Everything in me shattered. It was more than the fact that I had just experienced real life NTR (We were both first loves! I was there first, who was this random guy to come between us?) I think at that moment… I realized that it was over. I realized that I had lost the most important thing in my entire life. On that day, my heart was torn out.
#29 to #28 - infinitereaper
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(12/20/2013) [-]
cont.

To top it off, that asshole eventually dumped her. He really hurt her. She was depressed for a long time and even started cutting herself. I did what I could to be there for her. You see. I failed. I failed to keep my promises. I failed to protect her. I made a mistake, and paid the consequences. We never even had a chance to be together. Reality tore us apart, and separated us. I would have done anything for her. Be it burning down cities or living a life of crime. She was my everything. She was my reason to be alive. I failed her. I failed myself.
And now I’m alone. She’s still so far away, and I know we’ll just never be together. It’s not so much that things went horrible for both of us that bothers me…
What kills me is that I know had we been given “our time”, and had been able to have a normal relationship where we lived in the same place…. I know we would have never fallen apart. We’d be together today. She would still be my everything. I’d forever and for always have eyes only for her. I would marry her, I would take care of her… we would have children… and a family… but everything that could have been…

Was taken away by a cruel reality.

I’m sorry. Your story made me want to share mine. I’m so sorry that happened to you. That guy sounds like a total ******* douche. I literally cannot believe he told you that ****. I’m sorry but that’s ******* ********. You deserve better than that. I hope you recover eventually. I’m sure you’re a wonderful girl and you ******* deserve someone who’s going to love you forever and for always.
#36 to #29 - trivdiego
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(12/20/2013) [-]
im sorry that must be awful. That kind of **** can consume your waking moments. can you tell a little more about the hunting knife part? that seemed kind of random but interesting
#42 to #36 - infinitereaper
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Was in the forest with 2 of my buddies exploring. Living on base at the time and there was lots of forest. Anyways not too far from a shooting range (well it was more like some small cabins with stuff lying around and bullet shells everywhere) their was a enclosed graveyard with a sign that said "Graveyard number 2".

It was weird as ****, because on closer inspection it looked really old. There were toys placed all over the graves as well. We realized that they were all children, except for one grave in the back that was the only tombstone not flat on the ground. Whoever that was, was old. Could really read any of the inscriptions though other than the dates and few a names. See I thought the place might be some sort of prop, but now that I think about none of it made any ******* sense.

Anyways long story short, I get cocky and decide to mess around "Oh spirits show us a sign!" next thing I know, one of my friends throws up, and my best friend starts holding onto his head like he's losing it. I laughed it off at first until I noticed the puke of my other friend. Next thing I know I'm holding a back the arm of my best friend. I don't even think my brain registered it and my body moved out of instinct. In his hand was a 6 inch hunting knife.

We stood like that struggling for a few minutes. I asked my other friend for help but he totally pussed out and stayed back. As if he was the one in real danger. Well eventually my friend comes back to his senses and throws the knife away. Saying "Oh it wasn't me it wasn't me" I was so shocked. I think it dealt psychological damage and damage to my trust more than anything.

Anyways after that we retrieve his knife since he'd get in trouble for loosing it. He gets mad at me for blaming him on the way back and then we we exit the forest he buys us all beef jerky and icees and it was ******* delicious.

I don't know really know what to believe and I'm pretty sure he was just ******* crazy.

My life right!?
Totally normal.
#43 to #42 - trivdiego
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(12/20/2013) [-]
that's really ******* scary
that's really ******* scary
#45 to #43 - infinitereaper
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(12/20/2013) [-]
With all the **** I've been through it's literally a miracle I'm still sane, in fact I actually don't even know if I'm really sane anymore sometimes.
#53 to #45 - veryevilmen ONLINE
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(12/20/2013) [-]
i think the same thing sometimes man. At the least i think it's a good thing that you are unsure. At this point i think i would be more worried about myself if I was sure one way or the other. Hang in there Kaiki, I hope you get by.
#20 to #2 - anon
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Well you know what? Kelly IS awesome!
#47 to #2 - anon
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(12/20/2013) [-]
kellyisn'tawesome.

