Too close to home. someone close to me has been diagnosed with OCD. it's a horrifying and painful disease to deal with. People think it's quirky or cute, but do
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Too close to home

Too close to home. someone close to me has been diagnosed with OCD. it's a horrifying and painful disease to deal with. People think it's quirky or cute, but do

someone close to me has been diagnosed with OCD. it's a horrifying and painful disease to deal with. People think it's quirky or cute, but do you know how painful it is to have a constant screaming in your head unless you touch the fifth tile down the hall with the left side of your foot before your right seven times in a row before opening and closing the dor three times? even worse is, unlike other mental diseases, you're aware that there is something terribly wrong with you. You feel trapped in your own body as you're forced to go through emotions again and again. I've stayed up nights with her in my arms, sobbing because she can't face the public every day, knowing that they might see her as a freak.

tl;dr OCD is a painful, scary disease, and I'm speaking from experience.
inb4 exaggerating
inb4 hurr durr I have OCD

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User avatar #478 - lordgeneral (02/08/2014) [+] (6 replies)
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OP here. Something I want to clarify to all of you retards and faggots. I'm not saying you can't joke about OCD. Or retardation. Etc.

I myself am mildly schizophrenic, and had to deal with both DID and PTSD in the past. This friend of a friend was collecting donations and such on tumblr for her non-existent DID.
My sister took days off and got time out of class for her "social anxiety"

This is the **** I've got issues with. If you want to use hyperbole, or be some faggoty hipster, fine by me. Do not take advantage of non-existent issues while myself and others destroy themselves for some semblance of a normal life. No one should reap the rewards of illness.
#100 - giustobuffo (02/07/2014) [-]
>Be me
>Strange kid my whole life
>11 years old
>Get tested for ADD
>Turns out I have hardcore OCD
>That explains everything
>Meds don't help so I don't take them
>Still find OCD references and jokes funny because I'm not a touchy ****
User avatar #273 to #100 - AztecJew ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
makes you ownder what it was like the first time someone without a sense of humor found got on the internet.
"What's this? One of the many small things that infuriates me! If only I could let the whole internet community know that their careless joking has offended me in some way!"

then everything changed when they discovered the ability to post
User avatar #551 to #100 - awesomanium (02/08/2014) [-]
He's not really saying that people shouldn't joke about OCD, but that people shouldn't self-diagnose themselves with OCD just because they like being organised or **** like that.
#244 to #100 - macbookfan (02/08/2014) [-]
ADD and OCD is not anywhere near comparable.
#534 to #244 - rednax (02/08/2014) [-]
Child tests are wide enough to cover both OCD and ADD.
#543 to #534 - macbookfan (02/08/2014) [-]
True. Honestly i don't know what i was thinking when i replied that, now i look back.
#582 to #543 - giustobuffo (02/09/2014) [-]
It's okay. My parents were confused when they got the results back too lol
#101 to #100 - giustobuffo (02/07/2014) [-]
>14 years later, going strong.
>Big butt, so what
User avatar #111 to #100 - kevinipples (02/07/2014) [-]
you just **** on OP's life. i love you
#40 - optimussum (02/07/2014) [-]
its the same with being bi-polar

