son, what the fuck
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endorphinsrage (11/20/2015) [-] My friends and I are going to make a movie about it for our senior project. If funnyjunk wanted to see it I could upload it here.
Here's the Opening, it's really nothing but I think it's going to be really fun.
youtu.be/DVC_O4S0Nd0
Here's the Opening, it's really nothing but I think it's going to be really fun.
youtu.be/DVC_O4S0Nd0
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polarpulse ONLINE (11/20/2015) [-] Ah, I remember going thru that stage
an important lesson i did learn
an important lesson i did learn
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kinginthenorth (11/20/2015) [-] Everyone had that edgy phase. Some just take it a lil' further than others.
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polarpulse ONLINE (11/20/2015) [-] I wont admit that I still am kinda like that, I still wear the black clothes only because i'm just to that style, but I don't wear chains or spiked belts anymore or ripped jeans
however i'm still down about life since things been a bit rough for me, but hey thing will get better eventually when there's downs there will be ups
however i'm still down about life since things been a bit rough for me, but hey thing will get better eventually when there's downs there will be ups
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kinginthenorth (11/20/2015) [-] I had a bit too much responsibility at the real ripe age of 12 to get sad about things. Did end up making me extremely apathetic about most stuff.
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polarpulse ONLINE (11/20/2015) [-] i had responasbilites at like 12 with my older brother since i had to take care of my younger brother and my younger sistter
my older brother would help alot, but i wasn't a complete waste the only reason why I went thru this stage was because my mom and dad never gave me the attention I needed all my success were looked over, when i got straight As it was always "Your older borther has straight A+" I was never mad at my older brother for being better than me since he was much older than me. but to not hear a "Wow im impressed good job son" when i did something good was really mean, espcailly when i ****** something up for the first time they'd say that "I always ****** everything up" it was like I was never wanted to be born or if i was adopted or some **** , because they NEVER treated my younger brothers or sister like this
so at this point in my life I still help my brothers and my parents even if my parents treated me like ****
my older brother would help alot, but i wasn't a complete waste the only reason why I went thru this stage was because my mom and dad never gave me the attention I needed all my success were looked over, when i got straight As it was always "Your older borther has straight A+" I was never mad at my older brother for being better than me since he was much older than me. but to not hear a "Wow im impressed good job son" when i did something good was really mean, espcailly when i ****** something up for the first time they'd say that "I always ****** everything up" it was like I was never wanted to be born or if i was adopted or some **** , because they NEVER treated my younger brothers or sister like this
so at this point in my life I still help my brothers and my parents even if my parents treated me like ****
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kinginthenorth (11/20/2015) [-] I had responsibility towards my family to not die, accept punishment if i did something wrong, do the chores and be able to listen to whatever depressing drivel or drunken rant my mother wanted to dump on me. I was the uncrackable rock, the foundation of my mother. Any other time, i was invisible. Even when i was at my dad's, my supposed 2 days of rest, my stepmum kept making snide comments about me playing a lot of games and being quiet. Still does.
At one point, there was a huge chance me and my sisters were getting removed from her, so i couldn't let any signs of neglect show. I made her reduce her smoking, put my mother to bed if she got too drunk (since this was the most effcient way of dealing with her), took care of my sisters if she couldn't be bothered to and was nice to the boyfriend of the month.
Once, a particularly huge boyfriend and drunk snapped and assaulted my mother with a wine bottle. I stepped in to defend as a 12 year old vs a 2 meter tall giant. Needless to say, i lost. But i switched attention to me instead of him beating my mother to death. She got a concussion, i was still standing, so i was good to go. Not 5 hours later i was sitting at school still processing what the **** happened. I had nightmares, but no time to process it or care for myself.
My mother's damaged because of a lot of concussions in a relatively short timespan, due to her boyfriends. Her tendons are deteriorating and hurting every day. And it's the one thing i can't help my mother with, besides lifting everything for her and help her whenever i can. The only "damage" i got was being quiet, a rib that occasionally hurts like hell, a bad knee and loss of my emotions. But who needs emotions, i don't have time for those. Atleast i got one fantastic sense of humor out of it.
I don't even know why i'm telling you all this. I guess i felt the need to compare. Even though it shouldn't even be a competition. You'll be the fourth person that knows about the incident with my mother, including my mother and I. At this point of my life, i'm no longer invisible. Now whenever a huge decision is made, i get to have a voice in it.
Damn, i'm sorry for typing all this. I almost pressed cancel a couple of times. But i figured i'd just throw it out there.
At one point, there was a huge chance me and my sisters were getting removed from her, so i couldn't let any signs of neglect show. I made her reduce her smoking, put my mother to bed if she got too drunk (since this was the most effcient way of dealing with her), took care of my sisters if she couldn't be bothered to and was nice to the boyfriend of the month.
Once, a particularly huge boyfriend and drunk snapped and assaulted my mother with a wine bottle. I stepped in to defend as a 12 year old vs a 2 meter tall giant. Needless to say, i lost. But i switched attention to me instead of him beating my mother to death. She got a concussion, i was still standing, so i was good to go. Not 5 hours later i was sitting at school still processing what the **** happened. I had nightmares, but no time to process it or care for myself.
My mother's damaged because of a lot of concussions in a relatively short timespan, due to her boyfriends. Her tendons are deteriorating and hurting every day. And it's the one thing i can't help my mother with, besides lifting everything for her and help her whenever i can. The only "damage" i got was being quiet, a rib that occasionally hurts like hell, a bad knee and loss of my emotions. But who needs emotions, i don't have time for those. Atleast i got one fantastic sense of humor out of it.
