yesterday I broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. She was very verbally abusive. She would use secrets I tell her to embarrass me infront of friends. Also when O told her a very imporant secret about a friend, which she promised not to tell. She immediately said she is going to tell people afterwards, and she did. She would tell me that her friends said bad stuff about me, even though I later discovered its not true. Whenever I said I can't take the abuse anymore she would say I am manipulating her with threatening a breakup. For a long time I thought this as well.
She would often tell me how dumb I was. She would get mad over everything and I mean everything. She would insilt my mother because she is a housewife. She would insult my brother when he was going through severe depression.
After treating her on a lovely date, on the way back, I saw a street performer getting ****** over by a drunk guy. I gave the guy $10 and she started cussing me out over how I have no respect for money and just throw it away.
I have lost allot of my self confidence and friends as a result of her. At the current stage Iam really unsure of how I feel. I know I should be happy to be away from her but I just don't know. I am not contacting her and don't really feel the urge to. But I just don't know how to feel.