people self-diagnose themselves as bi-polar because they get upset sometimes

thats not being bi-polar

thats just being a little bitch
User avatar #73 to #40 - viscerys (02/07/2014) [-]
Are you kidding me? "they get upset sometimes... that's just being a little bitch." That makes zero sense. Everybody gets upset sometimes.
User avatar #74 to #73 - optimussum (02/07/2014) [-]
yeah, just because you get upset sometimes doesnt mean you have a ******* severe mental condition
User avatar #75 to #74 - viscerys (02/07/2014) [-]
It does not mean that someone's being a little bitch.
User avatar #79 to #75 - optimussum (02/07/2014) [-]
User avatar #178 to #40 - likasumboodie (02/08/2014) [-]
like you
User avatar #229 to #40 - folkflunky (02/08/2014) [-]
I'm no master but if I'm not mistaken being bipolar is being euphoric and anxious 6 months, then all out of ******* sudden you are depressed and want to kill yourself.
User avatar #239 to #229 - soundofwinter ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
Euphoria is actually less common than mindless anger
User avatar #329 to #40 - animedudej (02/08/2014) [-]
i think my Canadian Auntie is bi-polar... my my mother struggles sometimes dealing with her :/ she's a great Gal (loves Japanese Stuffs like japanese beer and sushi of witch i find she has good taste in beer)
User avatar #372 to #40 - ilovescake ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
Or human.
#393 to #40 - vista (02/08/2014) [-]
I have a chemical imbalance in my brain that leads to bi-polar and severe depression so I'm mostly depressed when I didn't take the medicine I had. My mom's side is what has this trait and I got it too now...
User avatar #397 to #393 - optimussum (02/08/2014) [-]
User avatar #408 to #40 - miscarriage (02/08/2014) [-]
User avatar #409 to #408 - optimussum (02/08/2014) [-]
missy pls
User avatar #410 to #409 - miscarriage (02/08/2014) [-]
I have diagnosed bipolar
User avatar #414 to #410 - optimussum (02/08/2014) [-]
User avatar #447 to #414 - thighhighkneesocks ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
My mom is severely bipolar. It drives me nuts when people tell me they think they're bipolar when it's obvious they aren't.
User avatar #436 to #40 - thematthew ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
true dat.
User avatar #438 to #40 - useroftheLOLZ (02/08/2014) [-]
The funny thing about being bi-polar is that while you amy hate it at first, you will be loving it the next.
User avatar #508 to #40 - zahnrad (02/08/2014) [-]
But a website on the Internet said it's true! It has to be!
User avatar #87 to #40 - derpingthederps (02/07/2014) [-]
Oh god yes
This pisses me off so much when people do that
#480 to #40 - kingpongthedon (02/08/2014) [-]
The impossible part is trying to explain how mania sucks just as much, and much more so in my opinion, than depression. People think the poles are happy and sad, when really it's closer to last drop of ketchup slow and ludicrous speed. Depression sucks because you can't keep up with everything that's going around you, while mania sucks because you're light-years ahead of everything else. It's painful, your best friends seem like ******* morons and you need to do SOMETHING whatever that may be. Chances are it's a bad idea but you're a genius so you know best and you go with it anyway. This is the story behind a bad tattoo, bum knee, and at least a dozen scars. The worst part is once you're aware of it, you constantly second guess everything you do. You catch yourself on a 5-minute monologue after being up for 36 hours straight and it hits you, you catch yourself but even as you're thinking "Holy **** , I need to slow down and shut up" you find you can't stop yourself from going overboard. And there's nothing you can do, you know that for the next month you have to babysit yourself, hoping you'll be able to step in and stop yourself from whatever *********** "Go big or go home" idea you come up with. Your only option is to wait out the hurricane, you just have to hope you don't mistake the eye of the storm for the end.
User avatar #50 to #40 - mutzaki (02/07/2014) [-]
Same applies with so many other things, too, like clinical depression and ADHD.
User avatar #117 to #50 - negrocop ONLINE (02/07/2014) [-]
I got diagnosed with clinical depression around the age of 12, it ******* pisses me off beyond belief when people so OMG I'M SO DEPRESSED because they haven't seen their ******* cat in like 2 hours. Bitch you sad, not depressed
User avatar #511 to #117 - fukkendragonite (02/08/2014) [-]
Now, now. Remember that there is a difference between saying you're depressed and falsely claiming clinical depression. I've been depressed (in the dictionary definition sense), but I don't think I suffer from depression.

I know there are people who do both, but remember that the definition of depression is deep sadness or dejection, and that doesn't have to be caused by a medical issue. It certainly is more serious in reference to the mental health issue of depression, but at the end of the day it's a word with a broader meaning, know what I'm saying?
User avatar #577 to #511 - negrocop ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
Though I respect your opinion on it, and your courage to state your opinion on the matter.
User avatar #576 to #511 - negrocop ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
I get ya somewhat, and I'm not referring to people that have had actual, say tragedy, happen in their lives that have caused a bout of depression within their lives that isn't caused by a mental health issue. I was more referring to those who use it as a term to be used lightly, as though its meaning is too broad. When it comes to the dictionary definition and the mental health issue though, the terms end of being very different. It's no longer a state of emotion, but more a way of life, as it affects every single aspect of your life. I just can't stand it when people use what should be the dictionary sense, if even that, for a small event in their life. Depression isn't a term that should be used lightly in my opinion.
#578 to #576 - fukkendragonite (02/08/2014) [-]
Makes sense I reckon. Maybe one needs to have experienced clinical depression to understand the power of the feeling of depression. It's just as an English student, I never want a word to be restricted in it's use. To only be able to use a word when an extreme is hit is not the ideal.

But then I guess if the term is used broadly, it trivialises the issues that some people suffer from. If a word is used for both someone having a bit of a ****** day AND someone who has suffered for an extended period and may have attempted suicide or self harm.... Well the two cases aren't comparable in the slightest, right?

Food for thought.
User avatar #56 to #50 - optimussum (02/07/2014) [-]
>clinical depression

i pretty sure most people who diagnose themselves as that are teenage tumblr fangirls that cut themselves because their favourite screamo band wont **** them
User avatar #57 to #56 - mutzaki (02/07/2014) [-]
Pretty much.
User avatar #206 to #40 - soundofwinter ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
bi-polar master race
User avatar #207 to #206 - optimussum (02/08/2014) [-]
**** off you lovely person
#208 to #207 - soundofwinter ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
Mussolini awayyyyyyyyy
Mussolini awayyyyyyyyy
User avatar #228 to #208 - zaxzwim (02/08/2014) [-]
where the **** have you been?
User avatar #236 to #228 - soundofwinter ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
User avatar #322 to #236 - alphabetagama (02/08/2014) [-]
"You made me laugh. VIP gulag for you" - Stalin
#485 to #208 - cosmicapprentice (02/08/2014) [-]
Hey, I missed you Hitler doesn't talk to me anymore :/
#492 to #485 - soundofwinter ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
I will always love you

