Bad News today funnyjunk.
I.... Found out I'm going to die. They don't know when, could be any day now. My spine is growing bone spurs into my spinal cord itself. The wrong movement could sever it. I have already lost feeling in a sizable part of my right side. Over time it will get worse. At the absolute best, I will be in a wheelchair before I'm 50. Realistically barring a abrupt and miraculous change, it will be much sooner. My discs are both degenerating and dessicating... Right now they are in a shape expected of a 70 year old man. I'm 26. The discs with the worst bone spurs are c1 and c5. If c1 is the one that goes first... My heart and lungs will immediately stop. If it's c5, I will be paralyzed.
I... Uh... Just needed to vent. I'll be around for a while, I think.
Maybe if the VA pulled its head out of its ass...
Anyway, I'm poor, so meh. Probably won't get the help, even if it's possible. I just... Want to be in less pain.
At least now I know why I am. Complications from the Corps and a genetic time bomb most likely.
I just... I don't know guys. I'm tired of hurting. But I have a family. I need to keep going, for them. I'm just tired.
Sorry for the long bitchy post. It's a lot to process.
Love you faggots.