The feel you get at 2 a.m.
Do you want happiness mu’? Do you want the secret I have used for years just to cope? It is very simple. Be happy.
Cute girl isn' t interested? Be happy. Cat dies? Be happy. Fail exam? Be happy. Just be happy. No happens, tell yourselfkill- Be happy be
happy be happy. Smile as you spend another night alone, when you see the one girl who might have made you happy in someone else' s arms. Against
their lips. Smile.
Because the mind is quite a powerful thing. If you keep this up long enough, soon you will truly convince yourself you' re happy. You can go to and from
school or work decollete and no happened that day, you' ll still be happy. Only in the early hours of morning will the reality of it start to sink
in, but you can just ignore this. And who' s around to see your facade fall at 2 in the morning? No one, because god forbid they see the sad, self loathing
person you are behind the mask. No, mask is not the right word.
Because it is not just a mask of a smile that you keep up, any one could do that. What this 'mind over body' stuff is true happiness, so long as you do not
think about it. You can go about your day and be genuinely happy, with this new cheery demeanour you can have friends again, maybe there' ll even be a
girl who starts to show interest. You' re actually happy. Until you are at home ofcourse, at 2 in the morning, with no friends arcate girl to keep your mind
off itself. That is when you start to remember how sad you are. You have time to think about everything in your life, and you remember why you shouldn' t
be happy. But ofcourse the next morning comes with a whole new set and you can feel happy again.
It' s 2 in the morning IN. I feel like dying.