...someone needs to photoshop the pictures together so they're high fiving
#470 to #206 - kingpongthedon (02/08/2014) [-]
That must be the mania speaking.
User avatar #179 - icameheretotroll (02/08/2014) [-]
I mean I haven't ben diagnosed by a professional but most people can easily claim that I have ADHD because I
User avatar #181 to #179 - tatatatata (02/08/2014) [-]
hahahaha good one
User avatar #222 to #179 - luckyspirit (02/08/2014) [-]
On the edge of my seat right here
User avatar #233 to #179 - Kadzait (02/08/2014) [-]
I waited for the rest of the comment to load for like, a minute until I realized I was retarded.
self-diagnosed retardation of course
#63 - AbsentMinded (02/07/2014) [-]
I had to thumb this down.

My OCD was playing up.
#62 - kanatana ONLINE (02/07/2014) [-]
MFW people tell me they have OCD
MFW people tell me they have OCD
User avatar #257 - brockton (02/08/2014) [-]
Neil Hilborn - "OCD" (Rustbelt 2013) relevant
#510 to #257 - VaultTechy (02/08/2014) [-]
ACTUAL-diagnosed with OCD, my girlfriend sent me this video once saying "wow, I understand now, I love you so much..."

then cheated on me, dumped me, changed her numbers and never spoke to again within two weeks of that. We were together two years and I'd started renting a place for her to move in with me. And now the video has double-feels..
User avatar #572 to #510 - brockton (02/08/2014) [-]
well shes a cunt
User avatar #258 to #257 - sjrigney (02/08/2014) [-]
Warning: The above video does contain some feels.
User avatar #392 to #258 - ponchosdm (02/08/2014) [-]
Massive feels...
#153 - sabukonoerika (02/08/2014) [-]
>Diagnosed with severe depressive disorder with OCD
I'm in psychology listening to a lecture about OCD and this bitch starts talking about how she's soooooooooooo OCD cause she HAS to have everything clean. I turn around and ask her if she cleans every day for hours, even if it's already clean.
"No, not every day, but my house is pretty clean."
"That's not what OCD is."
"Yes it is, I need things to be clean, I'm obbsessed with cleaning."
"No. No it's not."
I turn around and hat ho is still talking about her OCD problem. ******* hate this. You hear it all the time, "I'm so OCD because..." drives me up the damn wall....
User avatar #332 to #153 - animedudej (02/08/2014) [-]
tell me if i'm wrong but an example for OCD would be "if i dont do a once-over or more on my house every single day it will kill me"
User avatar #407 to #153 - pokemonstheshiz (02/08/2014) [-]
What class, general psych? She's probably exaggerating, but if that's your qualification for OCPD then you really need to study more. Take abnormal psych
User avatar #194 to #153 - bjorntheberserk (02/08/2014) [-]
My brother is a paranoid schizophrenic with ocd. He bleaches himself and wears those doctor face masks and gloves. He used to seal up the doors and windows in his room with duct tape. One time he literally starved himself for a week (he was obese when he started) a week later it looked like he dropped like 60 pounds I **** you not. He starved himself because we did not have any food that was pre-sealed. He only eats pre-sealed already cooked food this way he can microwave it in a bag and take it to his room. His room is the only place he does not wear his face mask or gloves. The reason why is because he bleached everything in his room.

So yeah I hate it when people are like "I do not like odd numbers it means I am ocd".
User avatar #80 - emokoneko (02/07/2014) [-]
As someone who has actually been diagnosed/treated for OCD, I 100% agree.

"OMG I"m so OCD I like even numbers."