why are you whining bitch?
at least you got in a relation ship unlike half of the people here on FJ.
cheer up already, you have twice more of a chance of getting a new one then any of these neckbeards here including me.
#79 to #2 - huszti
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(12/20/2013) [-]
i've had something similar happen to me.

anyways, i think he did the right thing; he just had the worst timing. but if he is annoyed by that, he isn't the right one for you anyway as someone who could be would support you to get through that. don't be sad because it happened, be happy that he wasn't the right one for you.

i hope you'll be better soon. im bad at trying to comfort people
#132 to #2 - zoooeee
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(12/20/2013) [-]
when you get dumped everyones like 'oh its fine he sucked anyway' 'he was ugly dont worry about it' 'you're gonna be alright'
no, man. after a very intense relationship, my boyfriend of 2 years dumped me for a girl he'd know for one month, and she was such a bitch they lasted 2 weeks. i got totally wasted, cried for days, even punched him for kissing a girl in front of me.
6 months later and everything reminds me of him, i probably think about him like 20 times a day.
but it doesn't hurt as much anymore. things are finally getting better. i still miss him, and i'm lonely as hell, but i realised he's a dick and i don't want him anymore.
it does get better. very, very slowly.
you're not gonna be ok, not right now. but hang in there, **** improves, and you will be ok, eventually.
#134 to #132 - zoooeee
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(12/20/2013) [-]
also, that 'lets be friends' ********
don't fall for that.

especially not friends with benefits, that makes everything 10 x worse
#76 to #2 - KellyisAwesome
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(12/20/2013) [-]
You're awesome guys, I love you. You made my day so much better, thanks for the advice and stories.
#3 to #2 - shakermaker
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(12/20/2013) [-]
When it happened to me I forced myself to get a new lease of life. Get out, be there for my friends, be happy with what I've got because damnit if Ive seen people who havnt got ****. Drink more socially, Get to the gym- look better, feel better, be stronger move on. Create something for myself so that women arnt such a be all and end all situation all the time.

Hope it all works out for ya.
#15 to #2 - superkingnebula
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(12/20/2013) [-]
it happened to me too about a week ago.
My girlfriend broke up with me because i was going to depression and i was slowing her down. it's a really ****** feeling to be alone again.
#19 to #2 - hoponthefeelstrain
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(12/20/2013) [-]
My fiance is what brought me out of my depression. If he's not willing to be with you through thick and thin, then honey he's not worth the tears. Sure you'll miss them and you'll miss the good memories but he wasn't willing to love you through ups and downs and it'd just hurt worse if you two were married and he did this. Someone better will come along.
#18 to #2 - wedgie
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(12/20/2013) [-]
there, there woman, you'll be just fine.
there, there woman, you'll be just fine.
#32 to #2 - greenstrongworld
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Personally, I think he did the right thing. I mean, think about it like this. What would happen if you guys really got married? It wouldn't work out well because of his absence of love towards you. He did the right thing by cutting off before going too far. I'm not saying you shouldn't be sad, but I think you can't quite blame him for doing so. Instead, think about him more and more. It'll be hard, but soon, you'll find it a hassle to do so.

Stay strong *****.
#22 to #2 - IamSofaKingdom
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(12/20/2013) [-]
One time I asked my brother not to eat my peanut butter fudge but the next time I went to get it, it was gone. So I know that feel.
One time I asked my brother not to eat my peanut butter fudge but the next time I went to get it, it was gone. So I know that feel.
#57 to #22 - niggernazi
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(12/20/2013) [-]
lets hope he was allergic to peanutbutter. that evil ************
#30 to #2 - commontroll
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(12/20/2013) [-]
I don't know exactly what it's like, but I went through almost the same thing a couple months ago. I actually was becoming suicidal right before my girlfriend of a year broke up with me, just two weeks before I had gotten a love letter from her (we had been long distance for about four months) talking about all of these things about how I was such a blessing for her, and talking about all these things that made our relationship healthy, and she said we had to break up because our relationship was unhealthy and blah blah blah. Now she won't even talk to me because I want to just fix this.