I don't even know why i'm telling you all this. I guess i felt the need to compare. Even though it shouldn't even be a competition. You'll be the fourth person that knows about the incident with my mother, including my mother and I. At this point of my life, i'm no longer invisible. Now whenever a huge decision is made, i get to have a voice in it.
Damn, i'm sorry for typing all this. I almost pressed cancel a couple of times. But i figured i'd just throw it out there.
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polarpulse ONLINE (11/20/2015) [-] its ok to let it all out if you keep it suppressed it could lead to unhealthy issues
we both had alot of traumatic experiences your being one of the more worse ones and I hope things get better for you ASAP my dad use to be a drunk also and beat my brothers and me, but it wasn't as bad
and I don't feel is it as a competition I just wanted to level with you by sharing my experiences we are just telling each other our life stories, that's how most conversations lead to is finding out things from each other
you did good things and whether or not it will go un noticed or not will not change the fact that you always did the best thing possible and tried your best to not kill yourself
Like i tell all of my friends "When we fall we either get up alone or with each other, but we will not give up because that would mean we failed"
we both had alot of traumatic experiences your being one of the more worse ones and I hope things get better for you ASAP my dad use to be a drunk also and beat my brothers and me, but it wasn't as bad
and I don't feel is it as a competition I just wanted to level with you by sharing my experiences we are just telling each other our life stories, that's how most conversations lead to is finding out things from each other
you did good things and whether or not it will go un noticed or not will not change the fact that you always did the best thing possible and tried your best to not kill yourself
Like i tell all of my friends "When we fall we either get up alone or with each other, but we will not give up because that would mean we failed"
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kinginthenorth (11/21/2015) [-] The unhealthy issues (like the loss of emotion) have been there for a while anyway now. I've just learned to accept it. It gave me incredible mental strength, so i can handle most every situation thrown at me these days.
Ach, my situation now is all fine. I straightened my mother out, she's got a decent boyfriend now (one that's going to actually stay), she smiles and laughs a lot more because of my sense of humor, etc... My dad stopped getting angry at me He's a patient man, but if he runs out of patience, prepare to get flung around by a bear for mistakes i made as a kid since my stepmum moved in with him aswell. And my brothers moved out, which improved my situation. Having an older brother being a bully didn't exactly help, but i dealt with it.
Sheesh, if i list it up like that, it really does look bad. I never did consider suicide as a valid solution to the situation though. My mother (and more recently, one of my sisters) would crumble and that would be pretty bad for my sisters. I unfortunatly carry a lot more weight than my own.
I hope your situation has improved though. Can't stay in a bad situation for too long or you'll get too used to it.
Ach, my situation now is all fine. I straightened my mother out, she's got a decent boyfriend now (one that's going to actually stay), she smiles and laughs a lot more because of my sense of humor, etc... My dad stopped getting angry at me He's a patient man, but if he runs out of patience, prepare to get flung around by a bear for mistakes i made as a kid since my stepmum moved in with him aswell. And my brothers moved out, which improved my situation. Having an older brother being a bully didn't exactly help, but i dealt with it.
Sheesh, if i list it up like that, it really does look bad. I never did consider suicide as a valid solution to the situation though. My mother (and more recently, one of my sisters) would crumble and that would be pretty bad for my sisters. I unfortunatly carry a lot more weight than my own.
I hope your situation has improved though. Can't stay in a bad situation for too long or you'll get too used to it.
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polarpulse ONLINE (11/21/2015) [-] I wish i was a bit luckier, I learned to supress my emotions I'm like a robot now.. All my reactions are based on the situation so 70% of my reaction in real life is faked, because I dont know how to portray what I'm feeling and i have so much suppressed anger and sadness in me that there are days where I break down crying at night
but other than that I'm fighting to be happy and a better person in life even tho things are always looking bad for me, I almost got kicked out of school because I don't have anyone to take me most of the time
and this is the worst part of it I'm currently suffering from heavy paranoia and i wake up screaming sometimes because of my nightmares, my mental health is borderline close to insanity I have sudden thoughts of just killing myself even tho the current situation I'm in would be in a state of "ok"
I wouldn't say I hate my life, but the past few years have been ****
however this year it hasn't been that bad I only had 2 or 5 mental break downs last year i think it was 6 or 8
but things are looking up for me
but other than that I'm fighting to be happy and a better person in life even tho things are always looking bad for me, I almost got kicked out of school because I don't have anyone to take me most of the time
and this is the worst part of it I'm currently suffering from heavy paranoia and i wake up screaming sometimes because of my nightmares, my mental health is borderline close to insanity I have sudden thoughts of just killing myself even tho the current situation I'm in would be in a state of "ok"
I wouldn't say I hate my life, but the past few years have been ****
however this year it hasn't been that bad I only had 2 or 5 mental break downs last year i think it was 6 or 8
but things are looking up for me
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kinginthenorth (11/21/2015) [-] Don't supress them too hard though. It either leads to random outbursts or you get trouble experiencing and expressing emotions.
As long as you try, there's always a way to progress. If you keep trying to make things improve, they will get better eventually.
As long as you try, there's always a way to progress. If you keep trying to make things improve, they will get better eventually.
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polarpulse ONLINE (11/21/2015) [-] I know, because of this I can't express my emotions
i have that "resting bitch face" or whatever its called
because everyone would smiling and laughing and i would just sit there emotionless
i have that "resting bitch face" or whatever its called
because everyone would smiling and laughing and i would just sit there emotionless
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kinginthenorth (11/21/2015) [-] Heh, i just look and feel tired 24/7. Eventually it might get better. If not, i got a sick advantage in a situation where quick response is needed.