"Bitch I just burned the **** outta myself because I accidentally touched a hot stove once, so had to touch it again until it was equal to my OCD number."
User avatar #448 to #80 - hatemefunnyjunk (02/08/2014) [-]
I once shaved my head completely bald because I found a strain of my hair on my shirt... I don't even have OCD... I have ADHD. That is all...
User avatar #81 to #80 - emokoneko (02/07/2014) [-]
Oh, and my OCD number is 5. So, this really sucks when it happens.
User avatar #460 to #81 - emokoneko (02/08/2014) [-]
It makes me extremely happy that this has 5 thumbs. :3
#512 to #460 - fukkendragonite (02/08/2014) [-]
God has forsaken you
#513 to #512 - fukkendragonite (02/08/2014) [-]
jk, I may be a bastard but I'm not a ******* bastard
#367 to #81 - taylorelise (02/08/2014) [-]
Mines 3 and my mother is even really sucked having us both end up doing 			****		 6 or 12 times to make each other happy
Mines 3 and my mother is even really sucked having us both end up doing **** 6 or 12 times to make each other happy
User avatar #449 to #81 - hatemefunnyjunk (02/08/2014) [-]
**hatemefunnyjunk rolls 8** Hue
User avatar #176 to #81 - kievaughnb (02/08/2014) [-]
Christ. You don't have nay way of controlling those impulses? Or are you completely lucid while you're burning yourself five times?
User avatar #371 to #176 - taylorelise (02/08/2014) [-]
You usually have no control over what you have this indescribable feeling inside that you have to keep doing it till it feels right..whether its to both hands (for example, i had to be even on my body so if i cut my right thumb while cooking, i had to cut my left thumb in the same place) or to just keep repeating the action a number of times till the feeling goes away and you feel like its going to be okay.
User avatar #378 to #371 - kievaughnb (02/08/2014) [-]
Wow. That really, really sucks. I understand a bit about impulse control, having ADHD, but that's just completely beyond anything I've ever had to deal with. Is the feeling based on fear (if you don't do it something bad will happen) or reward (if you do it something good will happen)?

Mara Wilson wrote about OCD: You need to login to view this link
User avatar #459 to #378 - emokoneko (02/08/2014) [-]
Mine is largely anxiety-based. It's really irrational, and I'm aware of that, but I feel like something horrible will happen otherwise. I do have control over it, but if I don't act on the impulses (which I can do, though it takes a LOT of effort and more mental stress than it's worth usually), I end up thinking about it way too much to the point it can cause anxiety attacks, and it is easier for me to just go on and do it and get my mind off it.

Sometimes I really wish I had the cleaning-type of OCD. XD Though, I used to be a lot worse. I'd scrub my hands with cleaners, brush my teeth until my gums bled, and was so obsessive about not stepping on cracks that I'd walk on my big toe in rooms with small tiles. Took a lot of work, but most of it's gone. ^.^ I still can't stand stepping on cracks in sidewalks, and I do wash my hands a bit much, but definitely not too bad.
User avatar #468 to #378 - taylorelise (02/08/2014) [-]
Its different for different people. Mines fear. I'm scared that if I don't do it, something bad will happen. Like if I don't stop to touch this tree with my left and right hands, the tree might fall on me or I might get hit by a car. Stupid things like that race around in my head and I cant shut them up unless I touch the stupid tree. I spent most of my school time doing things like this which is why I dropped out and studied at home. I don't really know why I'm telling you all this. Feels good tho man
#158 to #81 - fitta (02/08/2014) [-]
that sucks bro, I still love you
that sucks bro, I still love you
User avatar #203 - spooooce ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
I don't have OCD, but I am 'Anal' about things. As in, I would need the volume on a computer or TV to be a multiple of 5. I don't know why, but I just have this need for it.
User avatar #406 to #203 - pokemonstheshiz (02/08/2014) [-]
You can have OCD tendencies and not be OCD (OCPD in your case). That doesn't inhibit your life, so you wouldn't be diagnosed but you can have tendencies.
User avatar #555 to #203 - jellybaby (02/08/2014) [-]
I do that too, just on the TV, though. It's really annoying when someone asks you to turn up or down the volume, because 5 notches is quite a big difference.
User avatar #192 - faimbot (02/08/2014) [-]
I have OCD. I was diagnosed by a professional. But a professional skateboarder, so I am not sure if that qualifies.
#112 - joikacake (02/07/2014) [-]
There is a difference between obsessive compulsive anxiety disorder (have to turn the door lock 5 times every time you go there)
obsessive compulsive personality disorder (perfectionistic organized, ultmalitely inefficient).
#457 - juanbalcknwhite (02/08/2014) [-]
you know what really grinds my gears?
when i'm playing a videogame and i'm supposed to follow somebody, and their walking or running speed isn't the same as my walking or running speed.
#154 - julesk (02/08/2014) [-]
do you want to know what really grinds my gears?

slipping into reverse whilst still going forward when your driving
#23 - secretmouse (02/07/2014) [-]
I was diagnosed with OCD as a child, and it always get on my nerves whenever I see/read that someone who likely does not have OCD claims to and has self-diagnosed.
I was diagnosed with OCD as a child, and it always get on my nerves whenever I see/read that someone who likely does not have OCD claims to and has self-diagnosed.

User avatar #331 to #23 - animedudej (02/08/2014) [-]
i'm not "OCD" but i do find a peculiar comfort in Symetrical things

if anything i might be slightly Dyslectic as i was tested at a young age and given a laptop to type on as i had troubles writing for hand... but no official diagnostic (i did take an odd test though)

i higly dislike building Asymetrical rooms in minecraft for example
User avatar #422 to #23 - biggydy (02/08/2014) [-]
Dude, i have OCD.
User avatar #377 to #23 - rhiaanor ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
I hate it because I was diagnosed as a child and when I do something stupid or whatever because of it, people ask "why did you bother doing that" and I tell them I have OCD and they call ******** because people ******** a lot. It's annoying.
#120 to #23 - bellajoy (02/07/2014) [-]
Me too.
As someone with diagnosed moderate aspergers syndrome, it makes me so mad when assholes claim it just so they can get away with being dicks.
Having it makes every day difficult, because I have difficulty understanding subtlety of other people, I am extremely "tenderhearted" and that leads to me bursting into tears when I even think of something sad.