Anyway, you're going to be okay. You know why? Because I'm assuming your name is Kelly, and KellyisAwesome. Learn it. Live it. Love it.
#136 to #2 - diamondperzik
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(12/20/2013) [-]
I know how you feel :\,
and i know there is not much i can tell you that will help that much, but you should go to a psychiatrist for that depression, i'm at one as well and it helps, it will also help you with this break-up since you got a depression this break-up will hit you extra hard.

You poor thing :\ but **** him, he isn't worthy of being your boyfriend if he lied about loving you yesterday, that's just awfull, the same kinda happened to me
#60 to #2 - werfgh
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(12/20/2013) [-]
*sending virtual hug* This is like a summary of the beggining of me entering into the "cruel world"
#61 to #60 - werfgh
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(12/20/2013) [-]
I won't be bitch about it, cuz no one cares anyway
#95 to #2 - anon
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(12/20/2013) [-]
To be fair you were probably "the most interesting girl in the woooorld!" I"ve met a lot like you.

Being a purple haired vegan who is completely unstable and can't hold down ONE obligation isn't as cute as it sounds.
#58 to #2 - theincrediblelegs
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(12/20/2013) [-]
At least this didn't happen to you. Feel better.
#72 to #2 - kidel
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(12/20/2013) [-]
>Girl says bf broke up
>All dem charming FJ gentlemens appear to help
#54 to #2 - kylermannn ONLINE
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Aw man, I'd hug you through the computer if i could.

Its gonna hurt for a while, but you gotta convince yourself that eventually you will find someone you love even more than him. You'll look back on this as just another part of your life eventually. You just gotta have the strength to pick yourself up and and move on, although It's the hardest thing in the world to do. Chin up, It'll be alright :]
#55 to #54 - samoaspider
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(12/20/2013) [-]
l1k d1s if u cri 3vr t1m
#25 to #2 - helenwheels
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Well, aren't you glad he told you before you got married and had billions of babies?
#52 to #2 - bossguycumsplash
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#9 to #2 - anon
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(12/20/2013) [-]
*roll image* lol faggot , what a fagggg omg this is sooo funyy funnyjunk sucks ifunny rules omg hahahahha thumb this down hahahahha but youre seriuosly youre a faggert go die
#16 to #9 - nommonsterbaa
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#44 to #2 - immaculatefelpi
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Hey, it only gets better from now on I may not know you but I have been in much worse situations (death of a friend, cheated on by gf) and everything makes sense at the end. Don't drown yourself in sorrow, learn from it and let it make you an stronger person. I don't comment much on here but I felt I needed to tell you this:

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together... there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you.”