Not to mention my sensory issues. Baby talk, and soft sounds (like no-face from Spirited Away), the texture of unglazed pottery or chalk, certain colors of yellow, and people touching me for a few examples, all drive me into uncontrollable rages that terrify me.
Time will speed up and slow down for me, and I am so scared that I just lay there and sob.
I can move stuff, visually, and when I try to explain things, people can't understand the way my brain works, and I cant figure out another way to put it.

And some assholes claim they are like me just so they can blame their behavior on something.
User avatar #224 to #120 - toastedspikes (02/08/2014) [-]
Holy **** , that makes me understand aspergers a bit more.

Thanks man.
#330 to #224 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
I'm glad.

It can vary severely in between people, so it isn't always identified as easy as other disorders. Also, the popular image of autism is almost always wrong.
We aren't all savants, and none of us are stupid because of it. I personally have a freaky memory for facts, and thus am a top student of my university.

I can personally say that the majority of us prefer subjects in school with no "give" like math. I think it would be rare to find someone like me in a communications major, for good reason.
Hope that helps a bit more.
User avatar #320 to #120 - secretmouse (02/08/2014) [-]
I must admit that I know very little about Aspergers, but that sounds like a big challenge to have to face.

I can only imagine what sorts of BS you must have to put up with, including those people who will only see the Aspergers and refuse to view you as who you actually are (I've seen this crap, because my younger sibling has a very visible handicap, as well as a stutter, and most people seem to refuse to look beyond that and see how awesome she is)

I hope that you've at least got some great friends and a family that understands and treats you properly.

Thank you so much for sharing, you have enlightened me a little. Maybe I'll do a bit of research on the subject to learn more.
#327 to #320 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
I feel for your sister. Fortunately, and unfortunately, almost no one knows about my condition. Most people just have a general dislike of me, and most people think I'm snobby because of the way I conduct myself. I have no friends, and when I do make them I drive them away because I don't understand how to act with them, but it's not all bad. I love my family deeply, and I have a wonderful boyfriend who is the nicest guy ever, and I don't really need anyone beyond that.
I am an extremely private person, and I share very little with others because I have poor judgement of character because I really can only understand what people show me. I have no "gut" feelings to follow, so I could never dream of telling people about my condition because they could exploit me.

To be honest, though, my family loves me but refuses to acknowledge my condition because they simply do not understand. I never even knew there was anything wrong with me until I was in middle school. My boyfriend, too, loves me but he forgets because so much of it is internal.

All in all, I love my life, but it is like being on fire and not being able to scream because you don't know how. I can't communicate my problem with my people, and that's the hardest part.
User avatar #333 to #327 - secretmouse (02/08/2014) [-]
I'm very glad to hear that you've got a loving family and a great boyfriend.

I can only imagine how strong you have to be, and how difficult life must be at times for you.
Though, you love your life, so that is a great thing. Many so-called 'normal' or healthy people cannot say that. So, you must have some good things going for you, too, as well as a positive outlook on life.

Going by the few words we've sent back and forth, you seem like a pretty great person.
I don't actually have any friends myself (as a child, my family moved so often that I never had the chance, and now I am very socially awkward and have no idea how to make friends), and I don't know if it would interest you, but we could at least be online friends.

It's something, however small.

Either way, I wish you the very best.
#337 to #333 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
I think that even after such a short encounter that you seem like a very upfront and genuine person. (Which is very important to me for obvious reasons)

I think that online friends is about as good as it gets for people in our situations.

It must be very hard to move so frequently, and I know how hard it can be to make friends, so know that you made one today.
User avatar #340 to #337 - secretmouse (02/08/2014) [-]

Yes, moving so often wasn't easy, even though I got used to it.
And, I'm glad that I can count you as a friend. You really do seem like an awesome person.

[spoiler] My name's Lea, by the way.[spoiler]
#347 to #340 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
Nice to meet you, it really is my pleasure.

Do you mind me asking why you moved so frequently?

My name is Isabelle
User avatar #354 to #347 - secretmouse (02/08/2014) [-]
Very nice to make your acquaintance, you have a lovely name!

And, most of the reason is because my druggie father insisted on moving around. Like, up to 4 or 5 times in a year. A few times, the family was evicted because my mother asked the landlord to fix things like the plumbing or the heat.

Yeah, it was just stupid, really.

#357 to #354 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
That is something I cannot relate to, and it seems crippling. I feel very strongly for you.

Do you still live at home?
User avatar #363 to #357 - secretmouse (02/08/2014) [-]
Actually, that is a good word for it.
It's weird, but at the time, it didn't really bother me. It was just the way life was.
But, now that I'm grown up, I realise what an impact it's had on me.

And, because my sister is not well I live at home and care for her with my mother's assistance.
#365 to #363 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
Wow, that is seriously selfless of you.
I'm sure that your sister really loves and appreciates you and all that you do for her.
I'm sure that she must teach you a lot about yourself.

I have a very present role in my family, despite having moved into a place closer to my University. Nothing like your sacrifice, but I can understand the dedication that family inspires in people. In fact, I am headed home tomorrow to meet my nephew that was born last night.
I wish that I could be as good of a person as you. As far as I understand, OCD is seriously disabling, especially in the mental toll it takes on you, and for you to put your own needs and wants behind those of your sister is amazing.
User avatar #369 to #365 - secretmouse (02/08/2014) [-]
Firstly, congrats on becoming an auntie! That's pretty exciting! Have the proud parents chosen a name?

And, trust me, I'm not that good of a person, but thank you so much for the compliment.
It's nice to know that you are able to stay close to your family., despite being away at University (how do you like it, by the way?)

I honestly don't think of what I've chosen to do as a sacrifice, especially considering the situation I haven't told anyone this (I mean to say, who would I tell) and I hope you don't mind me saying, but the truth is that my younger sister is really unwell. She has advanced arthritis, Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, and a leaky heart, among other problems. She was sick as a baby, with a cystic kidney that was removed when she was three. The doctors hadn't much hope for her from the beginning. We found out early last month that her lifespan is unknown. She might have a week, she might have a few decades, they don't know. She's encouraged me to go and live my life, but how can I, knowing what I do? It was our mum that told me privately, and nobody has really spoken about it since. Sorry, I'm babbling... and the fact that I was absolutely horrible to her when I was younger.

#374 to #369 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
1. Thank you, he is my 5th niece/nephew, and I am excited about him as the first one! His name is Oliver (Ollie for short) and he is so sweet!!

2. I love Uni! I am an accounting major in a top financial business city, and the assurances of numbers are soothing for me. I am hoping to get into KPMG (the best of the Big 4 Accounting firms) upon graduation with my masters.

3. Wow. That does seem to be a huge disadvantage for her. She must be very strong personally. I can only imagine that she is super kind and loving as a person And i'm sure that how you treated her when you were younger is only consequential to you .

I bet she has an amazing perspective on life!
#384 to #374 - secretmouse (02/08/2014) [-]
Oh, wow, that's awesome!  Oliver's a great name for a lad, and I'm sure that it suits him.   
And, you must be quite clever, way to go on beginning such a strong career!  It sounds like something that you're passionate about, which is a bonus.     
And, yes, while it is a massive disadvantage for her, she is handling it amazingly.   
She's always been strong, and even yet, the amount of strength that she has continues to impress me.     
She's brilliant, kind, thoughtful... Honestly, she's as close to the perfect person as I've ever met (and I'm not just saying that because I'm biased).   
I can't help but wish that all of her health issues were mine instead, because I feel that I deserve them far more than she does.   Sorry, I'm making it all sound like some sort of over-dramatic soap opera here, aren't I?    
Thank you so much for listening to me, I actually do feel a little better at having shared my secret.  Really, I appreciate it.     
I feel terribly rude, but I must end out conversation, as it is nearly midnight and I'm pretty tired.   
I look forward to continuing this later on.   
Good night, and I hope you have a wonderful time meeting Oliver tomorrow!
Oh, wow, that's awesome! Oliver's a great name for a lad, and I'm sure that it suits him.

And, you must be quite clever, way to go on beginning such a strong career! It sounds like something that you're passionate about, which is a bonus.

And, yes, while it is a massive disadvantage for her, she is handling it amazingly.
She's always been strong, and even yet, the amount of strength that she has continues to impress me.

She's brilliant, kind, thoughtful... Honestly, she's as close to the perfect person as I've ever met (and I'm not just saying that because I'm biased).
I can't help but wish that all of her health issues were mine instead, because I feel that I deserve them far more than she does. Sorry, I'm making it all sound like some sort of over-dramatic soap opera here, aren't I?

Thank you so much for listening to me, I actually do feel a little better at having shared my secret. Really, I appreciate it.

I feel terribly rude, but I must end out conversation, as it is nearly midnight and I'm pretty tired.

I look forward to continuing this later on.

Good night, and I hope you have a wonderful time meeting Oliver tomorrow!
#385 to #384 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
Excellent, goodnight then!
User avatar #496 to #120 - greedtheavaricious (02/08/2014) [-]
Might as well share my own aspie story.

It took me years to be able to somehow control it. Looking back at my past self I just want to travel back in times to punch myself in the face.

Today... today it's barely noticable, anymore. I have a somewhat social life, I am somewhat empathetic towards others, lifting, engaging in conversations even ith strangers, hell, I can even use the gym showers without getting embarassed or anything.