(pic not related lol)
#4 to #2 - haqq
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#88 to #4 - pappathethird
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Completely inappropriate
#10 - thewizsam
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(12/20/2013) [-]
**thewizsam rolls 66**
#105 to #10 - anon
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(12/20/2013) [-]
**anonymous rolls 383**
#11 to #10 - thewizsam
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(12/20/2013) [-]
i didn't plan to get dubs
#12 to #11 - ChaosShuffle
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Did you just fail because you succeeded........
#13 to #12 - thewizsam
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(12/20/2013) [-]
then i didn't fail at all
#21 to #13 - babydingo
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(12/20/2013) [-]
failing at failing is still a fail
#1 - RogersRabbit
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(12/19/2013) [-]
What a slut.
What a slut.
#8 - guanyu
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Kali ma! Kali ma! Kali ma!
#62 to #8 - arreatface
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(12/20/2013) [-]
ahah
#83 to #8 - fatspartan
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Aum Namah Shivaya, Aum Namah Shivaya, Aum Namah Shivaya!
#114 to #8 - Monsterofthedog
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(12/20/2013) [-]
For people that did not know that means "Black Mother" in hindi or punjabi
#6 - cheeseprettyplease
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(12/20/2013) [-]
What a ******* bitch. People like that need to be shanked a few times
What a ******* bitch. People like that need to be shanked a few times
#17 to #6 - nommonsterbaa
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(12/20/2013) [-]
*few hundred
#59 to #6 - niggernazi
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(12/20/2013) [-]
i know rite? i ******* hate bitches who lives in commieblocks that collects hearts. that sure is ******* disgusting and her apartment would smell like **** because the hearts would sure have to started to rot. and by the fact that those people are even alive without their hearts are even more frightening because you would die instantly without a heart. this is so ******* scary that i almost shat myself twice.
#71 - foreverarone
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(12/20/2013) [-]
jesus christ, that woman is a organ trafficker.
#75 - cptmctavish
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(12/20/2013) [-]
well she can still shove the hearts up her ass and pussy and masturbate with it...
#85 to #75 - enemyoftrn
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(12/20/2013) [-]
The (I presume) still beating heart would be a nice tempo for a vibrating apparatus.
#124 to #75 - ffinfinity
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#96 to #75 - sirkanesixtytwo
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2edgy4me
#84 to #75 - adunsaveme
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#86 - thewisedane
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(12/20/2013) [-]
WHy the hell would she collect that many Human Hearts? They are almost no Septims worth, and are rubbish in Alchemy!
#93 to #86 - nicebeaver
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(12/20/2013) [-]
She feeds her khajiits with those hearts
#94 to #93 - thewisedane
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#63 - dehumanizer
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>tfw still cant stop thinking about her   
>tfw still getting super nerveous everytime she's on skype   
>tfw scared i might run into her
>tfw still cant stop thinking about her
>tfw still getting super nerveous everytime she's on skype
>tfw scared i might run into her
#97 to #63 - chaossniper
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find another one
#99 to #97 - dehumanizer
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(12/20/2013) [-]
No girl can be as good as her...
#107 to #99 - chaossniper
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(12/20/2013) [-]
so i thought of my ex but i moved on eventually
remember this :
1- if you landed her you can land others
2- if she quit she wasn't right for you
3- there are other fish in the sea both litterally and figurativly
#109 to #107 - dehumanizer
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>wish so
>i cant quit because she's too right for me
>not as good
#133 to #109 - snotnose
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(12/20/2013) [-]
To late. im already Poor. Suck my Dick Poverty Ghost.
#135 to #133 - dehumanizer
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#24 - helenwheels
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(12/20/2013) [-]
This post is disgusting.

You all are old enough to know that there are no super villains, you should all be old enough now to comprehend that you are not a perfect being and its not going to work out with everyone you get all revved up for.

People who break up with you are avoiding wasting there and your time. Would you want to spend years with someone who resents you?
Break ups hurt. Divorce and resentment hurt worse.
#35 to #24 - demandsgayversion
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This post is specifically referring to a cunt. It's not saying all female humans are cunts, but it's a representation of specifically those cunts among the human females.
#137 to #35 - helenwheels
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Its just saying that if you break up with anyone you're a cunt.
#138 to #137 - demandsgayversion
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It's saying that if you break up with someone in a cunty way - like tearing their heart out - then you're a cunt.
#41 to #24 - sunice
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Sounds better than being with someone who likes to store a bunch of human hearts in their apartment
#26 to #24 - ilikethisusername
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#37 to #24 - muffintime
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Well my ex gf cheated on me with some wannabe rapper and even though she cheated on me she still said she loved me (yeah slut logic rate there...)... I broke up with her because she really hurt me and I just wanted to get away from her.. So yes, she pretty much took my heart rate there and stole it... She still texts me when she's drunk and tells me that she still loves me, and I'm just like "**** you, don't text me"...
#40 to #37 - leprechaunne
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(12/20/2013) [-]
It's gonna be ok, she wasn't worth it.
#122 to #37 - ilikethisusername
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(12/20/2013) [-]
right*

sorry you misspelled it twice so i just thought maybe I'll correct it for you. don't want to look like a dick though.
#139 to #122 - muffintime
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(12/21/2013) [-]
sorry! English is my second language!!
#142 to #139 - ilikethisusername
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(12/21/2013) [-]
oh cool what's your first language?
#48 to #37 - cheated
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(12/20/2013) [-]
Bitches ain't **** but hoes and tricks.