Err, it's a bit vague, but I don't really know how to explain it better.

And yeah. It makes me pretty mad myself. Whenever bad behavior is excused with autism, or ADHD, or whatever the hell they come up with... that's the kind of person you just want to nail to a wall.
#556 to #496 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
It's pretty interesting how we are so different, but we are classified similarly.
User avatar #559 to #556 - greedtheavaricious (02/08/2014) [-]
Funny how the world works...
#341 to #120 - skorchy (02/08/2014) [-]
My brother has this but all it really does to him is make him an obnoxious dick.
Yes I know it's insensitive, but after all the years of **** I deal with occasionally I just want to scream and yell. He's my brother and deep down I love him to death because he is my brother. Just lately I've wanted to give him a high five.
With a chair.
In the face.
#344 to #341 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
I know that must be really hard for both of you. I don't think that you are a bad person for wanting to do that.

There is such a disconnect sometimes that it can seem inevitable, but I'm still sorry that you both have to put up with it.
#351 to #344 - skorchy (02/08/2014) [-]
Someone who understands the pain.
I get deemed a terrible person because sometimes my patience gets worn thin and I say terrible things.
It's like "Well excuse me, have you tried living with someone your whole entire life that ruins a lot of things you put time and effort into, causes problems when you have friends over, can't understand some basic things, makes noises like a dinosaur at 3am in the morning, and anytime you talk to him he just says " **** you" and then tries to punch you? Yeah no. Until you have your opinion on me doesn't mean **** . It tears our family apart. And yeah I'd love to have him be normal but that's not an option. I don't even want to know what he feels like, because he's an outcast and it hurts me with what pain he might have to go through"

#356 to #351 - bellajoy (02/08/2014) [-]
That is awful.
I really do understand, I think. I worry so much that I tear my family apart in a similar way that I can see how that would be so unbearable.
I can also feel for your brother because I am sure that he hates how he acts so much, and wishes he didn't do it, but he can't help it.

As far as I am concerned, "failure" to be a kind and gentle person means nothing. As long as you love him, and you genuinely try as hard as you can to be kind, then the little things don't matter.
Just like having a bad meal wont make you fat, losing your temper does NOT make you a bad person.
User avatar #231 - HailtotheKing ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
The one that pisses me off more than anything is people on Tumblr talking about their headmates. "headmates" are imaginary characters that people make up in their head because they want attention. Coming from the mouth of a diagnosed schizophrenic, headmates are the only thing I have ever actually been offended over. Like it's cool to hear voices or it's cool to have people in your head. You know what isn't cool? Being alone at night and hearing three different people tell you to kill yourself. Or being told that your medication will stop your mother from loving you. Or being held in a ******* hospital because you realized that the friend you talked to for a year didn't actually exist.

God stupid people on that site piss me off.
User avatar #256 to #231 - settlwlvs (02/08/2014) [-]
Every disease has different levels to it though. I'm not arguing against you about people claiming to have something they don't, but I am suspicious of having mild schizophrenia myself and not having a doctor's diagnosis doesn't mean that I don't have it. There is a voice in my head that constantly tells me to think/ do the exact opposite of how I really feel. I argue with it (sometimes out loud) and have to constantly rationalize to this imaginary voice that it is wrong and I am right. It has told me to commit random and heinous acts of crime that I am seriously against, hinted that I should do things with people that would honestly disgust me, and constantly convinces me that I should be paranoid over things that don't even exist. I am diagnosed with mild anxiety and this may just be a manifestation of the symptoms, but it makes me paranoid and sometimes scares me ******** that my own mind wants me to do these things.
User avatar #557 to #256 - HailtotheKing ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
Alfred Adler had a theory about balance in one's mind. He wrote that, even if you want to do one thing, your mind wants to do another. It sounds like that part of you has gained a voice and is actually communicating with you. But if you are still unsure, get a test. There are chemical imbalance tests that can prove whether or not you are schizophrenic.
User avatar #550 to #231 - ilovetocuddle (02/08/2014) [-]
Not to put you on the spot, but **** like this is why I'm ok with my deafness/egg allergy. I don't know I mean I have my issues obviously, and its not like its fun, maybe its the whole hearing thing but I can't even comprehend my mind being compromised, I feel for you bro.
User avatar #558 to #550 - HailtotheKing ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
I learned a while ago that it's not healthy for anyone when you compare your illness to another person. I was in a bad situation and there were times when I really did wasn't to kill myself but somewhere else someone was starving or being eaten alive by flesh eating bacteria or being torn apart by dogs. That thought made me feel so insignificant, like my problems didn't matter, like I didn't matter. So I learned to move past that, my illness effects my life badly just like yours does.

tl;dr: Judge your illness based your life, no on the lives of others.
User avatar #561 to #558 - ilovetocuddle (02/08/2014) [-]
I look at in reverse personally, my teen years were rough. the whole adapting phase was difficult, but what really got me through it all was meeting other people like me, and realizing I could have it alot worse off where I couldn't have a functioning life. It was easily the single most important thing to happen in my life I think.
#240 to #231 - angelmitskano (02/08/2014) [-]
I never knew it was like that man.
I never knew it was like that man.
User avatar #243 to #240 - HailtotheKing ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
It isn't fun. Truly, the stuff you see in movies is just not true for most cases. Like, "A Beautiful Mind" got it kind of perfect. Things that are irrational seem completely normal and things that are deep set just fade away. When I was in my early teens I once held my hands underwater for about three hours because I wanted to drown them because they weren't doing what I asked them to do.

Just think about that, I tried to drown my hands because they didn't do what I wanted them. There were no drugs or anything, that was just my mind.
User avatar #245 to #243 - angelmitskano (02/08/2014) [-]
Damn I wish I had known more about this. I really had no idea. Like you really just have thoughts like that and they really just are true to you?
User avatar #249 to #245 - HailtotheKing ONLINE (02/08/2014) [-]
Let me tell you about Jack.

So on my first day of Freshmen year I met this really cute girl named Jack. She sat alone in this corner of the lunch room and I went over to talk to her. She seemed to like me, I liked her, I got her number (alpha as **** ). And over the next few months I started to text her but never saw her in school. I always thought she was just sick or out schedules didn't line up or something. I texted her every day but she never texted back. Somehow I knew what she was feeling, though, like a writer telling the audience what a character is feeling. This went on for probably about six months before I finally started to ask around about her but no one knew who the hell she was. A little after that I was diagnosed and realized that Jack didn't exist. I never really saw her, never really talked to her and the number I was texting was a disabled old phone line. But it all seemed rational in my mind.That's the worst part, looking back I should have seen it but it never lined up for me to understand.

You know that feeling right after you wake up from a dream and all the extreme things seems perfectly sound? That. All the time. You have a friend at school, she's just sick a lot. You have a girlfriend, but she's always busy. There are monsters under your bed, but no one else can see them.
User avatar #254 to #249 - angelmitskano (02/08/2014) [-]
Dude what wtf I didn't even I can't how is this not like I feel like this isn't common knowledge when it seriously should be. I could not even fathom feeling that. I think I would just fall apart. What the actual **** this is not ok this is upsetting I'm so ******* sorry
#152 - imagebandetector (02/08/2014) [-]
I've been seeing autism carelessly being thrown around as well; it's pretty much taken the place of the word "gay" as a way of saying something's stupid. I remember overhearing these two guys in my class talking about a calculus exam, and one of the guys called the other one autistic for missing a supposedly easy question on said exam, which makes little to no sense.
User avatar #156 to #152 - sabukonoerika (02/08/2014) [-]
But.. autistic people... are... smarter....

God, I ******* hate people!
User avatar #167 to #156 - commandershit (02/08/2014) [-]
autistic ppl arent smarter , there just happen to be smart ppl with autism
thats like saying old ppl are smart cuz they got "so much life experience" , i could be sitting in my basement 24/7 never moving til im 80 and never having visited school , and suddenly im smart cuz im a bunch of decades older than you? No. And the same **** applies to autism
User avatar #169 to #167 - sabukonoerika (02/08/2014) [-]
That's true. I suppose I worded that wrong, typically they are smarter by chance, or are autistic because of their smarts.
Good point Mr. **** .
User avatar #348 - psydoc (02/08/2014) [-]
Awesome - one non-medial-professional chastising another non-medial-professional about not being a medical professional.

I actually think it's a good thing that people will make comments like, "I think I'm a little OCD". The current movement in psychiatry is toward looking at these issues on as being a spectrum. That's why you hear people talk about the "autism spectrum". A big problem in psychiatry is that there's a stigma with a lot of "disorders", and people won't get help because they don't want to get labeled. Well, I believe, the more people you have going around saying they think they're a little OCD, or a little ADHD, the easier it is for people to not be afraid of the label and get help.

I don't think reserving a label for only people who have very serious problems is really helping those people.
#529 - flamingwombat (02/08/2014) [-]
>be me
>have no mental health problems
#533 to #529 - scandaldog (02/08/2014) [-]
that's a good man
that's a good man
#523 - luxren (02/08/2014) [-]
I feel like i needed to comment on this, i barely ever comment but this really annoyed me, your description is wrong and your picture is not thought through and you have obviously done no research into this!
OCD is a mental disorder. It is different for everyone, you can get extremely mild cases such as feeling the need to have everything in line, or having to check some things a few times more than normal people would. Then you can get very serious cases of it where people just can't live their lives because it affects them too much.
Some people could have OCD just very mild cases of it, these are called Obsessive tendencies and should all be taken seriously in case they mature to the actual disorder.
Also depending on where you live the definition of OCD is different as we use different classification methods around the world so a professional opinion is not always valid.
please do a bit of research before posting especially if someone you know is going through this disorder.
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